Sunday, November 30, 2008
lack of..
is there anyone that can love me like i do..
the only thing i lack in my life is love..
it's so easy for everyone, for people around me to love..
but it's just so hard for me...
haiz..
i want someone to love me..to be right by my side..
but always no one...no one at all.
why must this always happen to me..
someone even said "loving overcome other feelings"
is that true..? i not sure about that..
they're so good, they gotten the best thing in life except me..
just easy to say that i never been love truthfully by someone before..
the only thing i lack in my life is love..
it's so easy for everyone, for people around me to love..
but it's just so hard for me...
haiz..
i want someone to love me..to be right by my side..
but always no one...no one at all.
why must this always happen to me..
someone even said "loving overcome other feelings"
is that true..? i not sure about that..
they're so good, they gotten the best thing in life except me..
just easy to say that i never been love truthfully by someone before..
Labels: love..
6:30 PM
High hopes gone...
so high hopes in the end vanished..
plan already to go out eat then cancelled again last minute.
mood all gone. lost.
not sure what to do now. just finished playing hs5. still didnt felt anything.
just thanks for the dance.
i wonder where's everyone when i need someone to talk with or be with.
while people looking for help, i always be there.
people argue, i always giving in.
giving in too much, people just step on my head.
and dont even care..dont even give a damn bout it.
whats my feeling now..
emo-ing? nah. i no time to emo. sick and tired...and hungry.
but lost appetite. what want me to do now..
why is it just so hard..
why..can anyone even answer this question...?
people always didnt aware of what they said..
when i made them aware, in the end they blame me for it. wont accept the fact...
they can said anything they want and we just gonna keep quiet and accept it..giving in.
if we said something like them, they gonna disagree and wont accept it. they gonna say "think before you said anything" or "talk without brain."
in the end, argument comes up. lols..
common things always happen..even happen inside the family.
happens everyone around. cant blame anyone for it.
i wonder what should i do now...
plan already to go out eat then cancelled again last minute.
mood all gone. lost.
not sure what to do now. just finished playing hs5. still didnt felt anything.
just thanks for the dance.
i wonder where's everyone when i need someone to talk with or be with.
while people looking for help, i always be there.
people argue, i always giving in.
giving in too much, people just step on my head.
and dont even care..dont even give a damn bout it.
whats my feeling now..
emo-ing? nah. i no time to emo. sick and tired...and hungry.
but lost appetite. what want me to do now..
why is it just so hard..
why..can anyone even answer this question...?
people always didnt aware of what they said..
when i made them aware, in the end they blame me for it. wont accept the fact...
they can said anything they want and we just gonna keep quiet and accept it..giving in.
if we said something like them, they gonna disagree and wont accept it. they gonna say "think before you said anything" or "talk without brain."
in the end, argument comes up. lols..
common things always happen..even happen inside the family.
happens everyone around. cant blame anyone for it.
i wonder what should i do now...
3:10 PM
boredom kills me..
totally fucking bored man..
what to do now..no mood to play games, no mood to do this, no mood to do that.
all i done just now was sat on my chair and stare blankly at the computer screen..at the LCD screen..and at my wall room.
serious shit sia..just felt like wanna go out right now.
go somewhere, taking fresh air or something.
sick and tired of putting myself inside of my room, all alone with no one.
it's like being trap inside a Pandora's Box. =.="
if i want to trap myself in my own room, but there's someone inside, then it's ok lah.
cause still can have fun, and to talk with, or accompany. haiz.
since tomorrow, on Sunday dont have any plans..
i just go and do house cleaning then..
after wards maybe find anyone to go out with, or slack or whatever uhh.
dont really bothers, whether early plan..or last minute plan..
as long as i got someone to accompany or talk and going out.
people said boring go sleep..
lols..like what the hell...
everything sleep and sleep and sleep..
fucking lazy pig lah if always wanna sleep..hahs.
holiday also wanna have long sleep izit?
sleep at night leh..i always sleep at night but will wake up in the next morning.
i never ever slept till the next day afternoon or evening or 24hours sleep. never had.
maybe like between 12mn-4am, then go sleep and woke up in the next morning..?
at least not being a pig lorh. but being an owl. hehx. >.<"
isnt that good? lols.
oh and i dont take afternoon nap. lols. nope. i dont.
im not the type who take afternoon nap.
normally afternoon surely find things to do rather than sleeping.
felt so active lah. hahas. parents always encourage me go have afternoon sleep.
but i cant, cant sleep in the afternoon. dont ask why. just..cant? not the right time for me.
since now nothing to do..and only 8 people online in msn but dont even give a damn..
i might as well go and sleep. hahs.
and ooo..looks like someone havent go sleep also..
i think he waiting for someone to get home uhh...or busy playing his favourite stuff. or both.
lols...
maybe i just go lie down on bed and recalls back everything...
what to do now..no mood to play games, no mood to do this, no mood to do that.
all i done just now was sat on my chair and stare blankly at the computer screen..at the LCD screen..and at my wall room.
serious shit sia..just felt like wanna go out right now.
go somewhere, taking fresh air or something.
sick and tired of putting myself inside of my room, all alone with no one.
it's like being trap inside a Pandora's Box. =.="
if i want to trap myself in my own room, but there's someone inside, then it's ok lah.
cause still can have fun, and to talk with, or accompany. haiz.
since tomorrow, on Sunday dont have any plans..
i just go and do house cleaning then..
after wards maybe find anyone to go out with, or slack or whatever uhh.
dont really bothers, whether early plan..or last minute plan..
as long as i got someone to accompany or talk and going out.
people said boring go sleep..
lols..like what the hell...
everything sleep and sleep and sleep..
fucking lazy pig lah if always wanna sleep..hahs.
holiday also wanna have long sleep izit?
sleep at night leh..i always sleep at night but will wake up in the next morning.
i never ever slept till the next day afternoon or evening or 24hours sleep. never had.
maybe like between 12mn-4am, then go sleep and woke up in the next morning..?
at least not being a pig lorh. but being an owl. hehx. >.<"
isnt that good? lols.
oh and i dont take afternoon nap. lols. nope. i dont.
im not the type who take afternoon nap.
normally afternoon surely find things to do rather than sleeping.
felt so active lah. hahas. parents always encourage me go have afternoon sleep.
but i cant, cant sleep in the afternoon. dont ask why. just..cant? not the right time for me.
since now nothing to do..and only 8 people online in msn but dont even give a damn..
i might as well go and sleep. hahs.
and ooo..looks like someone havent go sleep also..
i think he waiting for someone to get home uhh...or busy playing his favourite stuff. or both.
lols...
maybe i just go lie down on bed and recalls back everything...
Labels: boredom
2:53 AM
Saturday, November 29, 2008
water leakage..
that's where the leakage came from..
1st shot of the water leakage =.="
2nd shot of the leakage...
errr..omg?
aircon water leakage inside my room..its like...
WTF?!
the water drippings onto my LCD Tv..onto my side of Xbox360..
and from the table it drips down to the power circuit...
and the thing is, i heard like "zzt zzt zzzt" at the power circuit..
it dripped like..more than 15mins already? lol i not sure..
if i kept it going like that, maybe i gotten electric shocked already lorh...
cause power circuit leh..its like something u cannot mess around with..
water drip in some more..
and omg..my tv and xbox360...their lives going end? dotts~
anyways..thank god i awake..
if not..lols..not sure what's next for me..
and last few hours ago, my watch i bought from overseas last year, the suppport part broke..
shit..bought it from US, delivered by Fedex some more..and now it broke..
errr..hope that watch shop can fix it. i sooooo must get it fix it as soon as possible..
the watch cant get in singapore leh..like omg..>.<"
haiz...pls pls pls..2 more days till dec..must bare the problems =.="
so dislike november...even from last year i dislike it already..
many problems occured..
just finished editing honey's blog. look so great..
like woah. so the high standard. xD hahs.
now she gone out leh..haiz...bored~~~~~~~~~~~
Labels: leakage...
11:52 PM
came back home...after midnight..
oh my god..
gotten back home 15mins past midnight.
i cant believe that i spent like, 11- 12 hours in school to finish up the 3D Max project.
The final year project..heard that it's the time that will earn lost of points.
So guess i have to do everything by today. As it's the only time to hand in.
I cant eat, cant sleep, cant have fun, cant meet honey just now.
All i do is stay in class after my Make-Up Phase Test and do, do and do.
With out giving up at all.
Exactly at around 10.30pm, our project is finally came to an end.
Suppose today meet honey as it's our time and have time together.
But guess i cant. just so busy with the project till i cant even go back home. haiz.
sorry honey, sorry cant meet you at bugis just now or spend time together.
but i promised, on 1st dec, no matter what time we're going, it's my treat to movies.
just like before we used to go out together.
now big projects have finally came to an end.
and our animation is done.
i'll posting up the animation in blog when it's already render. to let everyone see. hahas.
and all left now is 2 days of exams on 4th and 5th dec, which i prepared,
MFDI Phase Test 2.
and magazine..errr.. that one i done my part already.
so yah. covered everything smoothly.
now it's 12.45am. heard that honey went to bed already.
i know something's not alright somehow.
have a great rest and sleep well Hun..
and yes im working on your html roll roll thing. hahas.
honey html so advance. i learning new things somehow. lols.
try and risk. anything just have a backup file. no worries.
i'll tell you when it's done k hun?
erm. whole day havent eat. aiyoh.
skipped my meal l whole day. it's like more than puasa. lols!
but still, i didnt complaint somehow =.="
errr..guess not going out and buy food lah. dont want find trouble for myself.
dad help me buy food. thanks alot. and i only want rice please~~
any kind of cook rice. hungry now and still remembered honey ask to eat proper meals. dotts~
k lah. anything i'll just update again.
looking forward for december.
as it's a new month, means a new day with great happiness i felt somehow.
Sayang honey~~~
miss you lots also...
gotten back home 15mins past midnight.
i cant believe that i spent like, 11- 12 hours in school to finish up the 3D Max project.
The final year project..heard that it's the time that will earn lost of points.
So guess i have to do everything by today. As it's the only time to hand in.
I cant eat, cant sleep, cant have fun, cant meet honey just now.
All i do is stay in class after my Make-Up Phase Test and do, do and do.
With out giving up at all.
Exactly at around 10.30pm, our project is finally came to an end.
Suppose today meet honey as it's our time and have time together.
But guess i cant. just so busy with the project till i cant even go back home. haiz.
sorry honey, sorry cant meet you at bugis just now or spend time together.
but i promised, on 1st dec, no matter what time we're going, it's my treat to movies.
just like before we used to go out together.
now big projects have finally came to an end.
and our animation is done.
i'll posting up the animation in blog when it's already render. to let everyone see. hahas.
and all left now is 2 days of exams on 4th and 5th dec, which i prepared,
MFDI Phase Test 2.
and magazine..errr.. that one i done my part already.
so yah. covered everything smoothly.
now it's 12.45am. heard that honey went to bed already.
i know something's not alright somehow.
have a great rest and sleep well Hun..
and yes im working on your html roll roll thing. hahas.
honey html so advance. i learning new things somehow. lols.
try and risk. anything just have a backup file. no worries.
i'll tell you when it's done k hun?
erm. whole day havent eat. aiyoh.
skipped my meal l whole day. it's like more than puasa. lols!
but still, i didnt complaint somehow =.="
errr..guess not going out and buy food lah. dont want find trouble for myself.
dad help me buy food. thanks alot. and i only want rice please~~
any kind of cook rice. hungry now and still remembered honey ask to eat proper meals. dotts~
k lah. anything i'll just update again.
looking forward for december.
as it's a new month, means a new day with great happiness i felt somehow.
Sayang honey~~~
miss you lots also...
Labels: came back late midnight
12:39 AM
Friday, November 28, 2008
posting bout just now..
erm...now i guess things will be back to normal?
like, i will not gonna have too much pressure as some tests ended.
but..err..tomorrow, which is friday, will be the pressurize day uhh..
cause morning at 9.30am will having my IT Essential Phase test.
that one no issue, just open up the CPU, take out everything and fix back the right position.
that one i can pass. i confident, but not over-confident k. hahas.
errr..9.30am till 11am the time. i can done it by 10 or 10.30am.
so at 11am, will be having my make-up MFDI Phase Test1.
classmates told me the test is designing a business name card..?
holy crap lorh. told u i not good in designing. haiz. maybe that i'll suffer.
continue with the topic..
the MFDI Phase Test1, will be 3 hours. lols. insane.
so, till 2pm right? then not sure if able to continue the 3D Max Final Year Project.
just see how tomorrow.
tomorrow is friday, normally is the day that meet honey every week..
hopefully tomorrow able to meet her again. once a week not satisfied u know meeting our love ones..lols. seriously seh..
but just now in the evening met her for dinner at CWP.
then gone off to buy lil bro's porridge. so honey came by and hang out here.
so yeah, i guess we'll be spending more time again as usual..?
December is coming..and November is ending..woo~
Must be confident that December is a great month. lols.
errr..still...December 4th and 5th, i having my exams. LOLS!
but nevermind, before the exams start, i completed everything else already.
test will be done, assignments and projects will all be handed in...
After the 1st week of December, is my Rest Time..hehx >.<"
cannot wait uhh..
and errr..hopefully 1st Dec can go watch movie with honey ehk..? hahas.
it's a must. V(^.^)V
and since i done a major updated to my blog..
guess honey made hers as well..
her blog looks great with the current wallpaper she using right now..
like wah. it looks great and matches with the font colours though...
i wonder who done it for you honey? hahas.
hope you love it k hun? ^^"
like, i will not gonna have too much pressure as some tests ended.
but..err..tomorrow, which is friday, will be the pressurize day uhh..
cause morning at 9.30am will having my IT Essential Phase test.
that one no issue, just open up the CPU, take out everything and fix back the right position.
that one i can pass. i confident, but not over-confident k. hahas.
errr..9.30am till 11am the time. i can done it by 10 or 10.30am.
so at 11am, will be having my make-up MFDI Phase Test1.
classmates told me the test is designing a business name card..?
holy crap lorh. told u i not good in designing. haiz. maybe that i'll suffer.
continue with the topic..
the MFDI Phase Test1, will be 3 hours. lols. insane.
so, till 2pm right? then not sure if able to continue the 3D Max Final Year Project.
just see how tomorrow.
tomorrow is friday, normally is the day that meet honey every week..
hopefully tomorrow able to meet her again. once a week not satisfied u know meeting our love ones..lols. seriously seh..
but just now in the evening met her for dinner at CWP.
then gone off to buy lil bro's porridge. so honey came by and hang out here.
so yeah, i guess we'll be spending more time again as usual..?
December is coming..and November is ending..woo~
Must be confident that December is a great month. lols.
errr..still...December 4th and 5th, i having my exams. LOLS!
but nevermind, before the exams start, i completed everything else already.
test will be done, assignments and projects will all be handed in...
After the 1st week of December, is my Rest Time..hehx >.<"
cannot wait uhh..
and errr..hopefully 1st Dec can go watch movie with honey ehk..? hahas.
it's a must. V(^.^)V
and since i done a major updated to my blog..
guess honey made hers as well..
her blog looks great with the current wallpaper she using right now..
like wah. it looks great and matches with the font colours though...
i wonder who done it for you honey? hahas.
hope you love it k hun? ^^"
Labels: updating..
12:00 AM
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Major Update..
2.45 now, suppose should done my revision for MFDI class test later.
but eventually, have this eager feeling to do a major update onto my blog.
took out the original html codes, copy and paste, and then do a huge update onto it.
this blogskin is actually for girls if im not wrong, but hey, edits may change anything into different types right?
so yah, i changed it here and there.
you guys can compare the difference of what i done onto it.
here's the original look :
Click to view the Original Look
after this. maybe i go through my lab book. go through some of the chapters.
haiz. hopefully every thing that i done will be paid off. if not, not sure what else i wanna say..
by the way, all of this i edited it, i have this html skills to do all this.
hahas. i guess html lessons do really important for me.
and thanks to honey for helping to resize my imeem player. lols. >.<"
but eventually, have this eager feeling to do a major update onto my blog.
took out the original html codes, copy and paste, and then do a huge update onto it.
this blogskin is actually for girls if im not wrong, but hey, edits may change anything into different types right?
so yah, i changed it here and there.
you guys can compare the difference of what i done onto it.
here's the original look :
Click to view the Original Look
after this. maybe i go through my lab book. go through some of the chapters.
haiz. hopefully every thing that i done will be paid off. if not, not sure what else i wanna say..
by the way, all of this i edited it, i have this html skills to do all this.
hahas. i guess html lessons do really important for me.
and thanks to honey for helping to resize my imeem player. lols. >.<"
Labels: major update to the blog..
2:41 AM
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
move on..
Suhana..heard that u attached with him.
the guy from your working place?
hahas. i was shocked anyway..
shocked that it was quite fast u know, that u attached.
what should my feelings be right now..?
not sure.. i just be happy for u. happy for u that u found another guy to move on.
that's great news isnt? rather than waiting for me..?
u waited for my answer. that is very patience of u.
but somehow i didnt give u back the answer? and just move on with my life.
somehow u found out and accepted the fact.
i dont know how to say..cause..
somehow, i made a sacrifice u know..
i sacrifice u to be with my current girl right now..
i let u go just to be with my gf..am i being selfish?
but.. yes it's a big sacrifice for me. i not sure if this sacrifice is the right answer and let me and my gf last long..
it's just so..complicated and confused. my gf doesnt know that i sacrifice u for her though..
although both u and me didnt have anything in history, but only..processing of love during that time..? yah. and both of us not ex bf or gf too.
we should just stick to best friend then. nothing more. and i know u gonna say u'll miss me.
but dont ever think of me too much k? u have your guy to move on.
move on as far as possible. be happy. love him as much as possible. stick with him as much as u could. wish both of you all the best and last long.
cause it's the sacrifice i made to let u go and have a happy life.
in the future, if u still moving on with him, and one day im single or had a break-up, dont ever be worry. dont ever be sorry for me k? i can move on. i can still goes on..
trust all of my courage words k..
as u have strong courage in yourself too.
take very good care to u and your new bf.
if u read this, kirim salam at your family too.
have a great day..
the guy from your working place?
hahas. i was shocked anyway..
shocked that it was quite fast u know, that u attached.
what should my feelings be right now..?
not sure.. i just be happy for u. happy for u that u found another guy to move on.
that's great news isnt? rather than waiting for me..?
u waited for my answer. that is very patience of u.
but somehow i didnt give u back the answer? and just move on with my life.
somehow u found out and accepted the fact.
i dont know how to say..cause..
somehow, i made a sacrifice u know..
i sacrifice u to be with my current girl right now..
i let u go just to be with my gf..am i being selfish?
but.. yes it's a big sacrifice for me. i not sure if this sacrifice is the right answer and let me and my gf last long..
it's just so..complicated and confused. my gf doesnt know that i sacrifice u for her though..
although both u and me didnt have anything in history, but only..processing of love during that time..? yah. and both of us not ex bf or gf too.
we should just stick to best friend then. nothing more. and i know u gonna say u'll miss me.
but dont ever think of me too much k? u have your guy to move on.
move on as far as possible. be happy. love him as much as possible. stick with him as much as u could. wish both of you all the best and last long.
cause it's the sacrifice i made to let u go and have a happy life.
in the future, if u still moving on with him, and one day im single or had a break-up, dont ever be worry. dont ever be sorry for me k? i can move on. i can still goes on..
trust all of my courage words k..
as u have strong courage in yourself too.
take very good care to u and your new bf.
if u read this, kirim salam at your family too.
have a great day..
Labels: ........
9:21 PM
wah pro..
i woke up at 10am, my phase test at 9.30am.
i overslept like crazy...
dad woke me up in the morning, didnt wake me properly, then talk talk to me.
lols. i sleeptalking sia and still i didnt remember everything and didnt aware that i talk?
phone's alarm, dad said gone off. cause i off it and still i didnt aware that i done anything while sleeping..woke up just now, suddenly phone below my body. haiz.
maybe just too tired to wake up or something.
i need a real life alarm leh. call me up in the morning...if not, ask dad to splash cold water if i still cant wake up.
haiz. called up my lecturer, she told me, dont come for today as she'll made another day for my phase test.
thank god she able to do that. BUT, if i didnt come again, then cant give marks and kena fail.
=.="
siao bo. cant help myself already. body system dont know whats wrong.
going insainity soon >.<"
Tomorrow is MFDI Class Test
Friday is IT Essential Phase Test and my MFDI make up Phase Test 1
Monday is my MFDI make up Phase Test 2.
lols. still got alot more to go. then Next week Thursday and Friday is exam already.
oh god...
i woke up at 10am, my phase test at 9.30am.
i overslept like crazy...
dad woke me up in the morning, didnt wake me properly, then talk talk to me.
lols. i sleeptalking sia and still i didnt remember everything and didnt aware that i talk?
phone's alarm, dad said gone off. cause i off it and still i didnt aware that i done anything while sleeping..woke up just now, suddenly phone below my body. haiz.
maybe just too tired to wake up or something.
i need a real life alarm leh. call me up in the morning...if not, ask dad to splash cold water if i still cant wake up.
haiz. called up my lecturer, she told me, dont come for today as she'll made another day for my phase test.
thank god she able to do that. BUT, if i didnt come again, then cant give marks and kena fail.
=.="
siao bo. cant help myself already. body system dont know whats wrong.
going insainity soon >.<"
Tomorrow is MFDI Class Test
Friday is IT Essential Phase Test and my MFDI make up Phase Test 1
Monday is my MFDI make up Phase Test 2.
lols. still got alot more to go. then Next week Thursday and Friday is exam already.
oh god...
Labels: overslept..
10:31 AM
just came back from eating...
gone out to 888 plaza to buy food for myself..
but that wasn't the reason i wanna gone out...
the reason cause i wanna take in fresh air..
and felt the atmosphere as before which i gone out at midnight and met honey at admiralty.
but just now gone to 888 plaza..but its ok, nvm.
as long as going off at the same time. same atmosphere. just wanna try and get that feelings once more.
gone off at 12.30am. look at the sky and walk slowly to 888 plaza.
thought back the times we spent together that night..
i remembered that was the first hug i gave to her that night..
and holding hands together..lols.
showed her around the woodlands circle..
yeah..i remembered very clearly. never washed away any memories we spent time together.
but funny thing is..i having migraine now and managed to go out.
go out all alone..mum doesnt know im having migraine..thats why..
dad sudden called me where i gone, then just told him i gone off to 888 plaza to get myself to eat.
he nagged at me. nagged to be safe and come back home quickly..
as 888 plaza is the place crowded with group of gangs..
yeah i know dad. dont worry to much. just pray for me k..
things will be fine..
so yeah...take in fresh air..such a cooling breeze just now..
and the sky is like...reddish colour..lols..
going to rain soon actually..everything so cold and relax..
gone out to 888 plaza to buy food for myself..
but that wasn't the reason i wanna gone out...
the reason cause i wanna take in fresh air..
and felt the atmosphere as before which i gone out at midnight and met honey at admiralty.
but just now gone to 888 plaza..but its ok, nvm.
as long as going off at the same time. same atmosphere. just wanna try and get that feelings once more.
gone off at 12.30am. look at the sky and walk slowly to 888 plaza.
thought back the times we spent together that night..
i remembered that was the first hug i gave to her that night..
and holding hands together..lols.
showed her around the woodlands circle..
yeah..i remembered very clearly. never washed away any memories we spent time together.
but funny thing is..i having migraine now and managed to go out.
go out all alone..mum doesnt know im having migraine..thats why..
dad sudden called me where i gone, then just told him i gone off to 888 plaza to get myself to eat.
he nagged at me. nagged to be safe and come back home quickly..
as 888 plaza is the place crowded with group of gangs..
yeah i know dad. dont worry to much. just pray for me k..
things will be fine..
so yeah...take in fresh air..such a cooling breeze just now..
and the sky is like...reddish colour..lols..
going to rain soon actually..everything so cold and relax..
Labels: gone out at midnight..
12:57 AM
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
god...my migraine struck me back already.
urgh, the painful, sharpness struck in my brain..
what else later on..?
felt like vomiting..
urgh, the painful, sharpness struck in my brain..
what else later on..?
felt like vomiting..
10:33 PM
i dont feel right now...my body just becoming weak and weak..
my sickness not fully recovered, yet i pushed myself so far..
there's still got a lot more work to do...
felt like going blackout as before..
like body shutting down itself..
if you guys dont get it..meaning im going to faint.
schoolwork..test..assignements..projects..
just goddamn important. i must finished off everything and get the best marks..
for myself, for my family..for her..
if i blackout..im sorry..im sorry guys..
just so pressurize..so hard to control.
if only people know how damn painful is my brain right now..
going insainity.
is there anyone can help..?
but...but i dont want to be troublesome..i dont want to trouble people around me..
god please, give me more strength, just a few more days to bare..
afterwards i can be back to normal..
i can spend time with her..with my family..
guide me please..
maybe this what i deserve..?
retribution have been made..?
for hurting someone or something...
if it's the consequences or retribution..i'll accepted it..
as i always accepted everything and anything in life..
my sickness not fully recovered, yet i pushed myself so far..
there's still got a lot more work to do...
felt like going blackout as before..
like body shutting down itself..
if you guys dont get it..meaning im going to faint.
schoolwork..test..assignements..projects..
just goddamn important. i must finished off everything and get the best marks..
for myself, for my family..for her..
if i blackout..im sorry..im sorry guys..
just so pressurize..so hard to control.
if only people know how damn painful is my brain right now..
going insainity.
is there anyone can help..?
but...but i dont want to be troublesome..i dont want to trouble people around me..
god please, give me more strength, just a few more days to bare..
afterwards i can be back to normal..
i can spend time with her..with my family..
guide me please..
maybe this what i deserve..?
retribution have been made..?
for hurting someone or something...
if it's the consequences or retribution..i'll accepted it..
as i always accepted everything and anything in life..
Labels: felt like fainting..
9:54 PM
Monday, November 24, 2008
datelines
IT Essential:
* No extra time will be given to late comer
* Student will be debar if he/she is late for 30mins or above
Class Test 2
24th Nov (T04-09)
9am - 10am: s/n 1 - 18
10am - 11am: s/n 19 - 37
PhaseTest (T04-09)
28th Nov
9:30am - 11:00am: s/n 19 - 37
11:00am - 12:30pm: s/n 1 - 18
Exam (B04-07/08)
4th Dec
3:00pm - 4:00pm
Report of Printer
25th Nov
Multimedia Fundamentals & Digital Imaging:
Friday -> 21/11/08 (Revision/Practical)
Phase Test (1) ->20/11/08 (Brought forward to next week)
Phase Test (2) -> 26/11/08
Class Test (2) -> 27/11/08
Exam -> 5/12/08
Project (Magazines & Brochure) to hand in -> 29/11/08
3D Max / Computer Graphics:
Storyboard Animation -> Hand in by 3 weeks.
Pro right? All so good.
All stuck together. That's what I'm saying.
Everything squeeze together. Insane lorh.
We superhuman izit? Inhuman? lols...
tsk tsk tsk..
* No extra time will be given to late comer
* Student will be debar if he/she is late for 30mins or above
Class Test 2
24th Nov (T04-09)
9am - 10am: s/n 1 - 18
10am - 11am: s/n 19 - 37
PhaseTest (T04-09)
28th Nov
9:30am - 11:00am: s/n 19 - 37
11:00am - 12:30pm: s/n 1 - 18
Exam (B04-07/08)
4th Dec
3:00pm - 4:00pm
Report of Printer
25th Nov
Multimedia Fundamentals & Digital Imaging:
Friday -> 21/11/08 (Revision/Practical)
Phase Test (1) ->
Phase Test (2) -> 26/11/08
Class Test (2) -> 27/11/08
Exam -> 5/12/08
Project (Magazines & Brochure) to hand in -> 29/11/08
3D Max / Computer Graphics:
Storyboard Animation -> Hand in by 3 weeks.
Pro right? All so good.
All stuck together. That's what I'm saying.
Everything squeeze together. Insane lorh.
We superhuman izit? Inhuman? lols...
tsk tsk tsk..
Labels: Datelines...
4:35 AM
Where you guys gone to?
2.35am now. freaking rotting here at my bed lols.
last week of lessons and week of test...
after this week will be the days of exams.
crazy lah. assigments, projects, tests, exams.
stupid. lecturers just making us suffer.
give us works all last min.
and now, all stuck at the same week.
nvm. i must do good leh. got many people support me >.<"
lols...
and by the way, Where the hell you guys gone off to?
I read up some of our frens blog..some said all of us change..some said off to new frens..
Haiz. You all said wanna hang out..in the end, didnt even plan or call up.
maybe on month of dec we go jalan jalan?
as November is totally not my month man...just freaking dislike this month.
but how? all of you so busy...just so busy with your new frens..
yah. you all make new frens in ITE, somehow changed alot though.
dont ever deny that. everytime just totally gone off with your ITE frens..
well thats ok then..AT LEAST you guys got close frens in ITE mah..
what about me? totally dont have any close frens..
all i got is kena betray? yah. betrayed..
work alone in assignment and just need to earn myself the respect and reputation to show them that i wont give up in whatever things that happenned.
fuck it lah. i done it anyway. i showed them.
so you all think you having bad times in ITE? think again lorh.
i gotten even worst than all of you. still, i didnt complaint. i just kept quiet all the way.
while you guys just complaining and whining..
give you one advice to my old frens..
if you already know that it's hard to be close with them and always being left alone in the end, then dont be close lah. be strong. stand up for yourself. need to be responsible on your own.
cant always expect from them right..?
if you die, you die alone, you dont die together with them what...right?
think...think for goodness sake.
anyways..call me up if you guys planning to go out.
im dying out here ya got me? go anywhere..
Jamming..or Recordings..or Slacking..or Meeting up..anything.
and Boom Squad, let's rise with our feets again once more.
time to finish off our songs and make a new beat...
till here leh..fucking lost my mood somehow..lols.
last week of lessons and week of test...
after this week will be the days of exams.
crazy lah. assigments, projects, tests, exams.
stupid. lecturers just making us suffer.
give us works all last min.
and now, all stuck at the same week.
nvm. i must do good leh. got many people support me >.<"
lols...
and by the way, Where the hell you guys gone off to?
I read up some of our frens blog..some said all of us change..some said off to new frens..
Haiz. You all said wanna hang out..in the end, didnt even plan or call up.
maybe on month of dec we go jalan jalan?
as November is totally not my month man...just freaking dislike this month.
but how? all of you so busy...just so busy with your new frens..
yah. you all make new frens in ITE, somehow changed alot though.
dont ever deny that. everytime just totally gone off with your ITE frens..
well thats ok then..AT LEAST you guys got close frens in ITE mah..
what about me? totally dont have any close frens..
all i got is kena betray? yah. betrayed..
work alone in assignment and just need to earn myself the respect and reputation to show them that i wont give up in whatever things that happenned.
fuck it lah. i done it anyway. i showed them.
so you all think you having bad times in ITE? think again lorh.
i gotten even worst than all of you. still, i didnt complaint. i just kept quiet all the way.
while you guys just complaining and whining..
give you one advice to my old frens..
if you already know that it's hard to be close with them and always being left alone in the end, then dont be close lah. be strong. stand up for yourself. need to be responsible on your own.
cant always expect from them right..?
if you die, you die alone, you dont die together with them what...right?
think...think for goodness sake.
anyways..call me up if you guys planning to go out.
im dying out here ya got me? go anywhere..
Jamming..or Recordings..or Slacking..or Meeting up..anything.
and Boom Squad, let's rise with our feets again once more.
time to finish off our songs and make a new beat...
till here leh..fucking lost my mood somehow..lols.
Labels: nothing to label..
2:33 AM
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Full Arrangement of Canon In D.
Just meant for her.
Labels: Canon In D..
11:15 AM
fall sick..
haiz...i fall sick this afternoon..
my god..just so sickening..
the sore throat..the flu..
the body aching..
im not going to school tomorrow..
i'll just need rest..
honey..where u..just missing u so badly..
haiz.
the sore in my throat...
just kept on choking me..
i cant talk properly..i cant drink. i cant eat.
only thing can do is kept quiet..
suffering though...just a lil..
now is 12min past 12mn..
honey..im sorry i didnt send u a GoodMidnight message like i use to..
im just so sorry..
so sorry for everything..
my god..just so sickening..
the sore throat..the flu..
the body aching..
im not going to school tomorrow..
i'll just need rest..
honey..where u..just missing u so badly..
haiz.
the sore in my throat...
just kept on choking me..
i cant talk properly..i cant drink. i cant eat.
only thing can do is kept quiet..
suffering though...just a lil..
now is 12min past 12mn..
honey..im sorry i didnt send u a GoodMidnight message like i use to..
im just so sorry..
so sorry for everything..
12:10 AM
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Forbidden Love
Forbidden Love..
Just a Forbidden Love..
The only thing I could say right now..
Just a Forbidden Love..
The only thing I could say right now..
Our love..im the only one fighting it..fighting our love just for us.
cause i want it to go on. i dont want it to be stop.
im the only one..the only one supporting it..
guess im the one being alone huh..? lols.
how long more should i endure? should i wait?
it cant just goes on like this forever right..?
u said u'll be there..but now u' ll be there for him..not me.
u didn't noticed did u?
and i made lots of sacrifice..just for u..just for us..
but maybe..maybe my sacrifice is nothing to u?
please tell me..tell me u will miss me when im gone..
tell me u will come find me if im gone missing or so..
and tell me u dont wanna loose or leave me..
haiz..
just so hard..so hard fighting it alone u know..
im all left here alone..
i understand..u got something else u need to do...
let me be here..let me fight it myself..
for u..for me...for Us..
cause i want it to go on. i dont want it to be stop.
im the only one..the only one supporting it..
guess im the one being alone huh..? lols.
how long more should i endure? should i wait?
it cant just goes on like this forever right..?
u said u'll be there..but now u' ll be there for him..not me.
u didn't noticed did u?
and i made lots of sacrifice..just for u..just for us..
but maybe..maybe my sacrifice is nothing to u?
please tell me..tell me u will miss me when im gone..
tell me u will come find me if im gone missing or so..
and tell me u dont wanna loose or leave me..
haiz..
just so hard..so hard fighting it alone u know..
im all left here alone..
i understand..u got something else u need to do...
let me be here..let me fight it myself..
for u..for me...for Us..
Labels: forbidden love..
8:23 PM
tired..
i'm getting restless now..
blogging in school..nothing to do..
having painful sore throat right now..
i didnt eat or drink..but still gotten it..
honey found out i sacrifice my school money for us, for her, for things that i wanna buy..
but what else can i do? that's the only way for me to get money..
yes i'll be starving at school but at home still can eat...
you might think i'm like a troublemaker kid..
but am i? am i behaving like a kid?
no right? i trying to learn a hard living..
learn to save up, have a hard time in life once in a while and so on..
for all this while ever since the 1st month of anniversary, i done this already..
and also i've learnt not to eat in school for like, ever since during my secondary life?
and im trying to loose my weight. so im not eating in school. and just eat lil bit at home.
how long till class end? i cant wait to go home right now..
having sore throat, stomach ache and tired..
everything just so tight..
phase test, class test, assignments, reports, projects, exams.
for goodness sake, why..? why you making the class suffer like this?
you could've gave us that work for like, before the school holidays.
now everything just stuck all together..and making us rushing here and there..
and always want a high expectation work.
i can't do anything..all now is endure and do everything that being told to.
can't even complaint, can't this, can't that. just endure and move on..
blogging in school..nothing to do..
having painful sore throat right now..
i didnt eat or drink..but still gotten it..
honey found out i sacrifice my school money for us, for her, for things that i wanna buy..
but what else can i do? that's the only way for me to get money..
yes i'll be starving at school but at home still can eat...
you might think i'm like a troublemaker kid..
but am i? am i behaving like a kid?
no right? i trying to learn a hard living..
learn to save up, have a hard time in life once in a while and so on..
for all this while ever since the 1st month of anniversary, i done this already..
and also i've learnt not to eat in school for like, ever since during my secondary life?
and im trying to loose my weight. so im not eating in school. and just eat lil bit at home.
how long till class end? i cant wait to go home right now..
having sore throat, stomach ache and tired..
everything just so tight..
phase test, class test, assignments, reports, projects, exams.
for goodness sake, why..? why you making the class suffer like this?
you could've gave us that work for like, before the school holidays.
now everything just stuck all together..and making us rushing here and there..
and always want a high expectation work.
i can't do anything..all now is endure and do everything that being told to.
can't even complaint, can't this, can't that. just endure and move on..
Labels: tired...
4:22 PM
Monday, November 17, 2008
you came..
at last...able to meet her again..
im just so happy...so happy to see her there..
she came my house...
im so silly just now..
after school, i rushing my way home..
rushing my way home to see her..to see my honey.
cause im missing her terribly..
from my school, to bedok...i rush, rush here and there..
people everywhere. i just push myself through..
till 168, got back at woodlands..
took 913 stopped at the back bus stop...
i sprint..i ran..all the way home just to see her..
reached home, opened the door.
my heart just like brighten up..to see her there..
you never know how happy i am to see you here once again..
but when i came in, i kept quiet to myself awhile..
mum asked a question, i just nodded or swing my head..
as i was trying to catch my breath..
like i said, i sprint home didn't i? lols.
till now..we spent out time together..
when will we gonna spend our time again?
everyday im just missing her so badly..so much...
we only meet like once a week?
it's not enough you know..
while i saw my friend, he met his gf everyday..
im just so jealous about it...
and yes we cried..we cried just now..
as she need someone right beside her..
i came up to her..sit right next to her.
support her head, let her head rest at my laps..
i can sense something coming up..
im not letting her being all alone..
i let myself in..let my tears flow with her..
im not letting her cried alone..so i cried with her..side by side..
we looked deeply into our eyes..we cried.
we wiped our tears one another..
she wiped mine and i wiped hers..
it's never been good to be crying alone..
i always thought about it..
when we cried together...we felt better..
i felt we shared our sadness..our tears together..
and there's a phrase struck out in my mind...saying to her..
im just so happy...so happy to see her there..
she came my house...
im so silly just now..
after school, i rushing my way home..
rushing my way home to see her..to see my honey.
cause im missing her terribly..
from my school, to bedok...i rush, rush here and there..
people everywhere. i just push myself through..
till 168, got back at woodlands..
took 913 stopped at the back bus stop...
i sprint..i ran..all the way home just to see her..
reached home, opened the door.
my heart just like brighten up..to see her there..
you never know how happy i am to see you here once again..
but when i came in, i kept quiet to myself awhile..
mum asked a question, i just nodded or swing my head..
as i was trying to catch my breath..
like i said, i sprint home didn't i? lols.
till now..we spent out time together..
when will we gonna spend our time again?
everyday im just missing her so badly..so much...
we only meet like once a week?
it's not enough you know..
while i saw my friend, he met his gf everyday..
im just so jealous about it...
and yes we cried..we cried just now..
as she need someone right beside her..
i came up to her..sit right next to her.
support her head, let her head rest at my laps..
i can sense something coming up..
im not letting her being all alone..
i let myself in..let my tears flow with her..
im not letting her cried alone..so i cried with her..side by side..
we looked deeply into our eyes..we cried.
we wiped our tears one another..
she wiped mine and i wiped hers..
it's never been good to be crying alone..
i always thought about it..
when we cried together...we felt better..
i felt we shared our sadness..our tears together..
and there's a phrase struck out in my mind...saying to her..
"You never be alone"
"If you cry, let me cry with you. Dont ever cry alone"
"If you cry, let me cry with you. Dont ever cry alone"
Labels: see her again..once more..
10:12 PM
rain heavily..
let it rain...let it rain as heavy as it could.
make it flood. make it flood as before.
let my emotions connected to it.
i shred my tears..again...in the bus..
and somehow raining heavily...
Wei Keong..ever year in class during sec, you rage, you anger with tears.
Somehow, i managed to learn, i managed to understand you.
And managed to get this feeling once again...
I cried..with my angers...
sadness and anger at the same time.
let the whole world knows i want a flood.
storm. lightning. raining heavily. heavy downpour.
let it be like before. at the time im in anger, sadness, no one is there.
and the whole month just rain and rain and rain. till singapore gotten flood.
yes. i want that again. can god willing to give me that?
Now i understand Keong..i understand..the rage, the anger and the sadness that you had it before..
you cant control it and tears just flowing right out of your eyes.
i gotten this before..hope i wont let it flow till my eyes swollen like last time.
so this is how u kept your feelings all along? cant kept it anymore and just let tears flow out..?
let the tears bring out the sadness and anger...
you know what's the bad or worst part in relationship?
is having the 'L' or 'Triangle' relationship.
get what i mean? lols.
like example..
one love the other party, but the other party love the another party.
its like..2 people fighting for 1. but somehow, only the one will managed to be together.
while the other one? kena throw at the side or corner. or prefer saying becoming like a light bulb isn't it?
lols. funny right the story? funny then laugh..hahahas~
but did the person complaint? no.
did the person give up on her? no.
did the person comment something bad or so about her? no.
did the person blame her? no.
did the person just endure and move on silently? yes.
did the person still loves her? yes. he still does love her a lot.
did the person have intention of hurting her? no. he wont.
does the person want to end their relationship? no. of course not.
so that means the person still want to celebrate another anniversary with her? yes. he still want to. 8 more days till their 2nd month anniversary.
will the person do silly things? since he being left alone? err. no. of course not. but he missing her lots.
other than the person, who else miss her? His lil bro. keep saying "Kakak" every time. lols.
make it flood. make it flood as before.
let my emotions connected to it.
i shred my tears..again...in the bus..
and somehow raining heavily...
Wei Keong..ever year in class during sec, you rage, you anger with tears.
Somehow, i managed to learn, i managed to understand you.
And managed to get this feeling once again...
I cried..with my angers...
sadness and anger at the same time.
let the whole world knows i want a flood.
storm. lightning. raining heavily. heavy downpour.
let it be like before. at the time im in anger, sadness, no one is there.
and the whole month just rain and rain and rain. till singapore gotten flood.
yes. i want that again. can god willing to give me that?
Now i understand Keong..i understand..the rage, the anger and the sadness that you had it before..
you cant control it and tears just flowing right out of your eyes.
i gotten this before..hope i wont let it flow till my eyes swollen like last time.
so this is how u kept your feelings all along? cant kept it anymore and just let tears flow out..?
let the tears bring out the sadness and anger...
you know what's the bad or worst part in relationship?
is having the 'L' or 'Triangle' relationship.
get what i mean? lols.
like example..
one love the other party, but the other party love the another party.
its like..2 people fighting for 1. but somehow, only the one will managed to be together.
while the other one? kena throw at the side or corner. or prefer saying becoming like a light bulb isn't it?
lols. funny right the story? funny then laugh..hahahas~
but did the person complaint? no.
did the person give up on her? no.
did the person comment something bad or so about her? no.
did the person blame her? no.
did the person just endure and move on silently? yes.
did the person still loves her? yes. he still does love her a lot.
did the person have intention of hurting her? no. he wont.
does the person want to end their relationship? no. of course not.
so that means the person still want to celebrate another anniversary with her? yes. he still want to. 8 more days till their 2nd month anniversary.
will the person do silly things? since he being left alone? err. no. of course not. but he missing her lots.
other than the person, who else miss her? His lil bro. keep saying "Kakak" every time. lols.
Labels: heavy downpour...flood pls?
1:18 PM
dreams..
Just woke up from bed right now...
Those dreams..just felt so real..
But there's both good and bad about it.
The good dreams, we're spending our time together.
Yes we are. Spending A LOT of time together and celebrate our 2nd and 3rd month of anniversary with joy. Even during the Christmas we somehow celebrate with happiness..?
But the bad part of the dream.
I wasn't really sure. It's hard for me to remember it..
something i heard is that, we breaking up?
Walking our own paths somehow..
And one part of the dreams is that..you post something in our blog.
Yes, you did. But I wasn't so sure what's the story about.
I can't remember what you post it...
So..is this JUST a dream? Or it's a vision of the future..?
This part i'm starting to get worried somehow...
Haiz.
Those dreams..just felt so real..
But there's both good and bad about it.
The good dreams, we're spending our time together.
Yes we are. Spending A LOT of time together and celebrate our 2nd and 3rd month of anniversary with joy. Even during the Christmas we somehow celebrate with happiness..?
But the bad part of the dream.
I wasn't really sure. It's hard for me to remember it..
something i heard is that, we breaking up?
Walking our own paths somehow..
And one part of the dreams is that..you post something in our blog.
Yes, you did. But I wasn't so sure what's the story about.
I can't remember what you post it...
So..is this JUST a dream? Or it's a vision of the future..?
This part i'm starting to get worried somehow...
Haiz.
Labels: dreams...visions..?
6:09 AM
hurt...pain...
from top till bottom..
my head..dizzy and spinning..
my eyes, just a small hurt..
my teeth, quite pain though..
my neck skin, is getting freaking worst. pain and soarer..
my throat, still having soarthroat..
my body..just a total aching..
my arms...nothing actually. lols.
my right wrist..seriously pain though. the whole right wrist in pain..
my heart...? haiz. heartache. =.=
my bruise? getting worst too. pain and hurt..
my leg muscle, just cramp.
feet? just felt so tired somehow.
here and there...pain and hurt..soar and heartache..
am i complaining? no. am i nuisance? no.
am i whining? no. am i commenting? no.
all i do is kept quiet and let everything heal.
no one even knows lorh. just being quiet. dead silence.
letting it heal by itself. let time pass by and heal, cure, endure.
except my neck skin which i got to do something about it. lols
maybe go to skin clinic and check it up? cause it getting worst than ever....
i perspire i felt the pain..
i shower i felt the pain..
i touched it felt the pain..
i accidentally hit it felt the pain..
i put medication cream or oil felt the pain..
and somehow it didn't cure..haiz.
what else can i do? burn it? flame it? slice it? cut it? peel it?
it gotten irritates me somehow. lols. seriously..
my head..dizzy and spinning..
my eyes, just a small hurt..
my teeth, quite pain though..
my neck skin, is getting freaking worst. pain and soarer..
my throat, still having soarthroat..
my body..just a total aching..
my arms...nothing actually. lols.
my right wrist..seriously pain though. the whole right wrist in pain..
my heart...? haiz. heartache. =.=
my bruise? getting worst too. pain and hurt..
my leg muscle, just cramp.
feet? just felt so tired somehow.
here and there...pain and hurt..soar and heartache..
am i complaining? no. am i nuisance? no.
am i whining? no. am i commenting? no.
all i do is kept quiet and let everything heal.
no one even knows lorh. just being quiet. dead silence.
letting it heal by itself. let time pass by and heal, cure, endure.
except my neck skin which i got to do something about it. lols
maybe go to skin clinic and check it up? cause it getting worst than ever....
i perspire i felt the pain..
i shower i felt the pain..
i touched it felt the pain..
i accidentally hit it felt the pain..
i put medication cream or oil felt the pain..
and somehow it didn't cure..haiz.
what else can i do? burn it? flame it? slice it? cut it? peel it?
it gotten irritates me somehow. lols. seriously..
Labels: pain...hurt..soar..
1:15 AM
Sunday, November 16, 2008
just finished..
just finished my workout.
chiong till i out of breath.
yeah. maybe i wanna purposely faint?
huffing and puffing...huffing and puffing..
running out of breath..why so?
chiong my lifting of 7.5kg.
chiong my pumping..
chiong my jumping..
chiong till i wanna blackout.
huffing and puffing..huffing and puffing...
maybe...maybe i wanna be out for a week.
i want meditate. i want get off from this world for a week or so...
im restless now...
neither physically nor mentally..
but spiritually..
5 mins more..till midnight.
chiong till i out of breath.
yeah. maybe i wanna purposely faint?
huffing and puffing...huffing and puffing..
running out of breath..why so?
chiong my lifting of 7.5kg.
chiong my pumping..
chiong my jumping..
chiong till i wanna blackout.
huffing and puffing..huffing and puffing...
maybe...maybe i wanna be out for a week.
i want meditate. i want get off from this world for a week or so...
im restless now...
neither physically nor mentally..
but spiritually..
5 mins more..till midnight.
Labels: just finished...
11:47 PM
wrong burger
errrr..ok just now after the post, i off to eat Mac.
see the new "Mega" burgers look interesting leh.
So i go and buy one lah.
Then when going to buy, saw my 3rd ex there.
She working at Civic Centre Mac..lols
saw her, just say hi and so on.
she didnt talk much to me.
i remembered, we only being together EXACTLY 1 month only.
at our month of anniversary, she asked for break-up. lols.
pro right? =.="
anyway, go at her counter and ordered my food.
i was planning to eat the Mega Mcspicy meal.
so after ordered and everything go eat lorh.
ate my fries finished and chiong for my burger.
both sab and mirul cannot wait to see how big is the burger.
everyone so excited. hahas
when i opened it, i kena shocked lah sia.
shocked not for the big burger.
but somehow, the burger is different.
i said i want the Mega Mcspicy right? But this one i ordered is Mega Mac.
i was like, "Omg. Shit, i bought the wrong burger, and it's a MEAT..I DONT EAT MEAT."
siao liao. the burger is like, there's 4 Meat Patties and 3 bread and fully covered with lettuce.
both of them laughing at me already when i said i bought the wrong one.
shit. i bought the wrong burger...LOLS
sial lah..as u know i dont eat meat.
then no choice, cause i paiseh to change, so just ate it. haiz.
finished eating i told them,
"Wah, cannot tahan already. Damn full..and also i dont dare eat mac already leh.
1 week or so lah im not eating mac. siao liao. i can kena phobia of meat already."
lols. seriously, i not gonna eat mac like 1 week or so.
finished off my drink and apple pie, then off to library.
so meaning now i blogging in library.
stomach pain at the same time...seriously, my stomach in pain right now..
haiyoh. im so freaking silly lorh. want Mega Mcspicy in the end order Mega Mac.
phobia of eating mac already..
and hopefully wont gain weight leh.
if not, need to chiong excercise again...=.="
eeeee~~~
see the new "Mega" burgers look interesting leh.
So i go and buy one lah.
Then when going to buy, saw my 3rd ex there.
She working at Civic Centre Mac..lols
saw her, just say hi and so on.
she didnt talk much to me.
i remembered, we only being together EXACTLY 1 month only.
at our month of anniversary, she asked for break-up. lols.
pro right? =.="
anyway, go at her counter and ordered my food.
i was planning to eat the Mega Mcspicy meal.
so after ordered and everything go eat lorh.
ate my fries finished and chiong for my burger.
both sab and mirul cannot wait to see how big is the burger.
everyone so excited. hahas
when i opened it, i kena shocked lah sia.
shocked not for the big burger.
but somehow, the burger is different.
i said i want the Mega Mcspicy right? But this one i ordered is Mega Mac.
i was like, "Omg. Shit, i bought the wrong burger, and it's a MEAT..I DONT EAT MEAT."
siao liao. the burger is like, there's 4 Meat Patties and 3 bread and fully covered with lettuce.
both of them laughing at me already when i said i bought the wrong one.
shit. i bought the wrong burger...LOLS
sial lah..as u know i dont eat meat.
then no choice, cause i paiseh to change, so just ate it. haiz.
finished eating i told them,
"Wah, cannot tahan already. Damn full..and also i dont dare eat mac already leh.
1 week or so lah im not eating mac. siao liao. i can kena phobia of meat already."
lols. seriously, i not gonna eat mac like 1 week or so.
finished off my drink and apple pie, then off to library.
so meaning now i blogging in library.
stomach pain at the same time...seriously, my stomach in pain right now..
haiyoh. im so freaking silly lorh. want Mega Mcspicy in the end order Mega Mac.
phobia of eating mac already..
and hopefully wont gain weight leh.
if not, need to chiong excercise again...=.="
eeeee~~~
Labels: wrong burger...
7:52 PM
story of my life..continue..
maybe i post it better..releasing out everything.
wisdoms..
too much to know about this world.
is it good? to have all this wisdoms?
sometimes i getting sick and tired but somehow in the other way round its a good thing.
im able to stay away from something or get over it or fight it.
people around me. are they influencing me or im the one influencing them?
cause when im being good, they somehow follow me in a good ways.
and when i changed into the bad, they changed too. gotten to the bad side.
and also people around me said i looked matured. think matured.
maybe im thinking too much? or am i do look so matured?
strength, faith, believe, courage. where all this i gotten it?
somehow i realised, i didnt know how i gotten it.
having experienced? oh it made me realised, it taught me things.
and i can even come to nearly-death situation?
does that call im lucky? people always said, "Oh you lucky you still alive"
the doc even said, "It's lucky that you gotten a good body immune and strength, if not, you won't able to survive somehow"
should i believe what he said? but i didnt though.
i only believe that it wasn't my time to go, to begone from this world.
god still want me to continue living. cause it's "Not My Time Yet"
i noticed it, all these happenings.
Gonna hit by cars, hit my head at wall pillar till blood flowing out, nearly-death situation, whole body shut down which became just like a statue, slip and hit my head so hard and fights.
lols. still going on, still surviving. and yes its true, not my time yet.
now? my behaviours and attitudes still normal.
somehow still better than ever.
no rage, no anger, no fear, not giving up so easily.
i learnt, i learnt something about attitudes.
people who easily gotten rage, always fight and anger, surely will be called as
Attitude Problem (AP). lols. yes it is.
People who just be patience and accept everything in life,
dont really have this kind of problems. but other problems they faced.
god. is something or someone we cant mess with.
is the only person to be fear of. only him.
God, can do whatever he wants.
bringing the whole world down? explode the universe?
giving miracles? changes something that human cant?
he want tsunami? he can just snap his fingers and Tsunami will come.
he want hurricane? he can just blow and Hurricane will come.
he want that person to be alive? he can just give miracle to the person.
you done bad things, you will received bad happenings.
you done good deeds, you'll received something better.
everything just need patience. great things always come slowly. not in an instance.
people said i have no guts..
but do i? i can fight back if i want you know..
i can just whack that person in the public.
i can just wield a sword and slash you out.
i can just do whatever i think i want.
but i'm not so dumb and stupid though.
why would i wanna do all that?
cause it only made myself into trouble and will not have a good life.
lols. silly if anyone did that. all i can see on their face is misery & regret if they done that.
so, i always remind myself, fight back if you're no choice.
dont ever do silly or stupid things cause you not gonna love it but will regret it.
what about relationship?
oooohhh. good topic is it? lols.
my experience? hmm..
4 ex and currently attached now.
being together with someone, will hurt another person who love us.
get what i mean?
some people said there's no such thing as forever or everlasting.
while some said there is.
well what's my thoughts?
depends on the lovely couple isnt it?
if they able to face the problems and consequences
and solve it together, they will go on forever and have an everlasting love.
but always remember that life has balance. the goods and the bads.
dont always hope and expect for the goods.
and when comes to bad, dont always feel down too much bout it.
always think both.
and people wanna know how am i doing? yes im doing great. im doing fine.
me and my current gf is having a...great time?
no matter good or bad, im still enjoy being with her.
she changed into better somehow. she changed me into the better.
we changed into the better. no doubts about it.
she's one of a kind..can i say that?
yes, compare to all my ex, she's special.
it's like, alot of difference about her.
she's got a lot of good deeds inside of her.
and appriciate of having her around. i deeply in love with her.
i miss her lots too. do you feel the same way as i am honey?
and yeah, that time when she's down, she wanna meet me
so she came to admiralty mrt. somehow i was so worried.
so worried that i ran, i sprint from my home to admiralty mrt as quickly as i could.
and reached there like not even 5 mins?
when we met and hugged, i gotten the feeling she's crying.
when we stopped our hugged, i saw her tears ran down her cheeks.
see how concern, how worried i am whenever she's in pain or down?
lols..
so what about friends? well..
things just so complicated. all are busy with their stuffs.
some dont even bother contacting with one another.
nvm. drop topic. cause it's gonna be too long...hahs.
have anyone even think of this way? the way that im thinking straight and full of stories?
but people around me didnt talk things till like this before.
only me. people might think im crazy.
but, its the fact isnt it?
im stating the fact..lols.
too many things i wanna say.
yes there are, there still like half of it to go. hahas.
but, nah. just kept it to myself then..
other time post it again?
maybe...
wisdoms..
too much to know about this world.
is it good? to have all this wisdoms?
sometimes i getting sick and tired but somehow in the other way round its a good thing.
im able to stay away from something or get over it or fight it.
people around me. are they influencing me or im the one influencing them?
cause when im being good, they somehow follow me in a good ways.
and when i changed into the bad, they changed too. gotten to the bad side.
and also people around me said i looked matured. think matured.
maybe im thinking too much? or am i do look so matured?
strength, faith, believe, courage. where all this i gotten it?
somehow i realised, i didnt know how i gotten it.
having experienced? oh it made me realised, it taught me things.
and i can even come to nearly-death situation?
does that call im lucky? people always said, "Oh you lucky you still alive"
the doc even said, "It's lucky that you gotten a good body immune and strength, if not, you won't able to survive somehow"
should i believe what he said? but i didnt though.
i only believe that it wasn't my time to go, to begone from this world.
god still want me to continue living. cause it's "Not My Time Yet"
i noticed it, all these happenings.
Gonna hit by cars, hit my head at wall pillar till blood flowing out, nearly-death situation, whole body shut down which became just like a statue, slip and hit my head so hard and fights.
lols. still going on, still surviving. and yes its true, not my time yet.
now? my behaviours and attitudes still normal.
somehow still better than ever.
no rage, no anger, no fear, not giving up so easily.
i learnt, i learnt something about attitudes.
people who easily gotten rage, always fight and anger, surely will be called as
Attitude Problem (AP). lols. yes it is.
People who just be patience and accept everything in life,
dont really have this kind of problems. but other problems they faced.
god. is something or someone we cant mess with.
is the only person to be fear of. only him.
God, can do whatever he wants.
bringing the whole world down? explode the universe?
giving miracles? changes something that human cant?
he want tsunami? he can just snap his fingers and Tsunami will come.
he want hurricane? he can just blow and Hurricane will come.
he want that person to be alive? he can just give miracle to the person.
you done bad things, you will received bad happenings.
you done good deeds, you'll received something better.
everything just need patience. great things always come slowly. not in an instance.
people said i have no guts..
but do i? i can fight back if i want you know..
i can just whack that person in the public.
i can just wield a sword and slash you out.
i can just do whatever i think i want.
but i'm not so dumb and stupid though.
why would i wanna do all that?
cause it only made myself into trouble and will not have a good life.
lols. silly if anyone did that. all i can see on their face is misery & regret if they done that.
so, i always remind myself, fight back if you're no choice.
dont ever do silly or stupid things cause you not gonna love it but will regret it.
what about relationship?
oooohhh. good topic is it? lols.
my experience? hmm..
4 ex and currently attached now.
being together with someone, will hurt another person who love us.
get what i mean?
some people said there's no such thing as forever or everlasting.
while some said there is.
well what's my thoughts?
depends on the lovely couple isnt it?
if they able to face the problems and consequences
and solve it together, they will go on forever and have an everlasting love.
but always remember that life has balance. the goods and the bads.
dont always hope and expect for the goods.
and when comes to bad, dont always feel down too much bout it.
always think both.
and people wanna know how am i doing? yes im doing great. im doing fine.
me and my current gf is having a...great time?
no matter good or bad, im still enjoy being with her.
she changed into better somehow. she changed me into the better.
we changed into the better. no doubts about it.
she's one of a kind..can i say that?
yes, compare to all my ex, she's special.
it's like, alot of difference about her.
she's got a lot of good deeds inside of her.
and appriciate of having her around. i deeply in love with her.
i miss her lots too. do you feel the same way as i am honey?
and yeah, that time when she's down, she wanna meet me
so she came to admiralty mrt. somehow i was so worried.
so worried that i ran, i sprint from my home to admiralty mrt as quickly as i could.
and reached there like not even 5 mins?
when we met and hugged, i gotten the feeling she's crying.
when we stopped our hugged, i saw her tears ran down her cheeks.
see how concern, how worried i am whenever she's in pain or down?
lols..
so what about friends? well..
things just so complicated. all are busy with their stuffs.
some dont even bother contacting with one another.
nvm. drop topic. cause it's gonna be too long...hahs.
have anyone even think of this way? the way that im thinking straight and full of stories?
but people around me didnt talk things till like this before.
only me. people might think im crazy.
but, its the fact isnt it?
im stating the fact..lols.
too many things i wanna say.
yes there are, there still like half of it to go. hahas.
but, nah. just kept it to myself then..
other time post it again?
maybe...
Labels: story of my life...posts~
6:24 PM
story of my life..
nothing much i wanna say now.
cause in my mind is full of things. yes it is.
from the front of my doorstep till now in civic centre mac i kept thinking.
if i wanna post about it, gonna take like 8-10 paragraphs.
or its gonna take like the whole page of my blog.
a lot of things to say. all bout "Story Of My Life"
lols. yes it is.
wisdoms, experienced, problems, life.
and i ever had this "Near-Death Situation"
what more i wanna say huh..?
maybe i should post it in the blog.
one day maybe.
cause in my mind is full of things. yes it is.
from the front of my doorstep till now in civic centre mac i kept thinking.
if i wanna post about it, gonna take like 8-10 paragraphs.
or its gonna take like the whole page of my blog.
a lot of things to say. all bout "Story Of My Life"
lols. yes it is.
wisdoms, experienced, problems, life.
and i ever had this "Near-Death Situation"
what more i wanna say huh..?
maybe i should post it in the blog.
one day maybe.
Labels: errr...story of my life?
6:13 PM
life..
Life..
hard to accept things isnt it?
another acceptance in life? is fact.?
In this world,
there's no human can felt easy and normal after a broke up..?
Surely him or her will felt the loneliness, the sorrows, the terrible things after accepting the fact.
Yes they will.
You cant always think of good things in life and
you cant always think of bad things in life..
always think of both, the good and bad, be balanced out.
Life always have balanced in it.
People will feel down after a broke up.
But that doesn't mean no one can heals.
Time will pass, and it takes time to build yourself up again.
we didn't lost everything. there's always something in life and there's always someone be right beside you.
Love ones and Close ones will always stand by your side.
They will support you in every way.
Cause they doesn't want to see you hurt or in pain.
You have someone to hug on.
You have shoulders to cry on.
You lost your strength? They put in their strength for you.
You lost your faith and believe? They pray for you, they believe in you.
You lost your way? They help you and guide your way through to move on.
Things will be a lot better. Things will go on as ever.
There's no such thing as stopping in life.
As the Universe is still growing and moving.
hard to accept things isnt it?
another acceptance in life? is fact.?
In this world,
there's no human can felt easy and normal after a broke up..?
Surely him or her will felt the loneliness, the sorrows, the terrible things after accepting the fact.
Yes they will.
You cant always think of good things in life and
you cant always think of bad things in life..
always think of both, the good and bad, be balanced out.
Life always have balanced in it.
People will feel down after a broke up.
But that doesn't mean no one can heals.
Time will pass, and it takes time to build yourself up again.
we didn't lost everything. there's always something in life and there's always someone be right beside you.
Love ones and Close ones will always stand by your side.
They will support you in every way.
Cause they doesn't want to see you hurt or in pain.
You have someone to hug on.
You have shoulders to cry on.
You lost your strength? They put in their strength for you.
You lost your faith and believe? They pray for you, they believe in you.
You lost your way? They help you and guide your way through to move on.
Things will be a lot better. Things will go on as ever.
There's no such thing as stopping in life.
As the Universe is still growing and moving.
Labels: life...
3:37 PM
Outings..Post
So yeah. In the afternoon gone out to meet sab and mira.
met sab at usual place, then met mira at j.e station.
then off to Habourfront.
Errr..we didnt found the place that we wanna go sia.
haiz. run here, run there.
cant get the right bus.
then alight somewhere and try and take taxi.
before that, ask taxi drivers, there were like, all of the taxi drivers dunno where's the place that we wanna go. lols. wth? we singaporean, then lost in singapore. xD
hahas. lols~
since we cant find the place, then our plan just hang out at Vivo City.
before going there, we had our lunch at Anchor Point KFC.
I only ate shroom burger, regular popcorn chicken, mashed potato and regular ice lemon tea.
and i was like totally full...lols. they offered me to eat their cheese fries..
but its ok lah. my tank seriously full already. like gonna burst =.="
meaning its like i gonna vomit like that. hahas.
okok. afterwards ate already, we off to Vivo City.
first thing reached there, go at the back of the Vivo and Snap~ Snap~ Snap~
lols.
so many pictures we took.
then walk around Vivo.
since no money we just go Window Shopping. hahs.
So yah. overall..ok lah.
but still not satisfied as we still can't find the place we wanna go.
dont give up k? we go find info about it again.
and off to that place one day. MUST GO THAT PLACE HOR!
any of you give up cause cant find the place, i Seeeemmaaaccck both of your faces. >.<
errr. thats all for updates.
got back home at around 8.30pm+ then off to workout.
since its weekend, my workout i should chiong leh.
100 lifting, 50 pumping, 300 skipping jumping.
insane. my right wrist pain but still managed to do it.
no matter what still must do as it's my everyday priority. hahs.
okok. some of the pictures i uploaded it. can check it out below.
got alot pictures, but just upload some lah. better dont be kiasu as before >.<"
met sab at usual place, then met mira at j.e station.
then off to Habourfront.
Errr..we didnt found the place that we wanna go sia.
haiz. run here, run there.
cant get the right bus.
then alight somewhere and try and take taxi.
before that, ask taxi drivers, there were like, all of the taxi drivers dunno where's the place that we wanna go. lols. wth? we singaporean, then lost in singapore. xD
hahas. lols~
since we cant find the place, then our plan just hang out at Vivo City.
before going there, we had our lunch at Anchor Point KFC.
I only ate shroom burger, regular popcorn chicken, mashed potato and regular ice lemon tea.
and i was like totally full...lols. they offered me to eat their cheese fries..
but its ok lah. my tank seriously full already. like gonna burst =.="
meaning its like i gonna vomit like that. hahas.
okok. afterwards ate already, we off to Vivo City.
first thing reached there, go at the back of the Vivo and Snap~ Snap~ Snap~
lols.
so many pictures we took.
then walk around Vivo.
since no money we just go Window Shopping. hahs.
So yah. overall..ok lah.
but still not satisfied as we still can't find the place we wanna go.
dont give up k? we go find info about it again.
and off to that place one day. MUST GO THAT PLACE HOR!
any of you give up cause cant find the place, i Seeeemmaaaccck both of your faces. >.<
errr. thats all for updates.
got back home at around 8.30pm+ then off to workout.
since its weekend, my workout i should chiong leh.
100 lifting, 50 pumping, 300 skipping jumping.
insane. my right wrist pain but still managed to do it.
no matter what still must do as it's my everyday priority. hahs.
okok. some of the pictures i uploaded it. can check it out below.
got alot pictures, but just upload some lah. better dont be kiasu as before >.<"
Labels: outings..post~
12:29 AM
Outings..pictures
The 3 of us. At Vivo
Another shot taken.I love this one. hahs
Mira & MeMissy Mira & Ahmad Piano
Sab & MeSabSab Oi & Ahmad Piano.
lols.
errr...dunno what caption..no clue. ^^"
this one.taken as hide and seek. lols.
errr...me.trying to pose?
lols. not emo ok? =.="
this one...no comment~
Reflection at MRT station door.wah. nice uhh? hahas.
Sleeping in MRT. >.<"Nyahaha. lols.
being silly awhile~
Labels: outings..pictures~
12:10 AM
Friday, November 14, 2008
rain..
Yes it rained.
just fall exact with my emotions right now.
scream..scream till i out of breath.
scream till i lost my voice
and here comes the rain.
blast my speakers and scream.
here comes the thunderstorm, the rain.
just gotten heavily right now.
let the rain make me feel better.
let the rain make me calm..
let the coldness embrace me.
let the chillness hold onto me.
thunder & lightning...
blasting and screaming..
lols.
just fall exact with my emotions right now.
scream..scream till i out of breath.
scream till i lost my voice
and here comes the rain.
blast my speakers and scream.
here comes the thunderstorm, the rain.
just gotten heavily right now.
let the rain make me feel better.
let the rain make me calm..
let the coldness embrace me.
let the chillness hold onto me.
thunder & lightning...
blasting and screaming..
lols.
Labels: raining on the right moment..
4:58 PM
bored.
what i wanna say uhh..?
so many things but dont know how or what to say.
going out today? maybe. maybe not. might worried plan cancel.
haiz.
atmosphere just felt so..lonely?
or no one? dont know.
November just didnt get right about the month.
so unusual, so complicated, so disappointed..? lols.
thinking and thinking.
things just so not right..
i noticed..
just too busy..too busy with something else or for someone else.
maybe this gonna go on like till next year of my month? hopefully not.
but what if? then i just have to bare with it. and maybe go on alone?
everything i always giving in.
always giving chance, giving free. i didn't fight back for my rights somehow.
just too tired? too disappointed? i dont know
just..move on.
just kept quiet.
just endure,
and see what's next.
just fading day by day..
but does the other party even noticed it?
dont know...haiz.
so many things but dont know how or what to say.
going out today? maybe. maybe not. might worried plan cancel.
haiz.
atmosphere just felt so..lonely?
or no one? dont know.
November just didnt get right about the month.
so unusual, so complicated, so disappointed..? lols.
thinking and thinking.
things just so not right..
i noticed..
just too busy..too busy with something else or for someone else.
maybe this gonna go on like till next year of my month? hopefully not.
but what if? then i just have to bare with it. and maybe go on alone?
everything i always giving in.
always giving chance, giving free. i didn't fight back for my rights somehow.
just too tired? too disappointed? i dont know
just..move on.
just kept quiet.
just endure,
and see what's next.
just fading day by day..
but does the other party even noticed it?
dont know...haiz.
Labels: nothign to write..
4:36 PM
Thursday, November 13, 2008
gone out awhile..
just came back from causeway point with Sab.
your welcome sab for accompany you to cwp.
as i got nothing to do at home, so yah, no problem for me.
and also thanks for the bubble tea treat. hahas.
Banana ice blended, the one you recommended me before.
7.40pm gone out. and till now, at around 9.30pm? came home.
so, tomorrow will be going out with honey.
then the day after tomorrow will be going out with Sab and Mira.
i want to go out. so bored staying at home everyday.
and afterwards, will not having any break.
as i got 3 assignments need to do.
3D Max Animation, which is the Storyboard. By 4 weeks need to hand in.
IT Essentials, Report about Printer. By 2 weeks need to hand in
Digital Imaging, Magazine Design, by this coming tues must show an examples of ours.
Insane. Projects and Assignments gave us in an instance.
Why the hell you lecturers gave us last min of work?
As you know we have class test and exams coming soon?
Crazy~
So this week, i just need a few days break.
if anyone willing to go out and wanna ask me to tag along.
i dont mind following and enjoy.
cause i need a timeout for the meantime...
afterwards, so much things need to think about.
your welcome sab for accompany you to cwp.
as i got nothing to do at home, so yah, no problem for me.
and also thanks for the bubble tea treat. hahas.
Banana ice blended, the one you recommended me before.
7.40pm gone out. and till now, at around 9.30pm? came home.
so, tomorrow will be going out with honey.
then the day after tomorrow will be going out with Sab and Mira.
i want to go out. so bored staying at home everyday.
and afterwards, will not having any break.
as i got 3 assignments need to do.
3D Max Animation, which is the Storyboard. By 4 weeks need to hand in.
IT Essentials, Report about Printer. By 2 weeks need to hand in
Digital Imaging, Magazine Design, by this coming tues must show an examples of ours.
Insane. Projects and Assignments gave us in an instance.
Why the hell you lecturers gave us last min of work?
As you know we have class test and exams coming soon?
Crazy~
So this week, i just need a few days break.
if anyone willing to go out and wanna ask me to tag along.
i dont mind following and enjoy.
cause i need a timeout for the meantime...
afterwards, so much things need to think about.
Labels: gone out awhile...
9:23 PM
Changes in life...
Razer..you changed alot since last 2 months ago, on September.
Ever since you know her, you change your life alot.
Sometimes, whenever people having a relationship or something,
they became so arrogant.
But what about you, Razer?
Somehow, you changed into a better person.
Your good deeds are increasing alot.
During the time that you know her, you somehow learnt lots of attitudes...?
Becoming independant, having more hope, faith and believe in yourself and around you.
You don't give up so easily right now, and you just fight all the way, fight for your rights.
Although sometimes she giving you a hard or bad times,
you managed to go through your life and actually appreciate of having her around..
Yes, of course you does. She did changed you alot. Into a good ways. Not the other way round.
You brighten up and giving her a blissful life,
while she giving you more good qualities or something for some reason.
You put your effort to change people's life before for the past few years,
and now, there's someone actually changes your life isn't it?
People around you changes too. But most of them changes in the wrong path.
And even her, changed into better and able to move on.
See..you done good deeds for people, your outcomes will always been good.
But if you done the bad things, you'll received the consequences.
So, she did changed you into better right?
Maybe that, she achieved something in life?
Cause she changed people into the better not worst.
Always keep that promised of yours..
Lols. It's like, something good just talked about me?
Talking about the changes in life, around me.
Honey changed me into something better? Hahs.
Appreciated of having you around.
Don't worry to much, you're neither failure nor hopeless.
You changed someone for the better...
Although if you're giving me a hard or bad times,
I'm always able to go through it, and you done nothing wrong before.
Think positive.. V(^.^)V
Anyway...I'm late for class right now..>.<
Suddenly got this feeling to do last min posting.
So now, 8.30am already. Class supposely started at 9am. Oops =X
Time to go off.
Will be updating another time.
ily. dearest.
Ever since you know her, you change your life alot.
Sometimes, whenever people having a relationship or something,
they became so arrogant.
But what about you, Razer?
Somehow, you changed into a better person.
Your good deeds are increasing alot.
During the time that you know her, you somehow learnt lots of attitudes...?
Becoming independant, having more hope, faith and believe in yourself and around you.
You don't give up so easily right now, and you just fight all the way, fight for your rights.
Although sometimes she giving you a hard or bad times,
you managed to go through your life and actually appreciate of having her around..
Yes, of course you does. She did changed you alot. Into a good ways. Not the other way round.
You brighten up and giving her a blissful life,
while she giving you more good qualities or something for some reason.
You put your effort to change people's life before for the past few years,
and now, there's someone actually changes your life isn't it?
People around you changes too. But most of them changes in the wrong path.
And even her, changed into better and able to move on.
See..you done good deeds for people, your outcomes will always been good.
But if you done the bad things, you'll received the consequences.
So, she did changed you into better right?
Maybe that, she achieved something in life?
Cause she changed people into the better not worst.
Always keep that promised of yours..
Lols. It's like, something good just talked about me?
Talking about the changes in life, around me.
Honey changed me into something better? Hahs.
Appreciated of having you around.
Don't worry to much, you're neither failure nor hopeless.
You changed someone for the better...
Although if you're giving me a hard or bad times,
I'm always able to go through it, and you done nothing wrong before.
Think positive.. V(^.^)V
Anyway...I'm late for class right now..>.<
Suddenly got this feeling to do last min posting.
So now, 8.30am already. Class supposely started at 9am. Oops =X
Time to go off.
Will be updating another time.
ily. dearest.
Labels: Changes in life...
8:14 AM
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
nothing to do~~~
hmm..
back from school quite late.
reached home at 8.30pm. straight on comp.
check this, check that.
afterwards do my workout right away.
50 times of lifting 7.5kg...errr..50 pumping..
and..250 of skipping jumping..? lols. hahas.
and yah. the WHOLE day didnt eat anything.
pro right?
only drink. no eat.
and today gotten my first 6 months of..injury.
lols. gotten it from soccer, p.e lesson in the afternoon.
it's like a bruise on left knee, 2 bruise and scratches above my right knee.
and a slight bruise at my right leg. so total got 4 bruises. hahs.
long time never gotten it. so..i kena today....
after workout like around 8.55pm?
go bath cold water and straight go practice piano.
so yah. came back school without any rest and just chiong like that.
hahs. without any hesitation.
after practice piano..nothing to do.
lie down, watch tv and stare blankly at the ceiling..
maybe thinking of something again?
or missing someone? hmm..
and just recalling back everything from the start i knowing her.
quite a funny story somehow, a story that how we came together. hahs.
and also go through the text letter that she sent me.
still kept it though. total like she sent me bout 12 of it.
need to find somewhere to keep it. dont wanna loose it.
oh i remember.
she asked me to collect 100 hearts from her?
homemade hearts...
somehow she didnt make any of it for err..this month?
only collected like 5 of it? and still 95 more to go...
hmm..be patience then..
nothing more to say.
maybe stay awake again for tonight.
sleep-awake style. xD
every 1hour woke up. hahas.
aiyah. handphone always on 24/7 without failing.
so anyone wanna contact, feel free lorh. even if at 3 or 5 am in the morning.
hahas. dont mind me. being retarded awhile can?
back from school quite late.
reached home at 8.30pm. straight on comp.
check this, check that.
afterwards do my workout right away.
50 times of lifting 7.5kg...errr..50 pumping..
and..250 of skipping jumping..? lols. hahas.
and yah. the WHOLE day didnt eat anything.
pro right?
only drink. no eat.
and today gotten my first 6 months of..injury.
lols. gotten it from soccer, p.e lesson in the afternoon.
it's like a bruise on left knee, 2 bruise and scratches above my right knee.
and a slight bruise at my right leg. so total got 4 bruises. hahs.
long time never gotten it. so..i kena today....
after workout like around 8.55pm?
go bath cold water and straight go practice piano.
so yah. came back school without any rest and just chiong like that.
hahs. without any hesitation.
after practice piano..nothing to do.
lie down, watch tv and stare blankly at the ceiling..
maybe thinking of something again?
or missing someone? hmm..
and just recalling back everything from the start i knowing her.
quite a funny story somehow, a story that how we came together. hahs.
and also go through the text letter that she sent me.
still kept it though. total like she sent me bout 12 of it.
need to find somewhere to keep it. dont wanna loose it.
oh i remember.
she asked me to collect 100 hearts from her?
homemade hearts...
somehow she didnt make any of it for err..this month?
only collected like 5 of it? and still 95 more to go...
hmm..be patience then..
nothing more to say.
maybe stay awake again for tonight.
sleep-awake style. xD
every 1hour woke up. hahas.
aiyah. handphone always on 24/7 without failing.
so anyone wanna contact, feel free lorh. even if at 3 or 5 am in the morning.
hahas. dont mind me. being retarded awhile can?
Labels: nothing to do right now....~
11:46 PM
You Were My Everything
I never know i can post this song lyrics now.
Maybe it's the right time to post it?
After quite a long time i kept and save it.
just check it out..
[Talking:]
This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn’t realize it at the time
I can’t forgive myself for the way
I treated you so
I don’t really expect you to either
It’s just... I don’t even know
Just listen…
You’re the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel
That wasn’t me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies
I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt
But I didn’t know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn’t care when push came to shove
If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly
I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don’t know how I could do you so wrong
I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one else could know you
You’re number one, always in my heart
And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart
[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]
I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart
At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain
Damn it, I’m insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work
What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me
I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I’m not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind
[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]
[Talking:]
I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…
No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart
You’ll always be my baby
Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse
We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there
I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care
Remember the times?
Remember when we kissed?
I didn’t think you would ever do me like this
I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed
I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess
You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying
Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying
[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]
[Talking:]
And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we’ll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy
Maybe it's the right time to post it?
After quite a long time i kept and save it.
just check it out..
[Talking:]
This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn’t realize it at the time
I can’t forgive myself for the way
I treated you so
I don’t really expect you to either
It’s just... I don’t even know
Just listen…
You’re the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel
That wasn’t me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies
I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt
But I didn’t know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn’t care when push came to shove
If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly
I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don’t know how I could do you so wrong
I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one else could know you
You’re number one, always in my heart
And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart
[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]
I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart
At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain
Damn it, I’m insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work
What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me
I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I’m not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind
[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]
[Talking:]
I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…
No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart
You’ll always be my baby
Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse
We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there
I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care
Remember the times?
Remember when we kissed?
I didn’t think you would ever do me like this
I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed
I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess
You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying
Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying
[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]
[Talking:]
And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we’ll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy
6:29 AM
like wanna die..
wah crazy.
10.45pm fall asleep. room door locked.
12.30am dad called my hp asked to unlocked it.
after i unlocked it, go find something inside fridge and found jelly. ouhk. can lah.
put beside my lappy. and fall asleep again.
woke up again. see the time, it's like between 2am-3am.
ouhk. check lappy. nothing special. nothing happen.
see see see. fall asleep again. woke up at 4am again. =.="
wth. what's wrong with me..aiyoh.
then see lappy again. nothing. only that song already downloaded. lols.
then fall asleep again sia. till now. awake at 5.30am.
lols. eyes pain sia. =.= and heavy.
now honey chat with me. asked me go sleep.
few hours later i need to go school..lols.
crazy lah. maybe i think too much. worried to much.
like as if i dont know what to do next..haiz.
maybe i already knew why and what will happen.
just that like i said, my prediction will kinda have sorrows.
cant turn back time if it does..
10.45pm fall asleep. room door locked.
12.30am dad called my hp asked to unlocked it.
after i unlocked it, go find something inside fridge and found jelly. ouhk. can lah.
put beside my lappy. and fall asleep again.
woke up again. see the time, it's like between 2am-3am.
ouhk. check lappy. nothing special. nothing happen.
see see see. fall asleep again. woke up at 4am again. =.="
wth. what's wrong with me..aiyoh.
then see lappy again. nothing. only that song already downloaded. lols.
then fall asleep again sia. till now. awake at 5.30am.
lols. eyes pain sia. =.= and heavy.
now honey chat with me. asked me go sleep.
few hours later i need to go school..lols.
crazy lah. maybe i think too much. worried to much.
like as if i dont know what to do next..haiz.
maybe i already knew why and what will happen.
just that like i said, my prediction will kinda have sorrows.
cant turn back time if it does..
Labels: cant sleep....
5:29 AM
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
never ever lie to a heart..
Boyfriend: I hurt her. I told her I was in love with someone.
Girlfriend: I see..
Boyfriend: I'm hurting other people's feelings by being with you, honey.
She(related to the boyfriend) and him(related to the girlfriend)..that's why it's a little tough on me..
Girlfriend: You not going to do anything then?
Boyfriend: *Blank face and shocked reaction*
Girlfriend: You're going to care for someone by lying to your heart?
I couldn't bear to do that.
Sadness exists everywhere.
That's why I want to be happy.
That may be selfish, but I can't lie to my heart.
I want to be together with you.
Boyfriend: Being together..
That means moving forward.
Girlfriend: Yes.
Boyfriend: Even if something sad happens.
Girlfriend: Yes.
Boyfriend: I see..
Maybe i fall for myself, not because I was depressed,
..but because I wanted to escape things I didn't want to deal with.
Isn't that pathetic?
Girlfriend: *Shake her head*
When you're alone, it's not strange to feel that way.
But right now, you're not alone.
Boyfriend: Honey..
Girlfriend: Let's go forward.
Let's move forward together.
Boyfriend: Together..
Girlfriend: Yes, together.
For us, that's a promise.
*Ends*
I wonder if it's true? and never lie to our heart? and sadness exists everywhere..?
the conversation is somehow, touching isnt it?
haiz..now im so tired. yet things alot in my mind.
just came up suddenly. lols.
nvm. dont bother bout me. just my silly thoughts..
haiz.
Girlfriend: I see..
Boyfriend: I'm hurting other people's feelings by being with you, honey.
She(related to the boyfriend) and him(related to the girlfriend)..that's why it's a little tough on me..
Girlfriend: You not going to do anything then?
Boyfriend: *Blank face and shocked reaction*
Girlfriend: You're going to care for someone by lying to your heart?
I couldn't bear to do that.
Sadness exists everywhere.
That's why I want to be happy.
That may be selfish, but I can't lie to my heart.
I want to be together with you.
Boyfriend: Being together..
That means moving forward.
Girlfriend: Yes.
Boyfriend: Even if something sad happens.
Girlfriend: Yes.
Boyfriend: I see..
Maybe i fall for myself, not because I was depressed,
..but because I wanted to escape things I didn't want to deal with.
Isn't that pathetic?
Girlfriend: *Shake her head*
When you're alone, it's not strange to feel that way.
But right now, you're not alone.
Boyfriend: Honey..
Girlfriend: Let's go forward.
Let's move forward together.
Boyfriend: Together..
Girlfriend: Yes, together.
For us, that's a promise.
*Ends*
I wonder if it's true? and never lie to our heart? and sadness exists everywhere..?
the conversation is somehow, touching isnt it?
haiz..now im so tired. yet things alot in my mind.
just came up suddenly. lols.
nvm. dont bother bout me. just my silly thoughts..
haiz.
Labels: ............
9:46 PM
Chicken Char Siew Rice...
Came back home at 7pm+
afterwards go change clothes into a simple secondary p.e shorts with my white T-shirt.
going off to Woodlands Mart to buy my Dinner(Breakfast+Lunch+Dinner), as i havent ate a single thing the whole day.
First thing in my mind, Chicken Char Siew Rice with ketchup egg...
I remembered, honey told me the taste isnt that nice.
yeah. its true. but, there's so-called memories about it.
so, i go for it just now.
2 years or more, I didn't eat that till now.
Memories just came into me. Memories during my Sec 2 & 3 life.
Better called as Techno Life.
During that time, after school everyday, changed quickly, called up any of our friends.
Once confirmed, gone to Wdls Mart to buy Chicken Car Siew Rice with the ketchup egg.
Then either gone to their home, my home or under void deck and blast techno while eating.
Oh that time we're siao of techno. here and there talk about techno.
Good ones we're go find, go download the remixes, radio edits, everything.
If home no one, we blasting our speakers till first floor can hear.
people all just passing by and looking around, where's the song coming from.
lols. insane isnt it?
but when i thought about it.
it's an attitude that i dont wanna have it.
attitude that full of rage, anger, hates, hatred, problematics...
fight in class, fight outside in public, sparring, making troubles...
damn. cant believe it just happened like that..?
as time pass by, i changed.
attitudes gone, rage gone. no anger, no hates.
everything just being so cool suddenly.
maybe thats what growing up? being matured?
then that's good.
still retain the good deeds of mine till now.
hahahas.
lots of thing to say.
maybe later. so tired. need to go practice piano later on.
dotts~
till here then.
afterwards go change clothes into a simple secondary p.e shorts with my white T-shirt.
going off to Woodlands Mart to buy my Dinner(Breakfast+Lunch+Dinner), as i havent ate a single thing the whole day.
First thing in my mind, Chicken Char Siew Rice with ketchup egg...
I remembered, honey told me the taste isnt that nice.
yeah. its true. but, there's so-called memories about it.
so, i go for it just now.
2 years or more, I didn't eat that till now.
Memories just came into me. Memories during my Sec 2 & 3 life.
Better called as Techno Life.
During that time, after school everyday, changed quickly, called up any of our friends.
Once confirmed, gone to Wdls Mart to buy Chicken Car Siew Rice with the ketchup egg.
Then either gone to their home, my home or under void deck and blast techno while eating.
Oh that time we're siao of techno. here and there talk about techno.
Good ones we're go find, go download the remixes, radio edits, everything.
If home no one, we blasting our speakers till first floor can hear.
people all just passing by and looking around, where's the song coming from.
lols. insane isnt it?
but when i thought about it.
it's an attitude that i dont wanna have it.
attitude that full of rage, anger, hates, hatred, problematics...
fight in class, fight outside in public, sparring, making troubles...
damn. cant believe it just happened like that..?
as time pass by, i changed.
attitudes gone, rage gone. no anger, no hates.
everything just being so cool suddenly.
maybe thats what growing up? being matured?
then that's good.
still retain the good deeds of mine till now.
hahahas.
lots of thing to say.
maybe later. so tired. need to go practice piano later on.
dotts~
till here then.
Labels: Chicken Char Siew Rice...
8:05 PM
Outcast..
done my presentation and hand in my report this morning.
whole class shocked that the group that im having is alone, me only.
lecturer shocked, but still enable me to go on and finish off my presentation.
i'll done my best just now.
show the whole world im not giving up whatever things that will happen.
at the end of the presentation, the lecturer somehow impressed by my performance.
"I impress by his presentation. The way he speak and present. Just like a natural presenter."
"He gave us the information deeply, like about mono and stereo. The sounds standard. Just like a multimedia student. He gave in lots of effort for it. For this, I will give him a B grade."
See that everyone? I'll show i can stand up alone. 1 man show.
and gotten a "B" grade just for myself. alone in a group, not 3 or 4, but 1 and only me.
while some group giving so much effort but in the end, some gotten C-, B-, C+ and some even B+ and B. Only 1 group gotten an A-
well, the ex-group that im in, gotten B also.
Hahs. Disappointed izit guys? because the lecturer gave you a B?
Judging by your face expression I knew you guys wanna get better grades like A or something.
But too bad, you gotten the same grade as I am.
You guys have 3 members in the group while Im the only one doing it alone.
cause of you guys im putting hell lots of effort to score that kind of grade for myself
sickening. disgrace. disappointment.
dont ever show that faces infront of me again whenever we're apart. for god sake.
after the presentation, straight away told honey im done.
gotten B grade for it. but still, im not that happy anyway.
but relieve at the same time.
sad that honey didnt reply. maybe she's busy or sleeping.
now blogging at level 2 of my school. alone again.
waiting for class to start at 4pm.
somehow, felt like im an Outcast.
people were just like, heck care me.
go on then, im still surviving. if im dead, i'll leave a text message for all of you.
faith and believe are still inside of me.
strength and courage to stand up for myself are still flowing inside me.
lets accelerate. move on.
new prediction has came to me.
but, i dislike it. full of sorrows.
maybe it will. maybe it wont.
we'll see about it. whatever it is, lets be prepare for anything and everything.
soon. time will come.
whole class shocked that the group that im having is alone, me only.
lecturer shocked, but still enable me to go on and finish off my presentation.
i'll done my best just now.
show the whole world im not giving up whatever things that will happen.
at the end of the presentation, the lecturer somehow impressed by my performance.
"I impress by his presentation. The way he speak and present. Just like a natural presenter."
"He gave us the information deeply, like about mono and stereo. The sounds standard. Just like a multimedia student. He gave in lots of effort for it. For this, I will give him a B grade."
See that everyone? I'll show i can stand up alone. 1 man show.
and gotten a "B" grade just for myself. alone in a group, not 3 or 4, but 1 and only me.
while some group giving so much effort but in the end, some gotten C-, B-, C+ and some even B+ and B. Only 1 group gotten an A-
well, the ex-group that im in, gotten B also.
Hahs. Disappointed izit guys? because the lecturer gave you a B?
Judging by your face expression I knew you guys wanna get better grades like A or something.
But too bad, you gotten the same grade as I am.
You guys have 3 members in the group while Im the only one doing it alone.
cause of you guys im putting hell lots of effort to score that kind of grade for myself
sickening. disgrace. disappointment.
dont ever show that faces infront of me again whenever we're apart. for god sake.
after the presentation, straight away told honey im done.
gotten B grade for it. but still, im not that happy anyway.
but relieve at the same time.
sad that honey didnt reply. maybe she's busy or sleeping.
now blogging at level 2 of my school. alone again.
waiting for class to start at 4pm.
somehow, felt like im an Outcast.
people were just like, heck care me.
go on then, im still surviving. if im dead, i'll leave a text message for all of you.
faith and believe are still inside of me.
strength and courage to stand up for myself are still flowing inside me.
lets accelerate. move on.
new prediction has came to me.
but, i dislike it. full of sorrows.
maybe it will. maybe it wont.
we'll see about it. whatever it is, lets be prepare for anything and everything.
soon. time will come.
Labels: it's over....over for good..
3:29 PM
emo-ing under the block..
right now. blogging under my blog.
as i brought my lappy down, and slacking under my block.
luckily my broadband wireless connection is far ranged.
meeting up 2 of my friends below.
one brought guitar, and another one? brought himself.
at 10.15pm or so, met them and slacked.
yeah. quite a long time didnt see them.
guess all of us have been far apart huh?
lots of changes around.
from 10+ till now, 12.25am. just doing my powerpoint work and emo-ing at the same time.
since there's nothing good i can do. no one to talk with but only 2 of them beside me and opposite me.
yes. doing my work and listening they singing acoustic songs.
just kept on reminding and reminding. emo-ing and emo-ing.
song just remind me of her.
so missing her terribly.
not sure if you're having the same feeling as i am right now..
where are you..?
the song that they played and sing right now called,
Untukmu Selamanya.
means, Forever For You.
"Untukmu is For You" and "Selamanya is Forever"
so yeah. Forever For You.
haiz..let's continue guys..
just go on, and sing. im listening. im singing somehow. getting into the rhythm..
emo-ing..under the block...
as i brought my lappy down, and slacking under my block.
luckily my broadband wireless connection is far ranged.
meeting up 2 of my friends below.
one brought guitar, and another one? brought himself.
at 10.15pm or so, met them and slacked.
yeah. quite a long time didnt see them.
guess all of us have been far apart huh?
lots of changes around.
from 10+ till now, 12.25am. just doing my powerpoint work and emo-ing at the same time.
since there's nothing good i can do. no one to talk with but only 2 of them beside me and opposite me.
yes. doing my work and listening they singing acoustic songs.
just kept on reminding and reminding. emo-ing and emo-ing.
song just remind me of her.
so missing her terribly.
not sure if you're having the same feeling as i am right now..
where are you..?
the song that they played and sing right now called,
Untukmu Selamanya.
means, Forever For You.
"Untukmu is For You" and "Selamanya is Forever"
so yeah. Forever For You.
haiz..let's continue guys..
just go on, and sing. im listening. im singing somehow. getting into the rhythm..
emo-ing..under the block...
Labels: under the block..not void deck..
12:22 AM
Monday, November 10, 2008
subway!
Subway Footlong.err 12inches i think.lols. tuna..my favourite.
Last few hours ago bought myself a subway sandwich.
Since it's quite a long time i didnt eat it. Then today like nothing to do so just go Bukit Batok and get it. The nearest Subway in Singapore. lols.
but luckily it's at BB lorh. if not, need to go town to buy. >.<
which usually at suntec there. lols.
hopefully causeway point will open Subway perhaps?
then i might subsitute my everyday food with only a 12inches of sandwich.
hahas. healthy ok. just 6 grams of fats? dotts~
can go diet easily.
errr. the sandwich i chose is, Footlong(12inches) of Honey Oat bread, tuna with extra cheese and toast it, only lettuce vegetable, mayonise and honey mustard.
bought a large meal which included 3 cookies and 1 large drink.
lols. total is like, $10.80. aiyoh. faint~
cannot buy everyday lah. can go bankcrupt sia.
if wanna buy everyday can..whole day just eat this only. hahas.
tahan for whole day. i think weight gonna drop alot.
after ate at subway, brought the cookies home. and yeah. think thats all arh.
btw subway reminds me of my bestie, Sabrina. hahas. yeah. people call you "Subway" right?
nyahahaa.
okok. by the way Sab, maybe this one is an advice for you, read below...
You said you like to look at hot guys; handsome and cute right? that's your taste?
but, if you really want to have a relationship, isnt it better to go for his heart? rather than looks?
cause if example, that guy is hot, handsome or cute in a way lah, but then his attitude and heart is bad? you still wanna fall for his..errr..charming looks?
give you this phrase uhh,
"Not all Knights with shiny armor can make your dream come true"
so yah. better think about it or else you gonna get your heart played again as before.
as i dont wanna see you loose yourself again and again.
and yah you still can continue your.."Eye Candy" lah.
lols, but if you wanna move on with someone then better..errr..
how to say..think twice? and dont fall for his charming that easily.
so, i still allow you to have "Eye Candy" time.
but i cant already uhh. as i already have someone that im with.
so im taking that "Time" away from me. hahas.
if not, i gonna get kill by my honey ^^"
somehow, that's the one of the promise/swear to myself.
Labels: Sub... Sub... Way..
7:47 PM
raining~
just came back from woodlands mart.
help mum to buy her lunch and for lil bro too.
but somehow i didnt buy for myself. not sure why, just a sudden of no appetite right now.
strolling around the woodlands circle under the rain.
walking and thinking. walking and imagining. walking and recalling.
so busy like that till i didnt see where am i walking straight to.
luckily while i cross the road, manage to be awake, lols.
as there's a car coming by. hopefully wont be like the last 2 years ago?
whereby i cross the main road behind the 888 plaza and almost hit by a car.
the car use it's emergency brake at that time which can heard the screech of the tires and the car horn at the same time.
people all looking and staring. my reaction? just calm down and just go on like nothing happen.
hahs. insane. no one knows about this actually. just been keeping it to myself all along.
but who cares. that is like, last 2 years already. not now.
back to topic.
so yeah, walking and thinking under the rain.
just felt the chilling breeze around me. the coldness of the atmosphere.
making me so calm. so relax. so refreshing. but soaked at the same time.
still, it reminded me of someone...
homie called up just a moment ago.
talking about meeting up. trying to continuing our music industry..?
sorry bro, as wednesday im not free and cant skip lesson anymore.
tomorrow is your last O level paper. do your best yah.
afterwards you enjoying your 4 months of break. till April right?
damn man, you got holidays for 4 months? till the month of our birthday? hahas.
anything just call up.
so..next class will start at 1pm.
guess i go prepare now.
school ends after 6pm.
at home now. not going to school.
somehow felt like something not going to be right.
haiz. so gone to bus stop. thinking and waiting for bus.
bus so freaking late. in the end, walk back home.
now in parents room all alone. only heard the rain droplets and fan spinning.
i just need peace and quiet as before.
its so calm and relaxing.
maybe later going to causeway point.
and also need to start on my powerpoint.
as tomorrow is the presentation.
why am i so blank right now.
im putting away everything, and just kept on thinking and thinking.
mind just blank. what is it? what is it that playing in my mind..?
haiz..
missing..
help mum to buy her lunch and for lil bro too.
but somehow i didnt buy for myself. not sure why, just a sudden of no appetite right now.
strolling around the woodlands circle under the rain.
walking and thinking. walking and imagining. walking and recalling.
so busy like that till i didnt see where am i walking straight to.
luckily while i cross the road, manage to be awake, lols.
as there's a car coming by. hopefully wont be like the last 2 years ago?
whereby i cross the main road behind the 888 plaza and almost hit by a car.
the car use it's emergency brake at that time which can heard the screech of the tires and the car horn at the same time.
people all looking and staring. my reaction? just calm down and just go on like nothing happen.
hahs. insane. no one knows about this actually. just been keeping it to myself all along.
but who cares. that is like, last 2 years already. not now.
back to topic.
so yeah, walking and thinking under the rain.
just felt the chilling breeze around me. the coldness of the atmosphere.
making me so calm. so relax. so refreshing. but soaked at the same time.
still, it reminded me of someone...
homie called up just a moment ago.
talking about meeting up. trying to continuing our music industry..?
sorry bro, as wednesday im not free and cant skip lesson anymore.
tomorrow is your last O level paper. do your best yah.
afterwards you enjoying your 4 months of break. till April right?
damn man, you got holidays for 4 months? till the month of our birthday? hahas.
anything just call up.
guess i go prepare now.
school ends after 6pm.
at home now. not going to school.
somehow felt like something not going to be right.
haiz. so gone to bus stop. thinking and waiting for bus.
bus so freaking late. in the end, walk back home.
now in parents room all alone. only heard the rain droplets and fan spinning.
i just need peace and quiet as before.
its so calm and relaxing.
maybe later going to causeway point.
and also need to start on my powerpoint.
as tomorrow is the presentation.
why am i so blank right now.
im putting away everything, and just kept on thinking and thinking.
mind just blank. what is it? what is it that playing in my mind..?
haiz..
missing..
11:40 AM
morning morning..
yes. rise and shine.
morning to honey.
wish you have a great day today.
as this morning you going off to have breakfast at bk.
so can say its a great start of the day right..?
enjoy your breakfast meal then. hahas.
jurong west is raining heavily now..
why woodlands not?
it just getting darker.
i wish it will.
oh well..im going school on 1pm classes.
not going in the morning.
and afterwards go for 4pm classes. so will be home in the evening.
today will hand the report in.
tmr will be the presentation. later at night need to do the powerpoint slide. alone again. haiz.
its sickening. but must do. gogogo~
gotten an update from ignatious(best_lame), that our fren won 1st in World Cyber Game, Asphalt 4: Elite Racing.
congrats slyfoxlover that you won first place for Singapore.
the gamers around us that we knew surely be proud of you.
all the best for your future gaming. although you still be my rival in the racing games >.<
hahas.
err..now nothing to do. play hs5.
somehow met few of our frens there.
at least can have chat awhile. if not...dunno. lalala~
doing something and missing honey at the same time.
but got to endure the missing-ness. =.=
im being so silly right now. dont care me. boo~
morning to honey.
wish you have a great day today.
as this morning you going off to have breakfast at bk.
so can say its a great start of the day right..?
enjoy your breakfast meal then. hahas.
jurong west is raining heavily now..
why woodlands not?
it just getting darker.
i wish it will.
oh well..im going school on 1pm classes.
not going in the morning.
and afterwards go for 4pm classes. so will be home in the evening.
today will hand the report in.
tmr will be the presentation. later at night need to do the powerpoint slide. alone again. haiz.
its sickening. but must do. gogogo~
gotten an update from ignatious(best_lame), that our fren won 1st in World Cyber Game, Asphalt 4: Elite Racing.
congrats slyfoxlover that you won first place for Singapore.
the gamers around us that we knew surely be proud of you.
all the best for your future gaming. although you still be my rival in the racing games >.<
hahas.
err..now nothing to do. play hs5.
somehow met few of our frens there.
at least can have chat awhile. if not...dunno. lalala~
doing something and missing honey at the same time.
but got to endure the missing-ness. =.=
im being so silly right now. dont care me. boo~
Labels: boo~
8:37 AM
Sunday, November 9, 2008
my time will come soon.
left 1 or 2 days for my outcome.
it's done by 9.30pm just now. lets finish it off tomorrow and the next 2 days. finish it off once and for all.
whether it will be in the right track or not, im facing it and there's no turning back for me.
believe in myself. have faith in it. be positive.
cause im into this, alone.
left 1 or 2 days for my outcome.
it's done by 9.30pm just now. lets finish it off tomorrow and the next 2 days. finish it off once and for all.
whether it will be in the right track or not, im facing it and there's no turning back for me.
believe in myself. have faith in it. be positive.
cause im into this, alone.
Labels: it's time..
11:32 PM
be strong.
be strong as before.
dont let that feelings of yours making you down.
dont let the weakness and feelings overrun you.
be the one that i known before, who have the faith, believe and strength to fight it.
nothing wrong of being like a baby, but not as falling down so easily.
being a baby that is cute and cuddly and wanted to rely on someone just like you wanted to, but have strength to fight back at the same time. you are that type of baby that i've known. and always being so positively but not negatively.
i believe you will make it, as "giving up" is not in our dictionary.
go dearest go. move on. my support will always be with you.
whether im nuisance like a monkey or silence like a mouse (or hamster),
im always be right by your side by giving you the hope, faith and believe which it given you the bliss in your life..
be strong as before.
dont let that feelings of yours making you down.
dont let the weakness and feelings overrun you.
be the one that i known before, who have the faith, believe and strength to fight it.
nothing wrong of being like a baby, but not as falling down so easily.
being a baby that is cute and cuddly and wanted to rely on someone just like you wanted to, but have strength to fight back at the same time. you are that type of baby that i've known. and always being so positively but not negatively.
i believe you will make it, as "giving up" is not in our dictionary.
go dearest go. move on. my support will always be with you.
whether im nuisance like a monkey or silence like a mouse (or hamster),
im always be right by your side by giving you the hope, faith and believe which it given you the bliss in your life..
Labels: move on..
11:22 PM
prayers..
dear god,
guide me through this life and let me stay away from bad things and accident.
give and strengthen me more confidence and spirit to move on.
open up my heart and mind just like before.
show me the right path to move onto my life and not the other way round.
dear god,
please guide her through her life and let her stay away from any bad causes and accident.
show her to the right path to move on.
give her more confidence and spirit, and open up her heart and mind.
strengthen our love together and never let us be apart.
give us more hope and faith to move on as one.
as i do not want to loose such a precious love by my side.
please, let us move on together smoothly as ever.
let my promise be fulfil and i will faces the consequences if the promise and swear have been broken off.
a promise that i've kept throughout my life..
never fail to pray everynight.
always did. for me, for her, for my family.
as i know it is the powerful thing in life.
prayers do will be answered or fulfilled, but it will takes time. not in an instance.
thats why we must have patience.
i dont want to loose my family and love ones..especially her..
prayers~
guide me through this life and let me stay away from bad things and accident.
give and strengthen me more confidence and spirit to move on.
open up my heart and mind just like before.
show me the right path to move onto my life and not the other way round.
dear god,
please guide her through her life and let her stay away from any bad causes and accident.
show her to the right path to move on.
give her more confidence and spirit, and open up her heart and mind.
strengthen our love together and never let us be apart.
give us more hope and faith to move on as one.
as i do not want to loose such a precious love by my side.
please, let us move on together smoothly as ever.
let my promise be fulfil and i will faces the consequences if the promise and swear have been broken off.
a promise that i've kept throughout my life..
never fail to pray everynight.
always did. for me, for her, for my family.
as i know it is the powerful thing in life.
prayers do will be answered or fulfilled, but it will takes time. not in an instance.
thats why we must have patience.
i dont want to loose my family and love ones..especially her..
prayers~
Labels: dear god....
3:40 AM
Saturday, November 8, 2008
no title
im dying of doing this report.
shit, do alone for a groupwork. insanity.
hopefully what i've done is right.
must have no regret for what it is.
as it wasnt any of my fault for this thing to happen. haiz.
go go go! confidence!
earn this respect! it's the right time to show.
no go, no show. lols. now im talking crap.
i wanna go somewhere right now..
somewhere high..like climbing up the hills or something..
i wanna take in the fresh air. medidate. rest. relax. as before.
i kept on meditating in room i getting bored of it. lols.
lets go out and refresh yah!
report is still in half way done.
thanks honey for coming by yesterday.
i felt at ease and calm somehow.
u always make my day as i always made urs too.
never had a fight of us. if have, only once.
as the promise of mine still goes on.
what else more i wanna say...
shit, do alone for a groupwork. insanity.
hopefully what i've done is right.
must have no regret for what it is.
as it wasnt any of my fault for this thing to happen. haiz.
go go go! confidence!
earn this respect! it's the right time to show.
no go, no show. lols. now im talking crap.
i wanna go somewhere right now..
somewhere high..like climbing up the hills or something..
i wanna take in the fresh air. medidate. rest. relax. as before.
i kept on meditating in room i getting bored of it. lols.
lets go out and refresh yah!
report is still in half way done.
thanks honey for coming by yesterday.
i felt at ease and calm somehow.
u always make my day as i always made urs too.
never had a fight of us. if have, only once.
as the promise of mine still goes on.
what else more i wanna say...
Labels: ............
12:57 PM
Monday, November 3, 2008
3rd day of the month.
3rd day of the month and things just went, chaotic bout schoolworks and projects.
in workgroup i was left behind. supposely im doing my assignment with them, in the end, they quietly done it on sunday without telling me and today they said they done it.
i asked them then what about me? im in your group what but they said they didnt know.
lols. come on lah, if wanna lie, can lie properly or not? so obvious the chairman wrote our name in a group already and yet you guys said not sure im actually inside the group?
sounded so pathetic.
at around 4pm+, while chatting with honey, one of the member sms me told me that, im not in their group, go find other group.
cb, said so easy like as if nothing happen.
i so pissed off and honey saw it how i react.
haiz. sorry for being like this but just cant tolerate this kind of behaviour.
she calm me down, console me and do whatever she can do make me relax.
hahas. thanks. but i already am although i looked so pissed, im still in my relax mood.
if im not, i would call him up and finish off the story.
but nah, waste my time angry on human being for what.
better spent my time listening to song, cammy with honey and relax around.
hmm..so now i no group?
need to find other group?
lols. nah, i think go work alone arh.
erm. should be easy isn't it?
just need to have hardwork research and powerpoint presentation my own.
is this such a challange for me? maybe...maybe not.
we'll see how it goes, need to finish it up before 11th Nov.
in workgroup i was left behind. supposely im doing my assignment with them, in the end, they quietly done it on sunday without telling me and today they said they done it.
i asked them then what about me? im in your group what but they said they didnt know.
lols. come on lah, if wanna lie, can lie properly or not? so obvious the chairman wrote our name in a group already and yet you guys said not sure im actually inside the group?
sounded so pathetic.
at around 4pm+, while chatting with honey, one of the member sms me told me that, im not in their group, go find other group.
cb, said so easy like as if nothing happen.
i so pissed off and honey saw it how i react.
haiz. sorry for being like this but just cant tolerate this kind of behaviour.
she calm me down, console me and do whatever she can do make me relax.
hahas. thanks. but i already am although i looked so pissed, im still in my relax mood.
if im not, i would call him up and finish off the story.
but nah, waste my time angry on human being for what.
better spent my time listening to song, cammy with honey and relax around.
hmm..so now i no group?
need to find other group?
lols. nah, i think go work alone arh.
erm. should be easy isn't it?
just need to have hardwork research and powerpoint presentation my own.
is this such a challange for me? maybe...maybe not.
we'll see how it goes, need to finish it up before 11th Nov.
4:59 PM
my future is clouded now...
damn. skipped classes again for today. i not sure, just that i don't feel right.
it's like, half of myself want me to skip class while the other half want to focus on education.
let me tell you something weird about my..err..thoughts.
one of my half said, "come on ahmad. stop skipping class. education is important in your life, and it's something to do with computers, your primary advantage for it. if you keep on skipping, you won't learn anything and your attendance will be totally bad. you want to know more about computer technician don't you? that's what you want since you're small and till now you really into it."
the other half of me said, "no. education is taking too much of your time. you good in music and you taking grade 6 exams soon. you need to practice more, learn all the new skills, need to get use to the grade 8 manoeuvres. as your teacher said, you skipping your grade 7 and off to grade 8. that is a best thing for you, afterwards you can strive for diploma. don't you want that? now you able to play cover songs, make your own arrangement and even compose your own songs. this will be your biggest achievement in life. next 2 years you can even gone to music academy school.
you want that don't you ahmad?"
oh god, im going insane. my future is clouded right now. should i go for my education?
or my music? or..both?
if i take both, i going to earn more than a living. it's like, i could earn $3000-4500 a month with both job.
so as in, computer technician/programming as my full-time job, then music teacher as part-time.
like wow, the earning which about the same as uncle. he's a guitar teacher though.
so if guitar teacher could earn like that, piano teacher actually earn more than that. lols.
haiz. god, please show me the right path.
now im like, stuck at a 2 or 3 way junction which i got to choose to move on.
brighten up my mind and show the clear path for me.
dang~ im going nuts.
oh wait, i MUST go to esplanade library. that is number 1 priority for me.
the music treasures are hidden in there. can find lots of music scores you want there.
when when when? when to go? felt like going after this. lols.
but going alone lorh. =.="
it's like, half of myself want me to skip class while the other half want to focus on education.
let me tell you something weird about my..err..thoughts.
one of my half said, "come on ahmad. stop skipping class. education is important in your life, and it's something to do with computers, your primary advantage for it. if you keep on skipping, you won't learn anything and your attendance will be totally bad. you want to know more about computer technician don't you? that's what you want since you're small and till now you really into it."
the other half of me said, "no. education is taking too much of your time. you good in music and you taking grade 6 exams soon. you need to practice more, learn all the new skills, need to get use to the grade 8 manoeuvres. as your teacher said, you skipping your grade 7 and off to grade 8. that is a best thing for you, afterwards you can strive for diploma. don't you want that? now you able to play cover songs, make your own arrangement and even compose your own songs. this will be your biggest achievement in life. next 2 years you can even gone to music academy school.
you want that don't you ahmad?"
oh god, im going insane. my future is clouded right now. should i go for my education?
or my music? or..both?
if i take both, i going to earn more than a living. it's like, i could earn $3000-4500 a month with both job.
so as in, computer technician/programming as my full-time job, then music teacher as part-time.
like wow, the earning which about the same as uncle. he's a guitar teacher though.
so if guitar teacher could earn like that, piano teacher actually earn more than that. lols.
haiz. god, please show me the right path.
now im like, stuck at a 2 or 3 way junction which i got to choose to move on.
brighten up my mind and show the clear path for me.
dang~ im going nuts.
oh wait, i MUST go to esplanade library. that is number 1 priority for me.
the music treasures are hidden in there. can find lots of music scores you want there.
when when when? when to go? felt like going after this. lols.
but going alone lorh. =.="
Labels: future is clouded
1:00 PM
Sunday, November 2, 2008
great day to remember
a great day to remember.
going out with honey to a movie this morning, till now we just came back.
it's like, the whole day we gone out together without any disturbance or distraction, cause my phone dead actually. running low on battery, hahs.
in the morning honey called me up like around 9am? she ask if today want to go out together.
cause yesterday night we kinda, planned of going out. so talk here and there on the phone with my blurr blurr voice, then come online as honey ask to, and she saw my "just woke up" face. lol.
i looked at myself, like omg, i looked so like sotong king.
with my blurr face and small eyes and messy hair. hahs. like apek just woke up from sleep.
erm in the end, we managed to plan and go out. and i only brought 30 bucks to go on a date. >.<"
around 9.30am we go bath and wash up. as we trying to catch a movie which start their first show on 11.30am, at orchard cineleisure. so, i was like totally kanchiong just now.
dressed up and ready to go. honey wore white, i wore black.
as time passed, 11.30 has passed and honey reached first, i reached 5-10mins later. crap, i late again. sooo sorry honey.. >.<
alighted at somerset and i totally lost at there.
met honey at traffic crossing light, waited for the traffic light to turn red its like 5 mins for it. =.=
then straight go cross road and first thing we did..hugged each other! or embraced. hahas.
awww...what a tight embraced we shared at the side of the road.
walked to the cineleisure and checked out the time of the movie. since we late for the first movie, we somehow gotten to know that the same movie started later at 12.50pm, and was screening in digital. lols. is that great or what..? oh wow, we so lucky just now.
once we bought the ticket, while waiting for the movie to start screening, we gone to take our lunch at long john silver with only my 10 bucks. =.="
spent 20 bucks on 1 pair of ticket and left only 10 with me now.
which is exactly enough for us to have our lunch at LJS. lol.
bought combo 1, 2 of it, with 2 cheese and changed one of the drinks into medium ice lemon tea.
and yeah, my balance now left only 5 cents. hahas. im so pathetic >.<"
after ate our lunch at LJS, we took picture awhile, walk around the cineleisure and then off to our movie. oh the movie that we watching is High School Musical 3 in digital. woots~
around 3.30pm the movie ends, it's time for us to wandering, strolling, jalan-jalan around the town.
gone to shopping centre, honey go shopping, i just surveyed and chose for her.
and she addicted to hello kitty..
so many stuffs she bought all bout hello kitty leh. but still, it looks cute. hahas. just like her >.<"
around 5.45pm we gone off and head to woodlands to meet one of my friend and have dinner together at there. we reached at 6.15pm, but mahdi not there yet.
in the end, he came at 6.30pm. haiz. why you always so slow..? haiyoh.
had our dinner at Banquet. mahdi ate chicken rice, me and honey ate sliced fish soup.
i was like, "aww, long time i didnt ate this. taste so delicious" in my mind.
at around 7.25pm, we head off to marsilling to slack at void deck or something.
cause mahdi want to play guitar with one of our friend under void deck.
so me and honey tagged along then.
time passed~
while playing guitar with amirul and mahdi, honey take a break for the moment.
i knew she tired and exhausted. so i told her to have a nap awhile or something.
she somehow dazing off here and there. hahs, in the end, luckily there's a table that we slacked around, so honey can sleep awhile by putting her head on the table.
play play play, till gotten bored.
half and hour later, honey woke up, i was like sudden shocked.
cause i busy playing the guitar, then i stopped. i look beside me then suddenly honey like staring at me with her big eyes. i was like, "omg. lol. woke up already?" lols. scared me leh..
at around 9-9.30pm, taught honey to play guitar, play some songs to let her hear, took photos together and spent our time together while both of my friend busy playing their guitar.
9.50pm me and honey going off to opposite of admiralty mrt to buy food for mum and herself.
otah-otah, goreng pisang, hotdogs.
so yeah, afterwards it's time for us to go.
overall, it's a great day. or should i say a great Date for us?
thanks alot honey. and yeah, i still willingly to go out and spent my last 30 bucks for honey.
hahas. cause it's worth for spending it?
now, just finished working out. damn, arm quite pain but managed to endure it.
blogging and eating seaweed rice crackers at the same time. i love japanese food.
so addicitive for me. and one day i must go buy sushi. its been a long time i didnt eat any.
and honey, one day we go Clark Quay want? and Esplanade?
i desperately want to go to the Esplanade Library. cause that's the place for me to find treasures, if you're know what i mean.
going out with honey to a movie this morning, till now we just came back.
it's like, the whole day we gone out together without any disturbance or distraction, cause my phone dead actually. running low on battery, hahs.
in the morning honey called me up like around 9am? she ask if today want to go out together.
cause yesterday night we kinda, planned of going out. so talk here and there on the phone with my blurr blurr voice, then come online as honey ask to, and she saw my "just woke up" face. lol.
i looked at myself, like omg, i looked so like sotong king.
with my blurr face and small eyes and messy hair. hahs. like apek just woke up from sleep.
erm in the end, we managed to plan and go out. and i only brought 30 bucks to go on a date. >.<"
around 9.30am we go bath and wash up. as we trying to catch a movie which start their first show on 11.30am, at orchard cineleisure. so, i was like totally kanchiong just now.
dressed up and ready to go. honey wore white, i wore black.
as time passed, 11.30 has passed and honey reached first, i reached 5-10mins later. crap, i late again. sooo sorry honey.. >.<
alighted at somerset and i totally lost at there.
met honey at traffic crossing light, waited for the traffic light to turn red its like 5 mins for it. =.=
then straight go cross road and first thing we did..hugged each other! or embraced. hahas.
awww...what a tight embraced we shared at the side of the road.
walked to the cineleisure and checked out the time of the movie. since we late for the first movie, we somehow gotten to know that the same movie started later at 12.50pm, and was screening in digital. lols. is that great or what..? oh wow, we so lucky just now.
once we bought the ticket, while waiting for the movie to start screening, we gone to take our lunch at long john silver with only my 10 bucks. =.="
spent 20 bucks on 1 pair of ticket and left only 10 with me now.
which is exactly enough for us to have our lunch at LJS. lol.
bought combo 1, 2 of it, with 2 cheese and changed one of the drinks into medium ice lemon tea.
and yeah, my balance now left only 5 cents. hahas. im so pathetic >.<"
after ate our lunch at LJS, we took picture awhile, walk around the cineleisure and then off to our movie. oh the movie that we watching is High School Musical 3 in digital. woots~
around 3.30pm the movie ends, it's time for us to wandering, strolling, jalan-jalan around the town.
gone to shopping centre, honey go shopping, i just surveyed and chose for her.
and she addicted to hello kitty..
so many stuffs she bought all bout hello kitty leh. but still, it looks cute. hahas. just like her >.<"
around 5.45pm we gone off and head to woodlands to meet one of my friend and have dinner together at there. we reached at 6.15pm, but mahdi not there yet.
in the end, he came at 6.30pm. haiz. why you always so slow..? haiyoh.
had our dinner at Banquet. mahdi ate chicken rice, me and honey ate sliced fish soup.
i was like, "aww, long time i didnt ate this. taste so delicious" in my mind.
at around 7.25pm, we head off to marsilling to slack at void deck or something.
cause mahdi want to play guitar with one of our friend under void deck.
so me and honey tagged along then.
time passed~
while playing guitar with amirul and mahdi, honey take a break for the moment.
i knew she tired and exhausted. so i told her to have a nap awhile or something.
she somehow dazing off here and there. hahs, in the end, luckily there's a table that we slacked around, so honey can sleep awhile by putting her head on the table.
play play play, till gotten bored.
half and hour later, honey woke up, i was like sudden shocked.
cause i busy playing the guitar, then i stopped. i look beside me then suddenly honey like staring at me with her big eyes. i was like, "omg. lol. woke up already?" lols. scared me leh..
at around 9-9.30pm, taught honey to play guitar, play some songs to let her hear, took photos together and spent our time together while both of my friend busy playing their guitar.
9.50pm me and honey going off to opposite of admiralty mrt to buy food for mum and herself.
otah-otah, goreng pisang, hotdogs.
so yeah, afterwards it's time for us to go.
overall, it's a great day. or should i say a great Date for us?
thanks alot honey. and yeah, i still willingly to go out and spent my last 30 bucks for honey.
hahas. cause it's worth for spending it?
now, just finished working out. damn, arm quite pain but managed to endure it.
blogging and eating seaweed rice crackers at the same time. i love japanese food.
so addicitive for me. and one day i must go buy sushi. its been a long time i didnt eat any.
and honey, one day we go Clark Quay want? and Esplanade?
i desperately want to go to the Esplanade Library. cause that's the place for me to find treasures, if you're know what i mean.
Labels: dating
11:31 PM
....
why im sooo missing you freaking badly right now?
why must i have this jealousy feelings towards someone who close to you?
why i cant be able to separated from you?
why i cant control myself while you could?
why is it hard for me to accept when someone being so close with you?
why im worrying for you so much, hoping for you to be safe and secure.
why i prayed so hard for you? to keep you away from dangers around you?
why i always want to see you everyday? unlimited times or never-ending?
am i being a psycho? being so despo? being so stupid or silly? or just a childish game of love?
why? why and why and why?
what illusion has got into me?
what hypnotism has made me into this?
why am i being like this?
why..
why must i have this jealousy feelings towards someone who close to you?
why i cant be able to separated from you?
why i cant control myself while you could?
why is it hard for me to accept when someone being so close with you?
why im worrying for you so much, hoping for you to be safe and secure.
why i prayed so hard for you? to keep you away from dangers around you?
why i always want to see you everyday? unlimited times or never-ending?
am i being a psycho? being so despo? being so stupid or silly? or just a childish game of love?
why? why and why and why?
what illusion has got into me?
what hypnotism has made me into this?
why am i being like this?
why..
Labels: why..
3:33 AM
feeling...guilty..?
when i thought about it, i realized something..
ever since i knew her, gotten into her life, am i good for her? or being like a pest in her life?
i was quite worried and guilty at the same time.
i just cant believed i having this negative thoughts right now, but just, sudden pop-up during the..errr..emo-ing time.
whenever i gotten close to her or something, people around her just getting jealous and somehow things turn out..bad towards her? although both of us having a great time together.
please tell me, ever since you know me, am i good for you? or pestering your life?
please tell me im not pestering, but somehow giving you hope and faith in your life.
i just too worried as people judging so differently.
what are your thoughts right now?
saying all this might somehow changed your heart isn't it?
are we fated to meet?
or just because of my despo behavior of trying to know you well and getting close?
please tell me we are meant to meet each other, we are meant to getting close to one another.
haiz. what else more to say?
how long more can i go on?
what will the future be?
what will it be for both of us?
now this is the right time to say it's..err..dramatic.
ever since i knew her, gotten into her life, am i good for her? or being like a pest in her life?
i was quite worried and guilty at the same time.
i just cant believed i having this negative thoughts right now, but just, sudden pop-up during the..errr..emo-ing time.
whenever i gotten close to her or something, people around her just getting jealous and somehow things turn out..bad towards her? although both of us having a great time together.
please tell me, ever since you know me, am i good for you? or pestering your life?
please tell me im not pestering, but somehow giving you hope and faith in your life.
i just too worried as people judging so differently.
what are your thoughts right now?
saying all this might somehow changed your heart isn't it?
are we fated to meet?
or just because of my despo behavior of trying to know you well and getting close?
please tell me we are meant to meet each other, we are meant to getting close to one another.
haiz. what else more to say?
how long more can i go on?
what will the future be?
what will it be for both of us?
now this is the right time to say it's..err..dramatic.
Labels: negatives thoughts
2:52 AM
Saturday, November 1, 2008
Outing day, photo posts~
Emo-ing.photo taken by sab..thanks. lol
the 3 gilerhness.sab, mira & me
act cute...hehex. i know i look dumb =.="
4 of us.sab, mira, me & mirul
i look idiotic >.<"
another silly pix of me..lols
our formal photo. hahs.i like this one..hehs.
3 of us.wah, nice shot.
look so formal. ^^
9:19 PM
outing with them~
Lalalala. great day we having just now?
Now blogging in mac at CWP.
now the giler is beside me now, and ketam or "Crab" is opposite of me.
one of us already left as she stayed at Bukit Batok.
Firstly we gone out to city hall to meet mira as she came back from NUH.
Afterwards, we gone to KFC to have our lunch, but sadly mirul took his lunch already. damn him. xD
so me, mira and sab have our KFC lunch. i spent like, $7+ for it..?but both of them only spent like $3+
lol wth, so cheap cheap.
like later 30mins after we done with our lunch, we off to National Library.
quite a long walk but ok lah, talk and walk at the same time. so, talk talk talk until we reached at our destination. wahaha. national library so big, 2 of them havent step inside of the building before except me and mira. so meaning sab and mirul still...errr...virgin of going to the national library. wahaha.
for today, its my..errr 2nd time going there.
asked the info counter what's the level for music section, she stared blankly at me, then she said level 11. i was like, "omg, so high" hahas.
the library consists of like, 16 story high? lols.
gone up there, look around. all of us were like, "awww. so high, so big sia. tsk3...hahaha"
dotts~
after gone to level 11, sab busy kacau me she wanna look for malay novel. >.<"
yalah2...go and find lah your novel if not u cry...give u face, so ok lorh, gone down to level 9 first, then me and mirul gone to level 8.
gone here and there, look around nothing much. place is crowded, cant even use our lappy. haiz =.="
in the end, sab and mira gone to basement 1...so ok lorh, go find them at there. so "man fan" lah they all. wahahaha =X
the basement is the place where we could borrow the books, all the higher levels are only for reference. haiz. stupid library, made us go up and down in the end basement is the place to borrow.
few hours later, gone out from library...then, thinking where else we wanna go.
cause my fren sab dunno, no idea where to go out. lols, asked people to go out in the end dunno where to go. hehex. die liao, she just right beside me right now. later i kena kill by her >.<"
mummy~ help me...lols.
sab sab, u wanna kill me using what items? fork or knife? or...errr...samurai sword?
eh wait..nono, go use ur malay novel and kill me. hahas. bleh~
so she planned already then we gone out to clark quay and be emo at there.
lols. walk go there sia. aiyoh. bring lappy so heavy then need to walk straight go there.
i just kept quiet dont wanna complaint so much. sab, i kill u leh. u asked to go here and there then walk long long. >.<" haiz. nvm ba. hahas.
when reach there we go sit at the..errr...stone stairs? lol. dunno how to explain..
then we snap! snap! snap~! many photos taken. after this i upload it on my next post.
after we took photos of us, we go emo there. look at the seawater, look at the view of singapore and the so called sunset..lols.
few hours we made our move to home.
haiz. so many things in my mind during the emo-ing time.
overall, thanks for the outing sab. really enjoyed it. its been long time we didnt gone out.
i appriciated lots. one day go blanja u arh. hehex. a promised to u hor. better take it or leave it.
but, blanja small amount lah. if rich, then i blanja u..errr...seould garden. hehex >.<"
till here leh i blog, gotten free french fries from elleen...wahaha. thanks a lot yah.
Now blogging in mac at CWP.
now the giler is beside me now, and ketam or "Crab" is opposite of me.
one of us already left as she stayed at Bukit Batok.
Firstly we gone out to city hall to meet mira as she came back from NUH.
Afterwards, we gone to KFC to have our lunch, but sadly mirul took his lunch already. damn him. xD
so me, mira and sab have our KFC lunch. i spent like, $7+ for it..?but both of them only spent like $3+
lol wth, so cheap cheap.
like later 30mins after we done with our lunch, we off to National Library.
quite a long walk but ok lah, talk and walk at the same time. so, talk talk talk until we reached at our destination. wahaha. national library so big, 2 of them havent step inside of the building before except me and mira. so meaning sab and mirul still...errr...virgin of going to the national library. wahaha.
for today, its my..errr 2nd time going there.
asked the info counter what's the level for music section, she stared blankly at me, then she said level 11. i was like, "omg, so high" hahas.
the library consists of like, 16 story high? lols.
gone up there, look around. all of us were like, "awww. so high, so big sia. tsk3...hahaha"
dotts~
after gone to level 11, sab busy kacau me she wanna look for malay novel. >.<"
yalah2...go and find lah your novel if not u cry...give u face, so ok lorh, gone down to level 9 first, then me and mirul gone to level 8.
gone here and there, look around nothing much. place is crowded, cant even use our lappy. haiz =.="
in the end, sab and mira gone to basement 1...so ok lorh, go find them at there. so "man fan" lah they all. wahahaha =X
the basement is the place where we could borrow the books, all the higher levels are only for reference. haiz. stupid library, made us go up and down in the end basement is the place to borrow.
few hours later, gone out from library...then, thinking where else we wanna go.
cause my fren sab dunno, no idea where to go out. lols, asked people to go out in the end dunno where to go. hehex. die liao, she just right beside me right now. later i kena kill by her >.<"
mummy~ help me...lols.
sab sab, u wanna kill me using what items? fork or knife? or...errr...samurai sword?
eh wait..nono, go use ur malay novel and kill me. hahas. bleh~
so she planned already then we gone out to clark quay and be emo at there.
lols. walk go there sia. aiyoh. bring lappy so heavy then need to walk straight go there.
i just kept quiet dont wanna complaint so much. sab, i kill u leh. u asked to go here and there then walk long long. >.<" haiz. nvm ba. hahas.
when reach there we go sit at the..errr...stone stairs? lol. dunno how to explain..
then we snap! snap! snap~! many photos taken. after this i upload it on my next post.
after we took photos of us, we go emo there. look at the seawater, look at the view of singapore and the so called sunset..lols.
few hours we made our move to home.
haiz. so many things in my mind during the emo-ing time.
overall, thanks for the outing sab. really enjoyed it. its been long time we didnt gone out.
i appriciated lots. one day go blanja u arh. hehex. a promised to u hor. better take it or leave it.
but, blanja small amount lah. if rich, then i blanja u..errr...seould garden. hehex >.<"
till here leh i blog, gotten free french fries from elleen...wahaha. thanks a lot yah.
9:00 PM
