Friday, August 29, 2008
Damn It!
urgh...what the hell?
this week kinda totally not my week man..
jeez, fucking up here and there..if i could only change the bad into good..
i would have done it long long time ago..
god! when the hell i could start back my piano lesson???!!
im soo freaking pissed off with my schoolworks and projects..
because of school schedules, i cant able to have piano lesson right now..
teacher, im soo sorry to give you're a hard time..
i wish you could teach me again, and hopefully
by next year i could finish off my grade 6 practical and move on to grade 8..
and yeah..designing stuffs, i got 4 letters for it: F.U.C.K!
even Wan said its true..we totally hate designing man..!
how long must i wait till the module ends? damn!
this week kinda totally not my week man..
jeez, fucking up here and there..if i could only change the bad into good..
i would have done it long long time ago..
god! when the hell i could start back my piano lesson???!!
im soo freaking pissed off with my schoolworks and projects..
because of school schedules, i cant able to have piano lesson right now..
teacher, im soo sorry to give you're a hard time..
i wish you could teach me again, and hopefully
by next year i could finish off my grade 6 practical and move on to grade 8..
and yeah..designing stuffs, i got 4 letters for it: F.U.C.K!
even Wan said its true..we totally hate designing man..!
how long must i wait till the module ends? damn!
1:14 AM
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Piano videos
Take A Bow by Rihanna
Dedicated for Sab, Fadz & Mira..
played just for 3 of you gals..haha =)
Until The Last Moment by Yanni
played only half of the songs
cause learn half-way..
and the song is damn tough..no kidding =D
5:25 PM
L.I.F.E
my goodness..coming to the end of August..
things started to change very quickly right now..
anyway, speaking bout changing..i changing myself again and again..
but thank god, i change for the good..seriously, i hate when becoming bad..
cause the atmosphere around me its soo horrifying..haha..
and yeah, people used to know me as a Pro Gamer right..
well, that story will be shred away..im quitting myself as a gamer now, since it doesnt make any good..
yes although last year i won 1st Place in the EA Play, gotten a gold medal, and i seriously happy bout it..
now, things in ITE are started to get hard..so, im finished with Games & Game Events...Adios Pro Gamers!
but school are seriously killing me...my career is all about music..but its kinda getting out of hand..
i wish there's a music academy school or something..
cause my goal is to achieve Grade 8 next year,
take Diploma in Music,
perform on Grand Piano at a Grand Stage
and last but not least, become a music composer or teacher..
about friendship..well, me and my bros were becoming far apart each day...
each of us are seriously busy and always be with their new friends..
now, im only close with Fadz, Sab & Mira..
i not sure if i could live without them..
all the outings, helping, hanging out from them are totally great and really appriciated
and hope we will not lost contact with each other one day..
bout my Crew....
Zul is off to his NS, so left me and my homie, Fudin..
well, our crew changed to Boom Squad, not sure if its permanent..
but guess we getting better each day, i guess..
im creating a song/beat for ourselves..
gotten to create new lyrics each day..
and hopefully we could run our first album..
well on the next post, i gonna upload 2 piano videos..
one of it is Until The Last Moment, form Yanni. damn hard song..
its half way done...
another one is Take A Bow, by Rihanna..
since i got no other songs to play
and it was fadz, sab & mira favourite songs, so i played and tribute it just for them =)
things started to change very quickly right now..
anyway, speaking bout changing..i changing myself again and again..
but thank god, i change for the good..seriously, i hate when becoming bad..
cause the atmosphere around me its soo horrifying..haha..
and yeah, people used to know me as a Pro Gamer right..
well, that story will be shred away..im quitting myself as a gamer now, since it doesnt make any good..
yes although last year i won 1st Place in the EA Play, gotten a gold medal, and i seriously happy bout it..
now, things in ITE are started to get hard..so, im finished with Games & Game Events...Adios Pro Gamers!
but school are seriously killing me...my career is all about music..but its kinda getting out of hand..
i wish there's a music academy school or something..
cause my goal is to achieve Grade 8 next year,
take Diploma in Music,
perform on Grand Piano at a Grand Stage
and last but not least, become a music composer or teacher..
about friendship..well, me and my bros were becoming far apart each day...
each of us are seriously busy and always be with their new friends..
now, im only close with Fadz, Sab & Mira..
i not sure if i could live without them..
all the outings, helping, hanging out from them are totally great and really appriciated
and hope we will not lost contact with each other one day..
bout my Crew....
Zul is off to his NS, so left me and my homie, Fudin..
well, our crew changed to Boom Squad, not sure if its permanent..
but guess we getting better each day, i guess..
im creating a song/beat for ourselves..
gotten to create new lyrics each day..
and hopefully we could run our first album..
well on the next post, i gonna upload 2 piano videos..
one of it is Until The Last Moment, form Yanni. damn hard song..
its half way done...
another one is Take A Bow, by Rihanna..
since i got no other songs to play
and it was fadz, sab & mira favourite songs, so i played and tribute it just for them =)
5:05 PM
Yaw..i guess this is it..all have been said..all have been shred..
but i cant believe it was like this..
ey homie..! what else i can do? should i just sit and wait? till the end of the day?
when will the time? for the right moment to shine?
maybe it came by like this..yeah.!..let's go..
the cofession already wrote,
the answer have been told,
didnt expect it would be gone
but i guess it is too bold..
she...told me so politely
she..answered nice and easy
my heart..started pounding
like a drum..bein hitting..
all i got is to accept it..
all i got is to believe it..
cause this is how the story have end it
and there's ain't way to get off about it
what else could i do?
what else should i do?
this is what life is about
this is what its all about
but life..gotta move
which is what..i can do
till the end..there's a truth
but if only..i already knew
as time pass by..
there's a moment coming high..
with a faith, with a luck,
better not..giving up;
who knows..there's a change
which could happen one day,
till the end...of this phrase,
be prepare, for these days..
but i cant believe it was like this..
ey homie..! what else i can do? should i just sit and wait? till the end of the day?
when will the time? for the right moment to shine?
maybe it came by like this..yeah.!..let's go..
the cofession already wrote,
the answer have been told,
didnt expect it would be gone
but i guess it is too bold..
she...told me so politely
she..answered nice and easy
my heart..started pounding
like a drum..bein hitting..
all i got is to accept it..
all i got is to believe it..
cause this is how the story have end it
and there's ain't way to get off about it
what else could i do?
what else should i do?
this is what life is about
this is what its all about
but life..gotta move
which is what..i can do
till the end..there's a truth
but if only..i already knew
as time pass by..
there's a moment coming high..
with a faith, with a luck,
better not..giving up;
who knows..there's a change
which could happen one day,
till the end...of this phrase,
be prepare, for these days..
12:36 AM
Friday, August 22, 2008
Boring Boring Boring!!!
Alright, back from my underworld of madness..
nah actually im drowning with full of assignments and schoolwork..
damn im gonna be insane if i cant resist the pain of my game..
lols..kalau tk paham..paham kan! wakakaka
anyway, thanks sab for going to school together and going home together..
seriously deep shit boring man if my kawan kesayangan is not around...hahaha
too bad fadz dah gi belayar uhh...gi Vietnam...cool kepe..
but everynight i will pray for her to have a safe journey..and insya'allah tuhan akan melindungi mu selalu..
chey chey..aku berbual step mane nye pandai..lols, nyaha
si mira plak, IE dier problem..haiyoh..dah bantu, tapi tk leh jugak, she need to call up the singtel customer service..
KE...sian...haha
alrite alrite...nothing to do alreadi...hopefully besok leh kluar uhh...
and dun mind below of this, cause juz a stupid verse i made up instantly...haha..
but seriously, the phrases are kinda...SUCKS! for me uhh..
but if for someone else..dunno what will they think of it..whether is it good..or totally a freaking trash.. >.<" well, till here then...off to my life!
nah actually im drowning with full of assignments and schoolwork..
damn im gonna be insane if i cant resist the pain of my game..
lols..kalau tk paham..paham kan! wakakaka
anyway, thanks sab for going to school together and going home together..
seriously deep shit boring man if my kawan kesayangan is not around...hahaha
too bad fadz dah gi belayar uhh...gi Vietnam...cool kepe..
but everynight i will pray for her to have a safe journey..and insya'allah tuhan akan melindungi mu selalu..
chey chey..aku berbual step mane nye pandai..lols, nyaha
si mira plak, IE dier problem..haiyoh..dah bantu, tapi tk leh jugak, she need to call up the singtel customer service..
KE...sian...haha
alrite alrite...nothing to do alreadi...hopefully besok leh kluar uhh...
and dun mind below of this, cause juz a stupid verse i made up instantly...haha..
but seriously, the phrases are kinda...SUCKS! for me uhh..
but if for someone else..dunno what will they think of it..whether is it good..or totally a freaking trash.. >.<" well, till here then...off to my life!
In the world people changed
in a way that they want one day
a good or a bad, it is all up to us
choose..what we gotta choose..for the future that lies beneath of us
Do what you want..Do what you need
be the one...which you can be
stop pretending...stop disguising
cause there's aint a way
we could be better in this reel
take a chance...take a faith
get out from the pain..get off and into the game
face your fears..face your enemies
stop bein' a chicken and give up so easily
in this time...we should move
in this life...we should proove
fight'em up...fuck'em up
for the sake of our loves one..
for the sake of our lifetime..
as i go on...with my might
and i fight on...for my right
get off from your seat...and take onto the lead
proove to the world..that you're a not, dumb shit
whom taken all the damages...which you cowardly received
be like a superiors..!
show your tenacious..!
fight and be victorious..!
in the end, celebrate with glorious..!
in a way that they want one day
a good or a bad, it is all up to us
choose..what we gotta choose..for the future that lies beneath of us
Do what you want..Do what you need
be the one...which you can be
stop pretending...stop disguising
cause there's aint a way
we could be better in this reel
take a chance...take a faith
get out from the pain..get off and into the game
face your fears..face your enemies
stop bein' a chicken and give up so easily
in this time...we should move
in this life...we should proove
fight'em up...fuck'em up
for the sake of our loves one..
for the sake of our lifetime..
as i go on...with my might
and i fight on...for my right
get off from your seat...and take onto the lead
proove to the world..that you're a not, dumb shit
whom taken all the damages...which you cowardly received
be like a superiors..!
show your tenacious..!
fight and be victorious..!
in the end, celebrate with glorious..!
7:14 PM
Monday, August 18, 2008
The confession that i made...
You were a schoolmate of mine
whom I barely knew,
you are nice, you are kind
like I wanted to..
I wish you knew
my feelings towards you,
cause I'm waiting for the right time
and to tell you in a nick of time
Just by looking into your eyes
my heartbeat pounds so fast,
I knew that you're the one
and made me fall like from a top story height..
You are pretty like a princess
lovely like a priestess
cheerful and joyful
gorgeous and beautiful..
You've been hurt by several guys
so much and deeply
which your heart have been shattered by
painfully and unbearably..
Take away the past
take away the pain,
I will be there
whenever you cries in vain..
Have some faith
and give me a chance,
to be with you
in your lovely hands..
Cause I can proove it to you
that I'm better than the rest,
which you can rely on
and trusting me hundred percent..
Let me hold your hands
and show you the way,
where the light come shine
like a glorious day..
A promise that I made
that will always be remain,
an everlasting love
that we will able to retain..
I hope in the end
you can accepted me,
cause I love you with my heart
really and truely..
I guess this is the end
the confession that I made,
which could open and lighten up your heart
faithfully one day..
whom I barely knew,
you are nice, you are kind
like I wanted to..
I wish you knew
my feelings towards you,
cause I'm waiting for the right time
and to tell you in a nick of time
Just by looking into your eyes
my heartbeat pounds so fast,
I knew that you're the one
and made me fall like from a top story height..
You are pretty like a princess
lovely like a priestess
cheerful and joyful
gorgeous and beautiful..
You've been hurt by several guys
so much and deeply
which your heart have been shattered by
painfully and unbearably..
Take away the past
take away the pain,
I will be there
whenever you cries in vain..
Have some faith
and give me a chance,
to be with you
in your lovely hands..
Cause I can proove it to you
that I'm better than the rest,
which you can rely on
and trusting me hundred percent..
Let me hold your hands
and show you the way,
where the light come shine
like a glorious day..
A promise that I made
that will always be remain,
an everlasting love
that we will able to retain..
I hope in the end
you can accepted me,
cause I love you with my heart
really and truely..
I guess this is the end
the confession that I made,
which could open and lighten up your heart
faithfully one day..
1:00 AM
Thursday, August 14, 2008
uhh gosh..
uhh gosh...i 've been absent from school a lot and lot of times..
i know it's bad but i managed to catch up the lesson and modules.
For IT Essentials, the schoolworks is ok..it's what i wanna learn and need to know about dismantle the computer. that is what i focusing on.
for my MFD, which is the multimedia fundamentals & digital imaging, it SUCKS.
yeah..the most hated thing in my life is drawing man..gosh..
kalau aku nye tulisan dah macam cakar ayam sekarang, ape lagi kalau aku draw sak??
haiz..my hands is totally not for arts, but for music anyway...hahaha...yeah its true..lol..
erm anyway, today i go back half-day, i didnt go for my MFD lesson, i hate it..and having bad stomach ache..so came home around 2pm exactly, which is MFD started already..i go and bath, eat and then finish up my sketches..thank god i found my graffiti sketch book. and go through each of my drawings that i done during my sec life..
erm, i sketch 4 pictures, but i kinda didnt complete 2 of it..
cause it needed to do something at it.
so it's life half-way done..
the one in pen is i got nothing to do in class, so i just drew it..heh
but too bad i crush it away..nyaha
i know it's bad but i managed to catch up the lesson and modules.
For IT Essentials, the schoolworks is ok..it's what i wanna learn and need to know about dismantle the computer. that is what i focusing on.
for my MFD, which is the multimedia fundamentals & digital imaging, it SUCKS.
yeah..the most hated thing in my life is drawing man..gosh..
kalau aku nye tulisan dah macam cakar ayam sekarang, ape lagi kalau aku draw sak??
haiz..my hands is totally not for arts, but for music anyway...hahaha...yeah its true..lol..
erm anyway, today i go back half-day, i didnt go for my MFD lesson, i hate it..and having bad stomach ache..so came home around 2pm exactly, which is MFD started already..i go and bath, eat and then finish up my sketches..thank god i found my graffiti sketch book. and go through each of my drawings that i done during my sec life..
erm, i sketch 4 pictures, but i kinda didnt complete 2 of it..
cause it needed to do something at it.
so it's life half-way done..
the one in pen is i got nothing to do in class, so i just drew it..heh
but too bad i crush it away..nyaha
This is is the one i done in class..lol "Fristyle"
Here's my first sketch..havent coloured yet.."Freestyle"
2nd one..not completed..as it still need the 3D look.."Short"
erm this one...i kinda juz think and drew.?
errr...no comment...heh
6:54 PM
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Verse that came out suddenly..
Here's a verse or sentence, when it sudden appear in my mind
before i going to sleep last night..
It's like, i was sleeping and writing it
at the same time on my Rap book..lol..
As I looked into you eyes
there's a vision came out in my mind
My heartbeat pounds so fast
and I knew that you're the one
It's not because of your looks
but it's deep inside of you
It's because of your heart
which make me falling apart
Cause you're so pleasent and patience
faithful and graceful
lovely so deeply
till I can't help it but believe it
I don't look fer the looks
I don't craze fer the cute
All I go is a big great heart
who don't tear me apart
I think that's all i wrote it during i slept..ahaha
cause i kinda dream of someone..
so maybe this Verse is referring to someone that i falling with...
hmm..who knows...tuhan sahaje yg tahu..haha
till here my update..
before i going to sleep last night..
It's like, i was sleeping and writing it
at the same time on my Rap book..lol..
As I looked into you eyes
there's a vision came out in my mind
My heartbeat pounds so fast
and I knew that you're the one
It's not because of your looks
but it's deep inside of you
It's because of your heart
which make me falling apart
Cause you're so pleasent and patience
faithful and graceful
lovely so deeply
till I can't help it but believe it
I don't look fer the looks
I don't craze fer the cute
All I go is a big great heart
who don't tear me apart
I think that's all i wrote it during i slept..ahaha
cause i kinda dream of someone..
so maybe this Verse is referring to someone that i falling with...
hmm..who knows...tuhan sahaje yg tahu..haha
till here my update..
6:27 PM
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Label: "The moment of the love ones"
7:32 PM
NDP!! (Fireworks Pictures ^^)
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Fireworks pictures of us!!! .JPG)
our 2nd picture...the gilerhs! Peace!haha ^^
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This the last pic of the fireworks..i love it..^^
but all the pix i look so like a small kid >.<"
1:29 AM
NDP!!! (Videos) =)
Us At Marina!!
THE FIREWORKS!! WOoo!!!
12:41 AM
NDP!!!
yeah...9th of August..
National Day man!
although i kinda dont really celebrating it,
i tagged along wif them; Sabrina, Fadzillah & Mira.
how i really love the day today..
watched the fireworks and entertainment at Marina, beside the Singapore River..
aww man! the Airshow, the speedboat, the balloon thingy which i called "Burung Buntal" haha...
all is great! gosh, long tyme i didnt watch this kind of happening before..
at night at 8pm is the Fireworks! woo!
damn the fireworks soo long seh! and of course i record it!!
wahahaha..then after that got another fireworks, so ape lagi,
ask fahmi to take picture of us using Mira's Digi camera..too bad i doesnt have the pictures..
later i go ask mira lah..haha. must keep the photos tauz!!!
so..
i guess this will be the 2nd time i watched
a live FireWorks..
well, gone home at 10pm..
and i really enjoyed the fun
=)
during the outing, things running around my mind..haiz..
its about the last few days happening..
i dunno lah..the Pekare really bothering me whole day & night..
i dun understand la! why must mira always terbabit kat pekare nie?
she not at fault ok...anyway i didnt even ask her for relationship yet..
why must u acted out like this? why must u jealous so much?
no one is at fault right now
all u want is to lost contact, so, yah, i respect ur decision and just move on..
u didnt know how much i hurt...how much i miss..how much i merane, i cried during the whole month of June..
now tibe2 u want me back..
seriously speaking, i dun have the same feelings that i have before the lost contact..
during the holidays, u told fadz u only can love me as a fren..how much i really dissappointed..
now, i can only love u as a fren..
ytd in the msn, u think i angry, i marah or quarrel, or gadoh with you..
but note this, i dun ever get angry or nk gadoh2 alrite..for what i wanna be angry and gadoh sane sini? buang mase, buang electric mie jek nk gadoh2 nie semue..
now u said u wanna delete ur blog, ur frenster..msn..
what? lost contacting again? u said i hurt u so much?
u dun even know how much i've been hurt, i keeping it all by myself u know..
fadz, sab, mahdi, my mum all so worried because i always being down of myself..
u dunno rite? cause u lost contact with me..
oh gerl, u still havent kene my bad side and u said i hurt u?
if u did kene already, u really gonna hate me so much till its hard to forgive me..
but for what? making people hurt one another? its not part of my life..
now..i dun even know what to do..or even say..
if u want my answer, just wait till ur N lvl is done.
what u need to do now is to seriously focus on ur N's..that is what i want u to do..
if u fail it, u really gonna feel bad, and u got to repeat ur sec 4 again..
and pls..dun ever mention or talk about me and mira being together..
kenape mesti pikir mcm gitu?
if i did be together with her,
i would have tell u and mahdi alreadi k..
now there's nothing going out with me and her..
she was like, dun even know that i falling for her lah..
in fact, she dont even know that i really care and love her..
btw, i dun want mira to involve in this matter k?..
i only WISH i could be with her ok..
not all wish could come true..thats the fact
as things always happen like this,
i seriously felt lyke im hating myself..its like everything is my fault uhh in this world..
i dunno la! if i be gone, what will the world be? what will people feel without me..
maybe its better for me to be gone? or maybe it really bad?
who knows..tuhan sahaje yg tahu..
all i want right now is to enjoy, is to have some love as right now i lacking of care and love around me..i want peace and quiet..i dun want any fight..or quarrel..cause it really hurt me deep shit..
pls..just stop this for the moment..
i had enough of this matter for a day..
if it keeps on going, i nt sure what will happen to me..
haiz..
i seriously need help right now..
12:16 AM
NDP!!!! (Pictures)
Yeah..testing out Fahmi's shade..he told i look better with it, so i took a pic..haha
Us at Marina!!watching NDP!
tapi kat tepi Singapore River uhh..
haha
2nd shot of us..wah..we look like 1 big happy family ^^
woo..this pic is great!the background looks better guys!!
i love you guys =)
After celebrating..all of us looked tired..
oh and at the right all the way is Fahmi..
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Here's a picture of my "Siblings"LoL!
Sab, Mira & Fadz..
my love ones ^_^
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Sab & Mira
Muahaha!!candid picture of Mira & Sab..
hehe..maaf ehk!
12:03 AM
Thursday, August 7, 2008
erm...can i say FUCK?
cause about today's competition?
okok...need for speed, stupid handbrake thing didnt work..
race of 5 laps of circuit, during my 3rd lap, i just forfeited..cause i knew i cant go through
cause of the stupid key config giving me problem, and i surely lost..damn it..
guitar hero 3..well...i didnt got for it..
like around 1pm+ i straight away went out from the Suntec Convention Hall and proceed back home. the GH3 started like around 2+ or 3pm..but i didnt go..damn freaking exhausted and no mood...not sure why..
its like today, im not being myself uhh..
anyway, im having lots and lots of projects and assignments..
gosh it SUCKS! although i love the module this term, but its taken lot of hardworks..
hmm..
Design 6 Badges and a 200 words explanation about the colour and design of it..
Design a Cartoon Face..
Do a T-Shirt Design..
Then DO another T-shirt design..
then need to buy DrawingPen & Sketch Book
cause we gonna draw out some pictures..
URGH!!
wth! Digital Imaging like this meh!?
so very the LECEH seh..and troublesome..
but IT Essentials i love it..cause dismantle the CPU and so on..
haiz..still got like few weeks till my 3 weeks of holiday...
and hopefully things will turn out to be better right now..
cause my head is full of THINGS!
and seriously im in a deep painful HeadPain..not Headache uhh..
cause about today's competition?
okok...need for speed, stupid handbrake thing didnt work..
race of 5 laps of circuit, during my 3rd lap, i just forfeited..cause i knew i cant go through
cause of the stupid key config giving me problem, and i surely lost..damn it..
guitar hero 3..well...i didnt got for it..
like around 1pm+ i straight away went out from the Suntec Convention Hall and proceed back home. the GH3 started like around 2+ or 3pm..but i didnt go..damn freaking exhausted and no mood...not sure why..
its like today, im not being myself uhh..
anyway, im having lots and lots of projects and assignments..
gosh it SUCKS! although i love the module this term, but its taken lot of hardworks..
hmm..
Design 6 Badges and a 200 words explanation about the colour and design of it..
Design a Cartoon Face..
Do a T-Shirt Design..
Then DO another T-shirt design..
then need to buy DrawingPen & Sketch Book
cause we gonna draw out some pictures..
URGH!!
wth! Digital Imaging like this meh!?
so very the LECEH seh..and troublesome..
but IT Essentials i love it..cause dismantle the CPU and so on..
haiz..still got like few weeks till my 3 weeks of holiday...
and hopefully things will turn out to be better right now..
cause my head is full of THINGS!
and seriously im in a deep painful HeadPain..not Headache uhh..
8:51 PM
Tuesday, August 5, 2008
**Not coming to school on 7th & 8th of August**
and by the way, i didn't go to school today..
I'm soo sick man..
god..pls recover me as fast as possible..
and akak..i miss you so much..
its totally different without you around
im kinda lost without your help
hopefully we could go out sometimes..
im getting bored and lonely man..
haish...
where are you guys when i needed you all??
9:22 PM
Saturday, August 2, 2008
BeatMaking Hip-Hop!
Yeah...for the whole 3 months i havent done any music or beat.
Well here it is..I done it..wooo!
Well here it is..I done it..wooo!
i think better not to upload my beat anywhere..
cause people could just took it and used it..
and somehow my beat would ended up "Leaked"
so...too bad uhh, if wanna hear it, u guys got to find me personally..ahaha
and btw, im changing my name into "Ezam".
sounds better right? lol..
and yeah, I'm into Hip-Hop back..
cause, rockers is kinda, not my style~
sort of..hah!
and yeah, I'm into Hip-Hop back..
cause, rockers is kinda, not my style~
sort of..hah!
well.. im outz!
10:49 AM
