Friday, February 27, 2009
All back to the same as before.
Thank god everything going back to the way it was.
Piano lessons will resume this coming Monday.
Things are all going back to the way it was. And i appreciate that it does happen to be like this.
Anyway, can't believe i started back Granado Espada(GE).
Just out of the blue felt like playing it and somehow i did.
Started back only last few days ago and i rush my characters level to level 79 currently.
It's like, whole night i Away From Keyboard(AFK) training.
Trying to get level 100 as soon as possible and be a Veteran player and then Expert level.
Cool~
Today didn't go for jamming session as drummer going out so we had no choice but cancel our band practice. In the morning, gone off to basketball as usual. But this time with my homie, Fudin. And later his friend, or our friend, tag along with us. Great practice though.
In the afternoon, Amirul came to my house. Just to slack here. Afterwards i got to go off to Fudin's place to reformat his computer. Damn it's such troublesome though.
But oh well, everything does seems fine. No worries.
Yesterday gone for Dental check-up. Having bad painful sore at my Gums and few of the teeth.
In 2 weeks time i have an appointment.
Hopefully the pain will be over.
Tomorrow will be having my Archery Training and Amirul got his stuff to do at school.
So got to meet him at 6.45, 969 queue stand.
Guess that's all for the last few days update.
Kinda lazy right now~
Outs.
Piano lessons will resume this coming Monday.
Things are all going back to the way it was. And i appreciate that it does happen to be like this.
Anyway, can't believe i started back Granado Espada(GE).
Just out of the blue felt like playing it and somehow i did.
Started back only last few days ago and i rush my characters level to level 79 currently.
It's like, whole night i Away From Keyboard(AFK) training.
Trying to get level 100 as soon as possible and be a Veteran player and then Expert level.
Cool~
Today didn't go for jamming session as drummer going out so we had no choice but cancel our band practice. In the morning, gone off to basketball as usual. But this time with my homie, Fudin. And later his friend, or our friend, tag along with us. Great practice though.
In the afternoon, Amirul came to my house. Just to slack here. Afterwards i got to go off to Fudin's place to reformat his computer. Damn it's such troublesome though.
But oh well, everything does seems fine. No worries.
Yesterday gone for Dental check-up. Having bad painful sore at my Gums and few of the teeth.
In 2 weeks time i have an appointment.
Hopefully the pain will be over.
Tomorrow will be having my Archery Training and Amirul got his stuff to do at school.
So got to meet him at 6.45, 969 queue stand.
Guess that's all for the last few days update.
Kinda lazy right now~
Outs.
Labels: Normal Days. Im grateful.
11:31 PM
Thursday, February 19, 2009
Erm..Let's Scream?
Just felt like Screaming till the end of my lungs.
Not shouting, but screaming.
Or maybe screaming in musical ways?
Like screaming songs rather than screaming for nothing.
I dont know, just felt like doing it to let out my frustration and i dont think Screamo is the same as..Emo? Oh well, songs giving me different kind of attitudes and its really quite a long time i listen to Hip-Hop. Since the new year began, i kinda goes into Rock kind of stuffs. Except for Death Metal. Giving me the creeps when comes to Death Metal.
Oh yeah, few days pass, lots of conflicts happened in class.
Im not into it, but just accompany my friends who involved about it.
Now seriously things around me gone haywire.
Might as well says the whole world going upside down. lols.
I started back my habit of drinking..errrr, coffee? or Nescafe.
Yeah kinda felt good when i started it again. You know, the feeling of being Hyper. hahs.
Its like, 3 cans of Nescafe a day. Seriously, i didnt fall asleep in class. Example; during lecture.
Brain starts to function well. lols. Damn im insane...You agree?
There's something in my mind that i trying to end it.
Like forget all the past, or all the things that i done.
Yes i still felt the sickening things that happened starting from last 6 months ago till the end of the year of 2008.
Making fool of myself during that times.
Maybe better to say im tired of being good to everyone. Can i say that?
Once in a while, i need my own time, my own space, my own ways.
How good can i be? I even finding a silly relationship during that times.
If only im resistent enough or stick closer with my band or friends, nothing even happened i guess.
Nevermind, forget about it.
Living in a hard, earning life right now. Could say that though.
Im going off to bath and off to practice my piano.
Cant wait to feel the new serviced piano.
The touch and feel of it is totally different. lols.
Outs~
Not shouting, but screaming.
Or maybe screaming in musical ways?
Like screaming songs rather than screaming for nothing.
I dont know, just felt like doing it to let out my frustration and i dont think Screamo is the same as..Emo? Oh well, songs giving me different kind of attitudes and its really quite a long time i listen to Hip-Hop. Since the new year began, i kinda goes into Rock kind of stuffs. Except for Death Metal. Giving me the creeps when comes to Death Metal.
Oh yeah, few days pass, lots of conflicts happened in class.
Im not into it, but just accompany my friends who involved about it.
Now seriously things around me gone haywire.
Might as well says the whole world going upside down. lols.
I started back my habit of drinking..errrr, coffee? or Nescafe.
Yeah kinda felt good when i started it again. You know, the feeling of being Hyper. hahs.
Its like, 3 cans of Nescafe a day. Seriously, i didnt fall asleep in class. Example; during lecture.
Brain starts to function well. lols. Damn im insane...You agree?
There's something in my mind that i trying to end it.
Like forget all the past, or all the things that i done.
Yes i still felt the sickening things that happened starting from last 6 months ago till the end of the year of 2008.
Making fool of myself during that times.
Maybe better to say im tired of being good to everyone. Can i say that?
Once in a while, i need my own time, my own space, my own ways.
How good can i be? I even finding a silly relationship during that times.
If only im resistent enough or stick closer with my band or friends, nothing even happened i guess.
Nevermind, forget about it.
Living in a hard, earning life right now. Could say that though.
Im going off to bath and off to practice my piano.
Cant wait to feel the new serviced piano.
The touch and feel of it is totally different. lols.
Outs~
Labels: What a life huh?
7:43 PM
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Just So Blurr.
These few days i dont know whats wrong.
Everything seems so blurr.
I could feel that i didnt do well in my DMT group work.
Its like, im guilty for not doing my part and just taking credits kind of thing.
Yes although i done my part but just that, it wasnt enough.
Really really sorry to Mao and Suf for putting a lot of effort in our project.
My piano just gotten servicing earlier this afternoon.
Its been like 2 to 3 days i didnt practice my piano.
Or better to say like i practice 3-4 times a week, thats terrible you know.
Ever since gotten into ITE, my practice time was affected.
Since last year till now, i still cant blend into the time.
Dad selalu kate asal tak practice? Dah tak ade minat kan?
Tapi itu bukan benar. Kalau boleh aku nak practice hari-hari.
Haiz..Did Dad lost hope to me about my music isit? Cause he said those kind of words?
How much must i proove that i still want music?
Stop school and plays the music everyday the whole time? Is that what people want me to proove? Those words, it didnt give me confidence, but somehow im loosing my confidence little by little.
My recent class test gotten 11 out of 15 correct. It wasnt lucky, but i putting hope into it.
I dont believe luck. I dont think so.
People says good luck to me, i replied back, i dont need any luck.
I told them, All i need is faith or hope.
Sometimes hope must abandon on what we're doing but focus and concerntrate at it.
Right now my problems, what should i do?
Everything seems so blurr.
I could feel that i didnt do well in my DMT group work.
Its like, im guilty for not doing my part and just taking credits kind of thing.
Yes although i done my part but just that, it wasnt enough.
Really really sorry to Mao and Suf for putting a lot of effort in our project.
My piano just gotten servicing earlier this afternoon.
Its been like 2 to 3 days i didnt practice my piano.
Or better to say like i practice 3-4 times a week, thats terrible you know.
Ever since gotten into ITE, my practice time was affected.
Since last year till now, i still cant blend into the time.
Dad selalu kate asal tak practice? Dah tak ade minat kan?
Tapi itu bukan benar. Kalau boleh aku nak practice hari-hari.
Haiz..Did Dad lost hope to me about my music isit? Cause he said those kind of words?
How much must i proove that i still want music?
Stop school and plays the music everyday the whole time? Is that what people want me to proove? Those words, it didnt give me confidence, but somehow im loosing my confidence little by little.
My recent class test gotten 11 out of 15 correct. It wasnt lucky, but i putting hope into it.
I dont believe luck. I dont think so.
People says good luck to me, i replied back, i dont need any luck.
I told them, All i need is faith or hope.
Sometimes hope must abandon on what we're doing but focus and concerntrate at it.
Right now my problems, what should i do?
Labels: Concerntration.
11:50 PM
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Nothing much to do.
Ey. Nothing much to do this few days.
Kalau lah ader ape2 yang gerek kepe.
Bosan siot! Seriously to the core. hahs.
School project...Hmm..
Radio Show going to finish soon, need to learn how to be sound editor from my groupmates.
Using the Adobe Premier.
I helped out some of the works by making a Jingle for our Radio Show.
But kinda felt unsatisfied though. Haiz.
Lamer jugak siak nk habiskan.
This Saturday, hopefully able to go out with bestie, Sab.
I still INTEND to go Esplanade Library. But no one accompany >.<"
Any of my friends will? If can, thanks thanks. =D
Guess music still my passion.
Nothing could ever come in between, not even girls. LOLS.
I think thats all for the update, going off for my next class.
Lecture again...!
Kalau lah ader ape2 yang gerek kepe.
Bosan siot! Seriously to the core. hahs.
School project...Hmm..
Radio Show going to finish soon, need to learn how to be sound editor from my groupmates.
Using the Adobe Premier.
I helped out some of the works by making a Jingle for our Radio Show.
But kinda felt unsatisfied though. Haiz.
Lamer jugak siak nk habiskan.
This Saturday, hopefully able to go out with bestie, Sab.
I still INTEND to go Esplanade Library. But no one accompany >.<"
Any of my friends will? If can, thanks thanks. =D
Guess music still my passion.
Nothing could ever come in between, not even girls. LOLS.
I think thats all for the update, going off for my next class.
Lecture again...!
Labels: Bosan
12:44 PM
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Back to normal days.
Valentine's Day over everyone.
Back to old, normal days.
After all, V-Day still felt the same as usual. Nothing special anyway.
Just that people spent time and money going out. lols. Oh well.
Anyway, slacking in my fren's house right now.
Nothing much to do. We just record some videos for his drum playing kind of things.
And looks like people around me having a great, err, loving times.
Let them have their own time then.
Oh yah, too bad yesterday can't meet up Jaz at CWP.
So sorry LIL sis, hehs. There's always be other time right?
But still hopefully we able to meet. Dah lamer seh tk jumpe.
Rindu tahu! hahas. =P
Archery training quite bad yesterday.
The string kept hitting my arm till there's like 4 or 5 bruises can be seen.
Still felt the pain though and i dont know why i gotten it quite badly yesterday.
I never gotten this bad situation before.
After training, we lookout for the Juniors to shoot.
Most of them shoot better though, i'm impress. lols.
Think that's all for the update.
About facebook, i got hookup at this one "Particular" game.
hahs. -.-"
Back to old, normal days.
After all, V-Day still felt the same as usual. Nothing special anyway.
Just that people spent time and money going out. lols. Oh well.
Anyway, slacking in my fren's house right now.
Nothing much to do. We just record some videos for his drum playing kind of things.
And looks like people around me having a great, err, loving times.
Let them have their own time then.
Oh yah, too bad yesterday can't meet up Jaz at CWP.
So sorry LIL sis, hehs. There's always be other time right?
But still hopefully we able to meet. Dah lamer seh tk jumpe.
Rindu tahu! hahas. =P
Archery training quite bad yesterday.
The string kept hitting my arm till there's like 4 or 5 bruises can be seen.
Still felt the pain though and i dont know why i gotten it quite badly yesterday.
I never gotten this bad situation before.
After training, we lookout for the Juniors to shoot.
Most of them shoot better though, i'm impress. lols.
Think that's all for the update.
About facebook, i got hookup at this one "Particular" game.
hahs. -.-"
Labels: back to usual days everyone.
5:55 PM
Friday, February 13, 2009
Short update.
Long time i didnt update huh?
Well the reason was because nothing much to update bout few days ago, so yah that's it i think.
Anyway, Friday the 13? lols. nothing happened anyway, i dont believe such a stupid things.
Why would i anyway?
Tomorrow is the 14th of Feb, well i wish all the lovers and couples out there Happy Valentine's Day.
and yes i not gonna celebrate it.
Kinda...waste of time and money if i did.
Another reason is, i dont have a lover. lols. thats a good reason i guess. hahs.
Supposely today is jamming session.
But due to Hayat's sudden disappearance, we cant make it. lols. No offence. xD
So Syed just slacked at my house till night.
At 8.45pm, he accompany me to Pasar Malam at Admiralty and afterwards he went home.
Tomorrow he will be busy the whole day i think, busy celebrating Valentine. hehs.
All the best! =P
Erm, tomorrow..I dont have any plan after Archery training. Urgh~
Guess just stay at home and practice my piano and guitar.
Nothing better or much to do uhh.
Guess till here then i blog.
Wanna go eat Otah-Otah and crackers! hehs. ^^"
Outs.
Well the reason was because nothing much to update bout few days ago, so yah that's it i think.
Anyway, Friday the 13? lols. nothing happened anyway, i dont believe such a stupid things.
Why would i anyway?
Tomorrow is the 14th of Feb, well i wish all the lovers and couples out there Happy Valentine's Day.
and yes i not gonna celebrate it.
Kinda...waste of time and money if i did.
Another reason is, i dont have a lover. lols. thats a good reason i guess. hahs.
Supposely today is jamming session.
But due to Hayat's sudden disappearance, we cant make it. lols. No offence. xD
So Syed just slacked at my house till night.
At 8.45pm, he accompany me to Pasar Malam at Admiralty and afterwards he went home.
Tomorrow he will be busy the whole day i think, busy celebrating Valentine. hehs.
All the best! =P
Erm, tomorrow..I dont have any plan after Archery training. Urgh~
Guess just stay at home and practice my piano and guitar.
Nothing better or much to do uhh.
Guess till here then i blog.
Wanna go eat Otah-Otah and crackers! hehs. ^^"
Outs.
Labels: Pasar Malam.
9:51 PM
Monday, February 9, 2009
Sick.
Wanna update abit while waiting my DVD-RW to format.
Today didnt go to school. I know people always say sick dont go to school, this and that, blablabla.
But not just any sickness uhh.
Just happened to be my stomach that hurt.
The pain just remind me last 2 years on Dec that i was warded to hospital.
Something about food contamination or better to say food poisoning.
So yah, this morning gotten it, gone to bathroom lots of time. -.-"
Cant recall what i ate last night or this morning.
Thats why i always told everyone i not gonna eat or take my meal everytime.
If not these things always happened.
So it's comfortable for me not to ask or force to eat by anyone.
It's better for me to eat light meal or snacks that i used to it.
I guess it's Understandable right?
That's all to update right now.
My stomach still felt a bit of the pain again right now.
Today didnt go to school. I know people always say sick dont go to school, this and that, blablabla.
But not just any sickness uhh.
Just happened to be my stomach that hurt.
The pain just remind me last 2 years on Dec that i was warded to hospital.
Something about food contamination or better to say food poisoning.
So yah, this morning gotten it, gone to bathroom lots of time. -.-"
Cant recall what i ate last night or this morning.
Thats why i always told everyone i not gonna eat or take my meal everytime.
If not these things always happened.
So it's comfortable for me not to ask or force to eat by anyone.
It's better for me to eat light meal or snacks that i used to it.
I guess it's Understandable right?
That's all to update right now.
My stomach still felt a bit of the pain again right now.
Labels: stomach problem...
7:25 PM
Update.
6.13am...
just woke up right now.
Didn't felt tired or exhausted as yesterday night slept after 10pm.
lols, never slept at that time before.
Yesterday family outing was great but so tired but enjoyable.
Gone to bird park, for lil bro to see as that was his first time.
Anyway, i got nothing much to update right now.
Later on at 10.30am i've got school.
So about few mins after this, im going for basketball first.
I wonder what Eleanor want, cause she pm me yesterday night.
And Jaz, sorry i havent done the blog..err fun survey, seriously no time uhh. >.<"
Valentine's Day is coming? This Saturday right?
Well i'm 100% sure i not gonna celebrate it.
Normally couples only celebrate it, so what for singles wanna join in?
Might as well just stay home or go out do our own stuffs.
It's not even compulsory. So up to me whether i want or not.
i chose not to cause it's better for me to see couples celebrate rather than myself.
and lols, im tired of spending too much money on stuffs or people.
I'm saving up to spend something useful for myself. Or saving up to buy a new handphone soon.
Guess thats all i wanna update.
just woke up right now.
Didn't felt tired or exhausted as yesterday night slept after 10pm.
lols, never slept at that time before.
Yesterday family outing was great but so tired but enjoyable.
Gone to bird park, for lil bro to see as that was his first time.
Anyway, i got nothing much to update right now.
Later on at 10.30am i've got school.
So about few mins after this, im going for basketball first.
I wonder what Eleanor want, cause she pm me yesterday night.
And Jaz, sorry i havent done the blog..err fun survey, seriously no time uhh. >.<"
Valentine's Day is coming? This Saturday right?
Well i'm 100% sure i not gonna celebrate it.
Normally couples only celebrate it, so what for singles wanna join in?
Might as well just stay home or go out do our own stuffs.
It's not even compulsory. So up to me whether i want or not.
i chose not to cause it's better for me to see couples celebrate rather than myself.
and lols, im tired of spending too much money on stuffs or people.
I'm saving up to spend something useful for myself. Or saving up to buy a new handphone soon.
Guess thats all i wanna update.
6:13 AM
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Rage.
Exploded in rage these few days.
Just didnt know why im so pissed, so upset with everything.
Lost mood, no mood, throw tantrum, cant do anything properly.
Why i cant be best for mum or lil bro, or even my family at home.
Which part i made a mistake? Its like everything just blame me whatever happened to lil bro.
Just so upset, just so fucked up.
Why? Why cant i?
Maybe because i being so helpful and kindness towards everyone around me except my family till everything gone unbalanced as time pass by..
I already learnt something from a movie; being too much kindness are not even good as the works or responsibility are heavier. Guess its right after all.
Sorry mum, sorry to lil bro and dad for making a hard living because of me.
I just so damn wish i can be better than right now.
I always knew you always forgive your son.
Maybe these few days im not in the mood to contact anyone right now.
Just wanna have own time and spend more time at home.
Now handphone spoilt, MP3 spoilt, Sports Shoe torn.
I dont have handphone right now, I dont have MP3 right now and I dont even have shoe to go to school.
Like wth? If i want or need all that, can anyone even buy it for me?
As i sacrifice most of the things and money for them, will they sacrifice theirs for me?
Will they? I wonder..
I looking forward to my birthday this year.
Will be damn pathetic again as last year?
Only 2 of my gamers friends shared money and bought me a gift. Only them, no one else.
Disappointed though, as i looking forward for my close one for a gift, not them.
The rest, most of them only like, bought me a treat i think.
But still, i appreciate that they bought the gift.
Cause thats the ONLY birthday present i got from my frens in my whole 17 years of life.
Just didnt know why im so pissed, so upset with everything.
Lost mood, no mood, throw tantrum, cant do anything properly.
Why i cant be best for mum or lil bro, or even my family at home.
Which part i made a mistake? Its like everything just blame me whatever happened to lil bro.
Just so upset, just so fucked up.
Why? Why cant i?
Maybe because i being so helpful and kindness towards everyone around me except my family till everything gone unbalanced as time pass by..
I already learnt something from a movie; being too much kindness are not even good as the works or responsibility are heavier. Guess its right after all.
Sorry mum, sorry to lil bro and dad for making a hard living because of me.
I just so damn wish i can be better than right now.
I always knew you always forgive your son.
Maybe these few days im not in the mood to contact anyone right now.
Just wanna have own time and spend more time at home.
Now handphone spoilt, MP3 spoilt, Sports Shoe torn.
I dont have handphone right now, I dont have MP3 right now and I dont even have shoe to go to school.
Like wth? If i want or need all that, can anyone even buy it for me?
As i sacrifice most of the things and money for them, will they sacrifice theirs for me?
Will they? I wonder..
I looking forward to my birthday this year.
Will be damn pathetic again as last year?
Only 2 of my gamers friends shared money and bought me a gift. Only them, no one else.
Disappointed though, as i looking forward for my close one for a gift, not them.
The rest, most of them only like, bought me a treat i think.
But still, i appreciate that they bought the gift.
Cause thats the ONLY birthday present i got from my frens in my whole 17 years of life.
Labels: Burst into flame of phoenix.
9:00 PM
Monday, February 2, 2009
Groove Coverage
I started back playing cover from Groove Coverage, God Is A Girl.
A song that is long long time ago. Now played again and try and improvise better.
This one the video i record was kinda unprepared.
So there's quite a number of mistake in it.
Enjoy!
A song that is long long time ago. Now played again and try and improvise better.
This one the video i record was kinda unprepared.
So there's quite a number of mistake in it.
Enjoy!
Labels: "God Is A Girl Piano Cover"
9:26 PM
"In the world,
there's no such thing as impassable obstacles."
there's no such thing as impassable obstacles."
7:58 PM
Sunday, February 1, 2009
Your Sword Versus My Dagger.
At last, I able to play my all time favourite song.
Thought in the first place i wouldnt be able to play, but put up confidence and as time pass by, i able to play the song with the band too.
I gonna put up the video here, Silverstein - Your Sword Versus My Dagger
Thought in the first place i wouldnt be able to play, but put up confidence and as time pass by, i able to play the song with the band too.
I gonna put up the video here, Silverstein - Your Sword Versus My Dagger
Labels: Guitar Cover.
6:47 PM
Seven or 7
Ok, everything's done.
Just finished formatting my Deskstop Computer once more.
I think this gonna be the 6th time I format it. lols.
Seriously, i got to format whenever i needed to.
Too many junks inside till lagg.
I tried out the Windows 7, the newest and upcoming Operating System.
Now in a Beta test, so might have glitchy here and there.
But seriously, the OS was awesome and even the latest live messenger.
Guess that my computer was updated with everything the latest and upcoming ones.
Too bad gonna have bugs and glitch around.
So maybe later on at 5am I might be ready for myself to go for basketball practice till 7am. Just got addicted to it and wanna make myself taller just a bit >.<"
Till here i update then.
Need to install Anti-Virus software. -.-"
Just finished formatting my Deskstop Computer once more.
I think this gonna be the 6th time I format it. lols.
Seriously, i got to format whenever i needed to.
Too many junks inside till lagg.
I tried out the Windows 7, the newest and upcoming Operating System.
Now in a Beta test, so might have glitchy here and there.
But seriously, the OS was awesome and even the latest live messenger.
Guess that my computer was updated with everything the latest and upcoming ones.
Too bad gonna have bugs and glitch around.
So maybe later on at 5am I might be ready for myself to go for basketball practice till 7am. Just got addicted to it and wanna make myself taller just a bit >.<"
Till here i update then.
Need to install Anti-Virus software. -.-"
Labels: New OS.
3:54 AM
