Thursday, July 31, 2008
In love...
dear blog...
its the end of July..and 31st of July is someone birthday..
so firstly, i wanna wished my bestest-bestest fren a Happy 16th Birthday..
may all your wishes came true...
and all the best for your upcoming N LeveL...haha
erm erm...and 1 more thing..
there's something i have been keeping a secret in myself..
i thought of asking her, but, erm..too paiseh to ask somehow..
how? how? how?
how to ask her this, one particular question...?
and when's the right time anyway..
its like, i cant wait any longer uhh..
but she kept having lots and lots of problem...haish..
i worried that if i asked her now, it will added another problem to herself..
and somehow i worried i might get rejected uhh..
ain't easy to be a guy and ask a gerl to have relationship..
and somemore a relationship that taken seriously..heh..
so...how long should i wait...
does she even noticed that i falling for her?
cause somehow i had a feeling she kinda...suspect it...heh..
hopefully by august i could make my move? or before september uhh...
hmm..a sweet, lovely, simple, yet pwetty gerl that i cant resist...LOL!
Just Kidding uhh!!
I just wished i could love her more than a fren uhh...
its the end of July..and 31st of July is someone birthday..
so firstly, i wanna wished my bestest-bestest fren a Happy 16th Birthday..
may all your wishes came true...
and all the best for your upcoming N LeveL...haha
erm erm...and 1 more thing..
there's something i have been keeping a secret in myself..
i thought of asking her, but, erm..too paiseh to ask somehow..
how? how? how?
how to ask her this, one particular question...?
and when's the right time anyway..
its like, i cant wait any longer uhh..
but she kept having lots and lots of problem...haish..
i worried that if i asked her now, it will added another problem to herself..
and somehow i worried i might get rejected uhh..
ain't easy to be a guy and ask a gerl to have relationship..
and somemore a relationship that taken seriously..heh..
so...how long should i wait...
does she even noticed that i falling for her?
cause somehow i had a feeling she kinda...suspect it...heh..
hopefully by august i could make my move? or before september uhh...
hmm..a sweet, lovely, simple, yet pwetty gerl that i cant resist...LOL!
Just Kidding uhh!!
I just wished i could love her more than a fren uhh...
i'll update again whenever i had time or mood...
*Outz
10:04 PM
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Happy Birthday..Dear Friend!
yup2!! today is the special day of our dearest fren, Mira!!
we gone out to celebrate her birthday kat ECP...cool kan?
once in a while pergi kat sane untuk celebrate...
tk pernah celebrate anyone's bday kat situ..so it was Sab nye plan actually..
but, the plan goes smoothly..haha!
Between 2-3pm, me, fadz & sab jumpe pat tempat biase; b&s..
once kite semue dah jumpe, teros gi collect our cake order..
erm, tk salah the name of the cake is "Chocolate Cravings", kat Prima Deli..
cost me exactly $22.00 tau! high standard nye cake oi!..dun play2!! haha..
dah collect cakenye, mira lom sampai2 woodlands, so kite relax2 jab uhh kat cwp..
duduk2 kat tinggkat 2..about 15-25mins mira message fadz, bilang yang she dah otw nk masok wdls int..so ok lorh, we make a move from there..
dah kat bns lagi, tunggu jab..few mins later mira sampai..
mira & fadz wore the same clothes but different colour uhh..
dorang 2 dah plan nk pakai pakaian samer pun...siang2 dorang dah planned...haha
after mira dah sampai, nampak dier bwk barang banyak lah seh...
mcm baru balik dari shopping...padahal itu semue bday presents..haha!!
so, fadz gave her present to mira first, after that followed by me..
my present...errr, ader larh...ader 2 present...haha
kalau nk tahu what present i gave, gi check mira nye blog, MAYBE she typed out what i gave..
maybe jek..kalau dier tk type, then too bad lorh...XD nyahaha
so, all of us dah kat bns, dah beri present kat mira, ape lagi...chiao uhh to ecp, took 966 all the way!
hmm...the journey took like 55-60mins agaknye...sab kate about an hour...so..entah lah..
dah sampai kat bus stop, entah si fadz uhh suruh turon kat one of this bus stop..
tapi, perjalanan dari bus stop to jauh sek!!!! kalau turun before the bus stop that we alight, dah senang sikit...sikit jek tk banyak...
but there is one incident happenned uhh...kat dalam bus ni, got group of teenagers or couples..they all alighted from the bus uhh, one of their fren, stand up from his seat, teros terhentak kepalenye kat atas seh!!! the aircon nye border uhh...kuat sak dier terhentak..lol!
dah lah sound effect kuat, semue org terdengar, then 4 of us plak terkekek...tk leh take it seh!
haha, if i kena, confirmed PAISEH giler nye...tsk3...kecian lelaki tu..haha!!
jalan..jalan...jalan...dah sampai ecp...nk cari tempat duduk tk susah sangat...pasal once kite dah kat situ, kite jalan2 jab uhh looking for seat, tk sampai 5min dah ader tempat...
the tempat duduk tu mcm betol2 reserved untuk kite uhh..haha, untuk birthday gerl :p
but u know what, the table kat situ pun ader bekas bday celebration uhh! pasal ader cake nye bekas and candle leftovers...LOL! so leh katekan uhh, tempat tu mcm sesuai utk birthday celebration...hahahax!!!
dah kat situ, fadz ngan sab gi beli air minuman kat 7-11..so left me and mira lorh kat table..
so just chit-chat with her kejab...amek angin jugak...its sooo cool and refreshing uhh..
its sooo windy, mcm leh tertido seh...few mins later, dorang 2 dah came back..
tapi, nk gi tukar baju pulak!! haiyoh...left me and mira again kat situ...
tsk...romantic time uhh :p juz kindding juz kidding..we have a talk lagi lorh..
aww, everytime we talked,
always glare her beautiful eyes...and always see her sweet smile ^^ nyahaha..what i mean is..
i adore her eyes & smile lah! haiyoh...tsk3..
by the way, mira siang2 dah tukar footware dier..lol.
so, once they changed already, teros gi makan!!
opened up the cake that i bought, mira nye reaction betol2 terkejot..cause she's unexpected uhh...she paiseh2, wanna cut the cake, took pictures and video..at last, she POTONG the cake with her sweet smile and nervousness..haha..
si sab ni, suruh mira slice cake nye besar2...sab, mcm tamak jek, nk lebih2 ke? wahaha..jkjk..
semase mira ngah potong cake utk kite, me, fadz & sab gurau2 jab...kacau2 sab sampai dier malas nk layan...haha...at last, mira dah buat 4 slices of cake for 4 of us..
ader 2 straberries...i thought wanna take 1, then tkpe lah...mira & fadz makan strawberries nye..
the cake are quite delicious uhh..full of chocolate...Woo!! and somemore mira's nye fav! chocolate perr...gerls fav. food! kan kan? haha..
dah makan cake, kite go for fadz nye nasi goreng...sedap babe!
nasi goreng nye mcm my mum's nye cooking..ish3...veri unresistable! LOL!!!
thanks eh fadz for the fried rice...i want it other tyme can? haha
dah makan, dah minum, 3 of them gi main2 kat tepi laut, so i just relax kat tempat duduk tu uhh..relieved my stress and recalled back some old memories that i had...haiz...nvm..
few mins later they came back, tag me along to walk2 kat seashore and took picture...ok lorh..
before that, they kacau2 me uhh, made my leg dirty, pasir2 sane sini...at last, i made my evil move..LOL! put all my accessories aside...keep everything inside my bag...
and grab mira's & fadz's neck, confirm when i grab rase ticklelish and kinda irritating..haha
mira plak lari kat pasir, at last terjatuh -.-"
ish3...kesian dier...dah trip, beh tergoleng-goleng plak tu...at last terduduk diam kat pasir..haha
me and fadz dah nampak, teros berhenti jab..
kecian mira..sorie tau kalau TER-trip kan mira..tk sengaje ok! haha..very2 much nye apology ni! tk tipu, tk bedek..maafan yg ihklas! ^^
kite dah main2..ape lagi..SNAP! SNAP! SNAP!
all over the beach...kat pasir, kat tempat duduk..sane sini uhh kite snap gambar..
dah amek gambar, gone back tempat duduk...
semue dah relax2 kan..ape lagi, kite SABO mira!!! wahaha...
i grap her both arms, tk kasi dier gerak, then i shouted "Sabo mira!! cepat!!cepat!!"
on the spot sab & fadz take a fingertip of cake cream and wipe kat mira's nye cheek!!!!
awww...she kene sabo alreadi lah seh..haha
once dah buat gitu..we backed off, mira dah tersengih-sengih took all her 10 fingers with the cake cream...fadz & sab dah kelam-kabut lari jauh2 dari tempat situ..i just stay kat situ jek..
cause i didnt wear my glasses, so i cant see uhh where i wanna go..
mira trying to wipe the cream at my face..tk kene2...
at last, mira mcm merajok, dier amek bag kiteorang seh!!! bawak sane sini..haha..
i think about it, alah, kesian uhh mira, dorang 2 dah cabut jauh2 then mira tkkan nk kejar dorang, so i just like give in myself lorh...let mira wipe the cream at my face >.<" dah kene, mira gave back my bag and asked me to tell both of them that mira stop playing already... i wanna talk to them, but ended up they running away..soo...terpakse kejar dorang... haiyoh, made me run..i dun want to, but terpakse...so, sab & fadz dah lari siang2.. i sprint cepat giler maut nye, shortcut, then they split-up... since sab is closer to me, i quickly grap her neck..wahahah!!! she shouting2 seh..lol..fadz came to me & sab, then i told them lah mira dah tk main2 lagi.. so dorang tk caye, i just brought them back to the "TRAP"..wahaha!! once dah alik kat situ, mira dah bersedie...both of them plak just a few metres away.. so i planned uhh, "mira, get ready eh, i grab sab then u quickly wipe at her face." mira bersetuju...so ape lagi, sprint kat sab..sab nk lari tapi dah tk leh...so grab her, i shouted at mira "mira!! cepat! cepat!!! haha!!" teros sab kene... awww, dier mcm mengamok lah seh...ahaha... fadz plak dah lari jauh sikit...at last she came back... she busy with her phone, i sprint at her uhh, she wanna run, but TOO BAD! tk ader tempat nk lari...ahaha, grab her, and mira wipe the cream at her face... fuhh!!! semue dah kene uhh!! Fair & Square! ^^
we gone out to celebrate her birthday kat ECP...cool kan?
once in a while pergi kat sane untuk celebrate...
tk pernah celebrate anyone's bday kat situ..so it was Sab nye plan actually..
but, the plan goes smoothly..haha!
Between 2-3pm, me, fadz & sab jumpe pat tempat biase; b&s..
once kite semue dah jumpe, teros gi collect our cake order..
erm, tk salah the name of the cake is "Chocolate Cravings", kat Prima Deli..
cost me exactly $22.00 tau! high standard nye cake oi!..dun play2!! haha..
dah collect cakenye, mira lom sampai2 woodlands, so kite relax2 jab uhh kat cwp..
duduk2 kat tinggkat 2..about 15-25mins mira message fadz, bilang yang she dah otw nk masok wdls int..so ok lorh, we make a move from there..
dah kat bns lagi, tunggu jab..few mins later mira sampai..
mira & fadz wore the same clothes but different colour uhh..
dorang 2 dah plan nk pakai pakaian samer pun...siang2 dorang dah planned...haha
after mira dah sampai, nampak dier bwk barang banyak lah seh...
mcm baru balik dari shopping...padahal itu semue bday presents..haha!!
so, fadz gave her present to mira first, after that followed by me..
my present...errr, ader larh...ader 2 present...haha
kalau nk tahu what present i gave, gi check mira nye blog, MAYBE she typed out what i gave..
maybe jek..kalau dier tk type, then too bad lorh...XD nyahaha
so, all of us dah kat bns, dah beri present kat mira, ape lagi...chiao uhh to ecp, took 966 all the way!
hmm...the journey took like 55-60mins agaknye...sab kate about an hour...so..entah lah..
dah sampai kat bus stop, entah si fadz uhh suruh turon kat one of this bus stop..
tapi, perjalanan dari bus stop to jauh sek!!!! kalau turun before the bus stop that we alight, dah senang sikit...sikit jek tk banyak...
but there is one incident happenned uhh...kat dalam bus ni, got group of teenagers or couples..they all alighted from the bus uhh, one of their fren, stand up from his seat, teros terhentak kepalenye kat atas seh!!! the aircon nye border uhh...kuat sak dier terhentak..lol!
dah lah sound effect kuat, semue org terdengar, then 4 of us plak terkekek...tk leh take it seh!
haha, if i kena, confirmed PAISEH giler nye...tsk3...kecian lelaki tu..haha!!
jalan..jalan...jalan...dah sampai ecp...nk cari tempat duduk tk susah sangat...pasal once kite dah kat situ, kite jalan2 jab uhh looking for seat, tk sampai 5min dah ader tempat...
the tempat duduk tu mcm betol2 reserved untuk kite uhh..haha, untuk birthday gerl :p
but u know what, the table kat situ pun ader bekas bday celebration uhh! pasal ader cake nye bekas and candle leftovers...LOL! so leh katekan uhh, tempat tu mcm sesuai utk birthday celebration...hahahax!!!
dah kat situ, fadz ngan sab gi beli air minuman kat 7-11..so left me and mira lorh kat table..
so just chit-chat with her kejab...amek angin jugak...its sooo cool and refreshing uhh..
its sooo windy, mcm leh tertido seh...few mins later, dorang 2 dah came back..
tapi, nk gi tukar baju pulak!! haiyoh...left me and mira again kat situ...
tsk...romantic time uhh :p juz kindding juz kidding..we have a talk lagi lorh..
aww, everytime we talked,
always glare her beautiful eyes...and always see her sweet smile ^^ nyahaha..what i mean is..
i adore her eyes & smile lah! haiyoh...tsk3..
by the way, mira siang2 dah tukar footware dier..lol.
so, once they changed already, teros gi makan!!
opened up the cake that i bought, mira nye reaction betol2 terkejot..cause she's unexpected uhh...she paiseh2, wanna cut the cake, took pictures and video..at last, she POTONG the cake with her sweet smile and nervousness..haha..
si sab ni, suruh mira slice cake nye besar2...sab, mcm tamak jek, nk lebih2 ke? wahaha..jkjk..
semase mira ngah potong cake utk kite, me, fadz & sab gurau2 jab...kacau2 sab sampai dier malas nk layan...haha...at last, mira dah buat 4 slices of cake for 4 of us..
ader 2 straberries...i thought wanna take 1, then tkpe lah...mira & fadz makan strawberries nye..
the cake are quite delicious uhh..full of chocolate...Woo!! and somemore mira's nye fav! chocolate perr...gerls fav. food! kan kan? haha..
dah makan cake, kite go for fadz nye nasi goreng...sedap babe!
nasi goreng nye mcm my mum's nye cooking..ish3...veri unresistable! LOL!!!
thanks eh fadz for the fried rice...i want it other tyme can? haha
dah makan, dah minum, 3 of them gi main2 kat tepi laut, so i just relax kat tempat duduk tu uhh..relieved my stress and recalled back some old memories that i had...haiz...nvm..
few mins later they came back, tag me along to walk2 kat seashore and took picture...ok lorh..
before that, they kacau2 me uhh, made my leg dirty, pasir2 sane sini...at last, i made my evil move..LOL! put all my accessories aside...keep everything inside my bag...
and grab mira's & fadz's neck, confirm when i grab rase ticklelish and kinda irritating..haha
mira plak lari kat pasir, at last terjatuh -.-"
ish3...kesian dier...dah trip, beh tergoleng-goleng plak tu...at last terduduk diam kat pasir..haha
me and fadz dah nampak, teros berhenti jab..
kecian mira..sorie tau kalau TER-trip kan mira..tk sengaje ok! haha..very2 much nye apology ni! tk tipu, tk bedek..maafan yg ihklas! ^^
kite dah main2..ape lagi..SNAP! SNAP! SNAP!
all over the beach...kat pasir, kat tempat duduk..sane sini uhh kite snap gambar..
dah amek gambar, gone back tempat duduk...
semue dah relax2 kan..ape lagi, kite SABO mira!!! wahaha...
i grap her both arms, tk kasi dier gerak, then i shouted "Sabo mira!! cepat!!cepat!!"
on the spot sab & fadz take a fingertip of cake cream and wipe kat mira's nye cheek!!!!
awww...she kene sabo alreadi lah seh..haha
once dah buat gitu..we backed off, mira dah tersengih-sengih took all her 10 fingers with the cake cream...fadz & sab dah kelam-kabut lari jauh2 dari tempat situ..i just stay kat situ jek..
cause i didnt wear my glasses, so i cant see uhh where i wanna go..
mira trying to wipe the cream at my face..tk kene2...
at last, mira mcm merajok, dier amek bag kiteorang seh!!! bawak sane sini..haha..
i think about it, alah, kesian uhh mira, dorang 2 dah cabut jauh2 then mira tkkan nk kejar dorang, so i just like give in myself lorh...let mira wipe the cream at my face >.<" dah kene, mira gave back my bag and asked me to tell both of them that mira stop playing already... i wanna talk to them, but ended up they running away..soo...terpakse kejar dorang... haiyoh, made me run..i dun want to, but terpakse...so, sab & fadz dah lari siang2.. i sprint cepat giler maut nye, shortcut, then they split-up... since sab is closer to me, i quickly grap her neck..wahahah!!! she shouting2 seh..lol..fadz came to me & sab, then i told them lah mira dah tk main2 lagi.. so dorang tk caye, i just brought them back to the "TRAP"..wahaha!! once dah alik kat situ, mira dah bersedie...both of them plak just a few metres away.. so i planned uhh, "mira, get ready eh, i grab sab then u quickly wipe at her face." mira bersetuju...so ape lagi, sprint kat sab..sab nk lari tapi dah tk leh...so grab her, i shouted at mira "mira!! cepat! cepat!!! haha!!" teros sab kene... awww, dier mcm mengamok lah seh...ahaha... fadz plak dah lari jauh sikit...at last she came back... she busy with her phone, i sprint at her uhh, she wanna run, but TOO BAD! tk ader tempat nk lari...ahaha, grab her, and mira wipe the cream at her face... fuhh!!! semue dah kene uhh!! Fair & Square! ^^
so, dah enjoy semue, mase dah lalu, we need to make a move...
so around 7.15pm or so, kite dah chiao...
took bus 966 alek woodlands...
dah sampai woodlands, waited with mira for her bus.. gurau2 jab...ketawe sane sini...t
hen bus dah reached, its time to say bye bye! haha alah..mira, sab & fadz hugged each other,
so sweet & touching!!!..
everytime uhh when meet-up or wanna say goodbye, they surely hug lorh..
aiyah, i jealous uhh ape lagi -.-"
but what to do, im a guy..sooo...too bad uhh..no hugging...lol..!
so thats all for today...it was damn great..and really enjoyable & memorable..& fun!! haha
To Mira: I wanna wish u again, Happy 17th Birthday dear mira!
All the best for your future & hope that your wish will come true!!
haha..and..and..and Hopefully you like the present that i gave ^^
Update: By the way, i just calculated all the price that i spent on.
And its like over $30 spent for mira's birthday. sweet kepe? haha..
but i woudn't mind bout the price,
cause everything i bought and gave is
sincerely from my heart..so, do appriciated it yah! ^^
10:36 PM
Happy Birthday..Dear Friend! (Pictures)
aww..birthday gerl looks
sweet & pretty in this pix :D
so i just daydreaming a while >.<"
Sab!! look cute..mcm budak-budak lerr!
nyahaha, jgn marah uhh :p
4 of us again, this one kinda error pix..heh
wah, mira mcm posing jek :p
candid pix taken by sab..a.k.a Sabon!!we kinda kicking the sand at each other feet..haha
Focus Sand shot..this one look great ^^not that great..too much focus on the sand..lol
mira! posing lawar! mcm nampak sexy! :p jkjk
we looked like 1 big family...LOL!
but seriously..haha
2nd close-up picture ofa one big happy family..
this shot look better ^^
10:18 PM
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Uhh..I just felt lyke wanna end my life now somehow
and by the way, i cant have a good night sleep
something kept bothering me at night
god, please protect me from any spiritual
or
bad things happening around me at night
10:42 PM
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Questions & Questions...
Uhhh...nothing great happen today..
just that i didnt go to school
i accompany my mum to Polyclinic for her checkup and take her High Blood medicine.
everytime when i got nothing to do, maybe i just daydreaming or something.
cause all my project is done and supposely should give it to my teacher today
oh well, since i didnt go to school, i will give it to her tomorrow lorh...
Saturday is getting nearer and not sure what Sab & Fadz is up to, maybe we gonna plan on Friday i think....mira must not know anything about this...Ssshhh!! haha..
and, im kinda into gaming again...urgh..especially the NFS ProStreet..
hopefully the next Race Day i could achieve Top 5 uhh..since i gotten Top 10 in World Ranking before..
uhh...sometimes i kept wandering, if we gotten a relationship..
being with the one we love, why must we hurt them badly? and having a breakup?
i kinda keep questioning myself about this..
if we gotten a great guy or a great gerl, isn't that we should appriciate them?
and not hurting or playing with their feelings & heart?
some guys are totally damn stupid uhh if i could say cause when they found the right gerl, a sweet, pwetty, full of care and loveable one, why must they play with their feelings? break their hurt into million pieces...sounded DAMN stupid right?
if i put myself into their shoes, i would apprciate to have that kind of gerl sia...
if possible, be with her till we adults..
right now, dunno lah..for me, i not sure if i already fouded the right gerl..
well she's good...care & concern type...and like to laugh a lot...wahaha!!
yeah, she easily to joke around..
and somemore she's in the same school as mine..!!! Woo! ^^ hahax..
but i just worried that any girls that i found and i make my move, surely bad things came up and we were like making ourself apart..
when will my luck will come..??
when will it be the right time for me....??
just that i didnt go to school
i accompany my mum to Polyclinic for her checkup and take her High Blood medicine.
everytime when i got nothing to do, maybe i just daydreaming or something.
cause all my project is done and supposely should give it to my teacher today
oh well, since i didnt go to school, i will give it to her tomorrow lorh...
Saturday is getting nearer and not sure what Sab & Fadz is up to, maybe we gonna plan on Friday i think....mira must not know anything about this...Ssshhh!! haha..
and, im kinda into gaming again...urgh..especially the NFS ProStreet..
hopefully the next Race Day i could achieve Top 5 uhh..since i gotten Top 10 in World Ranking before..
uhh...sometimes i kept wandering, if we gotten a relationship..
being with the one we love, why must we hurt them badly? and having a breakup?
i kinda keep questioning myself about this..
if we gotten a great guy or a great gerl, isn't that we should appriciate them?
and not hurting or playing with their feelings & heart?
some guys are totally damn stupid uhh if i could say cause when they found the right gerl, a sweet, pwetty, full of care and loveable one, why must they play with their feelings? break their hurt into million pieces...sounded DAMN stupid right?
if i put myself into their shoes, i would apprciate to have that kind of gerl sia...
if possible, be with her till we adults..
right now, dunno lah..for me, i not sure if i already fouded the right gerl..
well she's good...care & concern type...and like to laugh a lot...wahaha!!
yeah, she easily to joke around..
and somemore she's in the same school as mine..!!! Woo! ^^ hahax..
but i just worried that any girls that i found and i make my move, surely bad things came up and we were like making ourself apart..
when will my luck will come..??
when will it be the right time for me....??
9:24 PM
Monday, July 21, 2008
The only thing i could updated about just now is..
I enjoyed going home together with them from school
With Mira & Sab
Took 168 all the way to Woodlands
While on our journey
we laughing non-stop, teasing each other
and tickle each other seriously many2 times
till we laughing like we're out of breath..
i enjoyed having them around..
and seriously enjoyed having her around..
she kept me laughing all the way..
and always made my mood goes up & up..
Right now, she told me she fall sick
during school time she sms me
and what a coinsidence..i'm having the same sickness as her
except that i don't have any fever yet
both of us having flu, soarthroat, cough..
hopefully she will get better before Saturday ^^
and I'm praying for her to get well and will not get any high fever..
To Mira:
Please eat your medicine yah!
Don't be sooo very the stubborn...take your regular meal too if possible..
and yeah...GET WELL SOON aites gerl? =)
Syg mira much much!!..!! ^^
10:13 PM
Disturbed in my mind..
Oh god..Its already 21st of July..time do flies really quick right now.
there's so much things to do and less time to enjoy and be with my friends...my love ones..
but sometimes, past times and history kept playing in my mind..
how i wish things were never gone bad...or never ever happenned in my life..
good or bad we must overcome it, so our life will be balanced out..
right now, im drowning on my own past & present times..
I gotten a lot of friends..but not all are as good as what you thought..
some are big fat liers, some are backstabbers, some are even not meant to be your friends..
but a few who i loved them, who i appriciated them, who i deserved to have them..
my "brothers"...
amirul
mahdi
mubarak
those 3 always helped me out, hang out and have fun..
but now, our time is so strained, so tight that its hard for us to go out together..
my love ones..
fadzillah
sabrina
amira
suhana..
and kak idayu..
those were my closest frens, lovable & caring ones..
Idayu, or i called her kak idayu, she was known as my "GodSister"..
i never had any older siblings, but when i first know her, she's kind and always helped me out..on the same day i treated her as my Sis..so thats how we ended up like siblings..
hopefully in August i could go out with my sis sometimes..
right now my status is single..and i not sure how to move on
either with or without someone..
my feelings towards someone is already dissappeared, and im moving on now, but i not sure if i wanna make a move with the girl im falling in love with, whom i kinda make an eye-contact and teasing with..cause im afraid that my luck will always be the same, will always be repeated once again, again and again..
what is in my mind right now?
what's my decision?
and why things are disturbing in my mind..?
there's so much things to do and less time to enjoy and be with my friends...my love ones..
but sometimes, past times and history kept playing in my mind..
how i wish things were never gone bad...or never ever happenned in my life..
good or bad we must overcome it, so our life will be balanced out..
right now, im drowning on my own past & present times..
I gotten a lot of friends..but not all are as good as what you thought..
some are big fat liers, some are backstabbers, some are even not meant to be your friends..
but a few who i loved them, who i appriciated them, who i deserved to have them..
my "brothers"...
amirul
mahdi
mubarak
those 3 always helped me out, hang out and have fun..
but now, our time is so strained, so tight that its hard for us to go out together..
my love ones..
fadzillah
sabrina
amira
suhana..
and kak idayu..
those were my closest frens, lovable & caring ones..
Idayu, or i called her kak idayu, she was known as my "GodSister"..
i never had any older siblings, but when i first know her, she's kind and always helped me out..on the same day i treated her as my Sis..so thats how we ended up like siblings..
hopefully in August i could go out with my sis sometimes..
she even plan to treat me out..isnt she's great and lovable? haha..
i can afford to loose all my normal, usual friends or classmates, but for fadz, sab, mira & nana, i cant afford to loose them..loosing them its like loosing my strength, confidence..hope..
i hope, and i prayed that things will never turn bad between us..
i can afford to loose all my normal, usual friends or classmates, but for fadz, sab, mira & nana, i cant afford to loose them..loosing them its like loosing my strength, confidence..hope..
i hope, and i prayed that things will never turn bad between us..
cause i dont wanna loose them, and i really loved them alots and lots..
Thanks for everything,
Thanks for everything,
all the funs,
all the laughters,
all the helped that you gave.
I really apprciated it,
and I will cherish every moments that we shared..
right now my status is single..and i not sure how to move on
either with or without someone..
my feelings towards someone is already dissappeared, and im moving on now, but i not sure if i wanna make a move with the girl im falling in love with, whom i kinda make an eye-contact and teasing with..cause im afraid that my luck will always be the same, will always be repeated once again, again and again..
how i could just wished that she's somehow is the one.
haish -.-"
what is in my mind right now?
what's my decision?
and why things are disturbing in my mind..?
12:13 AM
Saturday, July 19, 2008
yeah man!
today was totally a great day, belo day and funniest day!!haha...
our plan went smoothly, gone out wif Mira and Fadz!!!!
too bad Sabun tk dpt ikot uhh...haha, dier ngah puase!!! tsk3...tkpe2, hari lain je lah ehk sab..haha!
ok, just now in the morning went to Archery, long tyme didnt go seh...so on my way to my cca, mira sms me, she told me she worried+nervous+afraid bout her phase test uhh..
so, i replied her back, told her to relax, stay calm...nervous is common for everyone kan..
even myself kalau amek test pun ader butterfly in my stomach..i tried to give her confident, told her to believe in herself..kalau kawan dier leh buat testnye, tkkan mira tkleh kan? so surely everyone can...Insya'allah things went smoothly..
about 30 mins i think...or more..she sms me, told me everything is done, and went smooth..
thank god she's happy bout it...cause she soo nervous, until making me worried lah seh..XD haha!! entah asal uhh..
so, after sms her, i go on to my cca lorh...
till 12+ my cca end, straight gone to bedok, take 168, then gone to woodlands, take 913..
i sms fadz, told her i will reach home like before 2.30pm..
then pastu betol uhh my prediction...around 2.15pm i reached woodlands already..
ape lagi, kelam-kabut uhh balik...im chasing time..haha...dun wanna made both of them wait too long for me..
so take 913, sampai rumah kul 2.40pm, straight go to bath, dah mandi..i online jab around 2.50pm
saw both of them online...ape lagi, kacau jab uhh...hahaha...then mira tegoh, "sempat nk online"
LOL!! hahax! a'ah seh...then while online and chatting, mie bersalin uhh...
gedebak-gedebuk, told them i siap already...then me and fadz chiong to tempat biase..
dah jumpe teros pergi bukit gombak untuk makan..and also meet mira kat sane..
dah sampai...ape lagi, chiong gi makan uhh...
fadz complain lapar...i got headache...and lapar also..
we didnt hesitate any longer...teros gi kedai kopi seh..haha
dah kat sane, tk tahu ape nk makan...at last, order air dulu...
1 ice milo, 2 ice lemon tea...
baru lepas tu order makan!
Seafood Fried Rice is mine...
Sambal Fried Rice is Fadz....
Chicken Friend Rice is Mira...
uhh yelah tu...bagos lah, 3 org semue makan nasi goreng....
while waiting for our food, kite gurau2...
and i kene bully rabak giler dari mira...as per normal >.<"
makanan dah siap..ape lagi, CEKIK uhh makanan kite..haha!
sedap babe! first time makan kat situ...lol!
lepas makan, i go pay lorh the cost....i count the price should be $15.10, but actually $14...lol
entah uhh, betol ke tk...but im the one yang kene keluarkan duit...blanje dorang makan..
ok lah tu...cause i janji fadz that i treat her...
and for mira...errr...special case uhh XD hahaha!
dah bayarkan...i forgot something uhh, both of them didnt say thank you uhh juz now!!!
KUANG ASAM!!! u all better say thank you uhh kalau korang blogging! kalau tk, SIAP UHH!!
hahahax!
dah makan semue, we made our move...to...Clark Quay..!!
while we going to bukit gombak nye mrt station kan, kite berbual2 sambil jalan uhh..
kat sane ader pasar malam...then, semase mira berbual with me, she tk prasan ader baju2 hanging kat pasar malam tu...
while she turn around jek, lagi sikit nk TERCIUM baju tergantung tu..hahaha!!
me and fadz dah terkekek-kekek seh! lucky her uhh she didnt...lol! teros mira paiseh!!!
wahahah!!!
so many things happening uhh, kat MRT station, dalam MRT, kat Clark Quay...
kat MRT, penuh org...tk de tempat duduk so kite berdiri uhh...
for me, i cant hold something to support..so just stand stilll uhh..
u all know, mrt its like so unstable, whenever the mrt like jerking around,
i was like "Eh mummy!" with my reaction face semue mcm tk terjatuh uhh...
haha, fadz ngan mira dah ketawe2...thats the 1st thing..
2nd thing, as we alighted kat Clark Quay station, ramai org..
so i made my move zig-zag, people crowed at the door uhh, then i behind both of them...
then tibe2 dorang tengah jalan kan, terberhenti, i was like 5cm lagi sikit nak terlanggar dorang seh!! then i was like "Eh mak!! mak!! lagi sikit nk terlanggar!"
fadz and mira turned around, see my reaction face, ketawe2 lagik...dah paiseh, jalan uhh..
jalan pun salah jalan...the exit should be on the left side, we on the right side..
kelam-kabut buat U-turn...then took the escalator..
kat escalator tu, fadz kat depan dah ketawe2...si mira beside me, tk berhenti ketawe..
she laughing all the way non-stop sampai air mate nk melilih seh!! haha..i was like damn embarrased alreadi uhh..
3rd time, when we on our way to Dhoby Ghaut, u know mrt station kat situ ader 2 pintu kan?
1 is the MRT door, the other one is the MRT station sliding door? haha...this part was hilarious..
dah sampai kat situ..i chit-chat with both of them, the mrt stop uhh, i heard the mrt door open already...
suddenly when i turned around made my first 3 steps, the station door belom open sia!!
i was like "Eh mak!!pintu lom bukak!!" lagi sikit my face nk TERCIUM pintu tu...
i just maintain my face uhh so people wont suspect anything, but mira and fadz behind me dah terkekek-kekek seh! like wth...3 times funniest moment! lol!
but of course, not only me uhh terkene...si mira pun ader...sampai 3 kali jugak..
the 1st one yg tadi, nk TERCIUM baju tergantung...haha
2nd yang kite tengah tunggu MRT, we wanna took our reflection picture uhh..
so, mira wanna took out her handphone...i just kept looking at her..cause u know why...
i saw her handphone kat her pocket seluar..she kept finding it kat her handbag sampai panic, like as if her handphone hilang gitu...kanchong seh dier cari2 handphone!! haha..
at last with her blank face, she asked fadz, "Fadz, where my handphone seh?!"
fadz ketawe2 told her "Itu handphone kat pocket mira tu ape...hahah!!"
then all of us ketawe2, mira plak dah paiseh giler sampai tutup2 muke dier...hahax!!! rabak kepe!
this one yg 3rd..
when kite dah kat dalam mrt, we at the first cabin uhh, we stand near the mrt door..
fadz sandar kat cermin situ, me stand opposite of fadz and mira plak stand sebelah fadz..
kite berbual-bual, ketawe2..tibe2 mira terpekik sambil mengelap mate atau dahi dier..
mcm TERKEJOT BEROK uhh dier nye reaction!! lol..ingatkan ape jek..
skali dier kate, ader drips of water jatuh kat kepale dier, she shocked sampai org2 kat mrt tengok dier seh!!! haha!!
me and fadz terkekek giler then mira ketawe2 and paiseh also...haha...rabak kepe!!
seriously uhh..funny things happen around us...
and somemore yg kite kat Clark Quay station, boleh sesat sak!!
kite nk kluar dari station, then tk tahu mane nk pergi, at last termasok macam tempat shopping centrenye...kite 3 teros kate, "eh mane nk jalan ni"
at last teros jalan straight..nothing at there, fadz kate suruh patah balik..so ok uhh..
i also tegoh, "ah yelah, tempat kecik macam gini pun leh sesat!"
pastu semue terkekek-kekek!! haha!! serious seh...haiyoh...ape nk jadi ngan kite orang ni...
while we on our way back to woodlands, fadz pun same mcm mira...
she kept her handphone kat pocket...at last, dier cari2 kat handbag dier...kanchong seh!!!
haha, asked mira, wheres her handphone...padahal kat pocket...LOL!!
kekek kepe! kite 3 dah belo2 giler2 lah seh...hahahax..but its fun! laughing seh anywhere we go..
so, around 7.20pm+ kite sampai kat woodlands, tempat biase, nk jumpe si sab, teman dier gi makan uhh..
dier makan kat banquet, kite berbual-bual uhh...ketawe sane sini..
ceritekan hal tadi...and itu uhh semue...
around 8.55pm we made our move...
semue berpisah nk balik rumah...haha..
so yeah today was great!
hmm...i enjoyed uhh...dpt kluar ngan dier lagik! lols..
she dressed up simple but nice..
she wore Green tee, her favourite colour, and white skinny jeans...
from just now kite kluar, i everytime looked at her eyes...LOL!
ahaha, seriously seh..slalu terbuat eye contact...
but somehow when she looked at me, she mesti jeling >.<"
jeling maha jeling...hahax!
and one day hopefully leh kluar tengok wayang ngan dier uhh :P
dah tanye dier pun...maybe next week or so...hopefully next week on sunday uhh...
hmm, i checked out her horoscope, she's a LEO lah seh..!
she got Heart of A Lion...dun messed around with her tau! haha..scary...
and somemore rare to find....wooo...!! XD
hahahax...giler uhh aku ni..
anyway, i will try and get the pictures and put it here...pix all at her uhh...haha
sorie uhh for the long update! lol!
till here aje..
thanks to both of u for the great time just now!
appriciated it alots2!!
sayang korang many2!! ^^
today was totally a great day, belo day and funniest day!!haha...
our plan went smoothly, gone out wif Mira and Fadz!!!!
too bad Sabun tk dpt ikot uhh...haha, dier ngah puase!!! tsk3...tkpe2, hari lain je lah ehk sab..haha!
ok, just now in the morning went to Archery, long tyme didnt go seh...so on my way to my cca, mira sms me, she told me she worried+nervous+afraid bout her phase test uhh..
so, i replied her back, told her to relax, stay calm...nervous is common for everyone kan..
even myself kalau amek test pun ader butterfly in my stomach..i tried to give her confident, told her to believe in herself..kalau kawan dier leh buat testnye, tkkan mira tkleh kan? so surely everyone can...Insya'allah things went smoothly..
about 30 mins i think...or more..she sms me, told me everything is done, and went smooth..
thank god she's happy bout it...cause she soo nervous, until making me worried lah seh..XD haha!! entah asal uhh..
so, after sms her, i go on to my cca lorh...
till 12+ my cca end, straight gone to bedok, take 168, then gone to woodlands, take 913..
i sms fadz, told her i will reach home like before 2.30pm..
then pastu betol uhh my prediction...around 2.15pm i reached woodlands already..
ape lagi, kelam-kabut uhh balik...im chasing time..haha...dun wanna made both of them wait too long for me..
so take 913, sampai rumah kul 2.40pm, straight go to bath, dah mandi..i online jab around 2.50pm
saw both of them online...ape lagi, kacau jab uhh...hahaha...then mira tegoh, "sempat nk online"
LOL!! hahax! a'ah seh...then while online and chatting, mie bersalin uhh...
gedebak-gedebuk, told them i siap already...then me and fadz chiong to tempat biase..
dah jumpe teros pergi bukit gombak untuk makan..and also meet mira kat sane..
dah sampai...ape lagi, chiong gi makan uhh...
fadz complain lapar...i got headache...and lapar also..
we didnt hesitate any longer...teros gi kedai kopi seh..haha
dah kat sane, tk tahu ape nk makan...at last, order air dulu...
1 ice milo, 2 ice lemon tea...
baru lepas tu order makan!
Seafood Fried Rice is mine...
Sambal Fried Rice is Fadz....
Chicken Friend Rice is Mira...
uhh yelah tu...bagos lah, 3 org semue makan nasi goreng....
while waiting for our food, kite gurau2...
and i kene bully rabak giler dari mira...as per normal >.<"
makanan dah siap..ape lagi, CEKIK uhh makanan kite..haha!
sedap babe! first time makan kat situ...lol!
lepas makan, i go pay lorh the cost....i count the price should be $15.10, but actually $14...lol
entah uhh, betol ke tk...but im the one yang kene keluarkan duit...blanje dorang makan..
ok lah tu...cause i janji fadz that i treat her...
and for mira...errr...special case uhh XD hahaha!
dah bayarkan...i forgot something uhh, both of them didnt say thank you uhh juz now!!!
KUANG ASAM!!! u all better say thank you uhh kalau korang blogging! kalau tk, SIAP UHH!!
hahahax!
dah makan semue, we made our move...to...Clark Quay..!!
while we going to bukit gombak nye mrt station kan, kite berbual2 sambil jalan uhh..
kat sane ader pasar malam...then, semase mira berbual with me, she tk prasan ader baju2 hanging kat pasar malam tu...
while she turn around jek, lagi sikit nk TERCIUM baju tergantung tu..hahaha!!
me and fadz dah terkekek-kekek seh! lucky her uhh she didnt...lol! teros mira paiseh!!!
wahahah!!!
so many things happening uhh, kat MRT station, dalam MRT, kat Clark Quay...
kat MRT, penuh org...tk de tempat duduk so kite berdiri uhh...
for me, i cant hold something to support..so just stand stilll uhh..
u all know, mrt its like so unstable, whenever the mrt like jerking around,
i was like "Eh mummy!" with my reaction face semue mcm tk terjatuh uhh...
haha, fadz ngan mira dah ketawe2...thats the 1st thing..
2nd thing, as we alighted kat Clark Quay station, ramai org..
so i made my move zig-zag, people crowed at the door uhh, then i behind both of them...
then tibe2 dorang tengah jalan kan, terberhenti, i was like 5cm lagi sikit nak terlanggar dorang seh!! then i was like "Eh mak!! mak!! lagi sikit nk terlanggar!"
fadz and mira turned around, see my reaction face, ketawe2 lagik...dah paiseh, jalan uhh..
jalan pun salah jalan...the exit should be on the left side, we on the right side..
kelam-kabut buat U-turn...then took the escalator..
kat escalator tu, fadz kat depan dah ketawe2...si mira beside me, tk berhenti ketawe..
she laughing all the way non-stop sampai air mate nk melilih seh!! haha..i was like damn embarrased alreadi uhh..
3rd time, when we on our way to Dhoby Ghaut, u know mrt station kat situ ader 2 pintu kan?
1 is the MRT door, the other one is the MRT station sliding door? haha...this part was hilarious..
dah sampai kat situ..i chit-chat with both of them, the mrt stop uhh, i heard the mrt door open already...
suddenly when i turned around made my first 3 steps, the station door belom open sia!!
i was like "Eh mak!!pintu lom bukak!!" lagi sikit my face nk TERCIUM pintu tu...
i just maintain my face uhh so people wont suspect anything, but mira and fadz behind me dah terkekek-kekek seh! like wth...3 times funniest moment! lol!
but of course, not only me uhh terkene...si mira pun ader...sampai 3 kali jugak..
the 1st one yg tadi, nk TERCIUM baju tergantung...haha
2nd yang kite tengah tunggu MRT, we wanna took our reflection picture uhh..
so, mira wanna took out her handphone...i just kept looking at her..cause u know why...
i saw her handphone kat her pocket seluar..she kept finding it kat her handbag sampai panic, like as if her handphone hilang gitu...kanchong seh dier cari2 handphone!! haha..
at last with her blank face, she asked fadz, "Fadz, where my handphone seh?!"
fadz ketawe2 told her "Itu handphone kat pocket mira tu ape...hahah!!"
then all of us ketawe2, mira plak dah paiseh giler sampai tutup2 muke dier...hahax!!! rabak kepe!
this one yg 3rd..
when kite dah kat dalam mrt, we at the first cabin uhh, we stand near the mrt door..
fadz sandar kat cermin situ, me stand opposite of fadz and mira plak stand sebelah fadz..
kite berbual-bual, ketawe2..tibe2 mira terpekik sambil mengelap mate atau dahi dier..
mcm TERKEJOT BEROK uhh dier nye reaction!! lol..ingatkan ape jek..
skali dier kate, ader drips of water jatuh kat kepale dier, she shocked sampai org2 kat mrt tengok dier seh!!! haha!!
me and fadz terkekek giler then mira ketawe2 and paiseh also...haha...rabak kepe!!
seriously uhh..funny things happen around us...
and somemore yg kite kat Clark Quay station, boleh sesat sak!!
kite nk kluar dari station, then tk tahu mane nk pergi, at last termasok macam tempat shopping centrenye...kite 3 teros kate, "eh mane nk jalan ni"
at last teros jalan straight..nothing at there, fadz kate suruh patah balik..so ok uhh..
i also tegoh, "ah yelah, tempat kecik macam gini pun leh sesat!"
pastu semue terkekek-kekek!! haha!! serious seh...haiyoh...ape nk jadi ngan kite orang ni...
while we on our way back to woodlands, fadz pun same mcm mira...
she kept her handphone kat pocket...at last, dier cari2 kat handbag dier...kanchong seh!!!
haha, asked mira, wheres her handphone...padahal kat pocket...LOL!!
kekek kepe! kite 3 dah belo2 giler2 lah seh...hahahax..but its fun! laughing seh anywhere we go..
so, around 7.20pm+ kite sampai kat woodlands, tempat biase, nk jumpe si sab, teman dier gi makan uhh..
dier makan kat banquet, kite berbual-bual uhh...ketawe sane sini..
ceritekan hal tadi...and itu uhh semue...
around 8.55pm we made our move...
semue berpisah nk balik rumah...haha..
so yeah today was great!
hmm...i enjoyed uhh...dpt kluar ngan dier lagik! lols..
she dressed up simple but nice..
she wore Green tee, her favourite colour, and white skinny jeans...
from just now kite kluar, i everytime looked at her eyes...LOL!
ahaha, seriously seh..slalu terbuat eye contact...
but somehow when she looked at me, she mesti jeling >.<"
jeling maha jeling...hahax!
and one day hopefully leh kluar tengok wayang ngan dier uhh :P
dah tanye dier pun...maybe next week or so...hopefully next week on sunday uhh...
hmm, i checked out her horoscope, she's a LEO lah seh..!
she got Heart of A Lion...dun messed around with her tau! haha..scary...
and somemore rare to find....wooo...!! XD
hahahax...giler uhh aku ni..
anyway, i will try and get the pictures and put it here...pix all at her uhh...haha
sorie uhh for the long update! lol!
till here aje..
thanks to both of u for the great time just now!
appriciated it alots2!!
sayang korang many2!! ^^
9:13 PM
Friday, July 18, 2008
Uhhh...
How fast time flies..
and i didnt realise its like, middle of July..
Things changes so quick...changes to good, bad, normal..this month, nothing changed to worst.
This term, it will be the great term for me,
but somehow it will be the busy time for me also..
and not to mention my music semakin merosot..
tsk..no time to practice lah..everytime wanna practice at night, my lil' bro wanna sleep..
then everyday skul start at 8.30am, then end between 4-6pm.
dah sampai rumah, confirmed around 7-8pm seh..
i already planned, i wanna focus on my music rather than my studies..
but somehow, my plan backfired..
haish..what to do seh..
i gotten to know this New Fren from my skul..
she's in Nursing course..
gotten to know her on the 5th of July i think,
gone out together wif fadz & sab & her on 7th of July..
as time pass by, we getting to know each other..
i managed to understand her well, go to skul and gone home together as well..
it was great to have her as my fren, she's an outgoing person, caring, loveable too..
and she waited for sab at skul damn long seh, juz to go home together...
sanggup tau dier tunggu..its great uhh to have a fren like her..never easy to get one..
when i heard she waited for sab CCA to finish,
i was like damn impressed uhh..dunno why..
now its 18th of July, its like 2weeks+ aje we were macam semakin rapat..
but somehow, my mind making me confused..tsk..you will know uhh why..
for me, my love is not blind...
but when things kept on happening around me,
that is the time my mind went confused..seriously confused to the core..
like i cant even made the true decision uhh..
16th of July, she was down..she having prob with her life..
better not to explain it uhh..cause it could say, its her personal life..
she cried silently inside herself, not letting out of her feelings..
the more she think bout it, the more she hurt..
i tried to ask her to let out her feelings uhh..
share her probs too..with me and fadz..
in the end, she did..when i heard/read her stories, its really damn hurtful..
although im not a gal, i understand how she felt..
for me, i cant bare to see or hear gals cry..its just so damn pityful..
and i will do whatever it takes to calm them and cheer them up..
thats why i promised myself whenever i found someone special or someone to love,
dun ever made them cried or hurt them..
i made a promised to myself since the last 3 or 4 years ago..
and till now, the promised is still kept safely and sentiase terpati..
for the last 4yrs, i didnt played gals feelings or heart..but actually,
im the one being toyed with..sounds kinda funny right? but yeah, its true..
all i want is to love someone and be loved truely and have a long relationship..
cinte yg sejati memang tk senang didapati
tetapi kalau sudah mendapati, hargailah dengan sepenuh hati..
now what's left for me is to move on..
i cant bare to wait so long, cause the longer i wait, the longer im hurt..
my feelings towards someone is dissappearing soon..
cause she didnt have the same feelings towards me,
and she could only love me as a fren..
so, i think its better for me to move on..
now im got to look for special one again -.-"
haiz..take times lorh..
rush2 for what right...
but pompan psycho terpakse dibatal uhh..XD nyahaha
and yeah..maybe i found the right one alreadi..
Maybe jek...tk confirm itu dier..^^"
but i positive that i could be with her..heh
17th of July..
i lost my freaking $7...F%#K!
dah makan sedap2 beh duit plak hilang..
ape lagi, kehausan uhh kat skolah..
tsk..i sms mira i lost my money, then somehow she asked me to meet her 3pm
cause she will borrow me money..
i was like, alamak! tkpayah buat gitu..its ok its ok..paiseh seh..
haha, true what...receiving money from gals...so not the right! XD hahax
so, i told her lah, i just borrow my fren's money to buy drink..
thanks for her concern, really really appriciate.
then at night, she on the way home,
she lost her ez link, but thank god she managed to get it back.
too bad for me uhh, my $7 terbang mcm gitu..
hah, maybe untuk rezeki orang yg susah kepe duit aku tu..
so, just accept the fact lorh..
btw, biler mahu kluar lagik ni..
im getting this Boredesome Virus sooner or later lah..
its killing me you know..ahaha..seriously seh..
tsk..kalau tk..i just Rest In Peace at home lorh =X
update other time then..dah terlalu panjang uhh post ni >.<"
♥ my 3 loveable frens:
♥Fadz
♥Sab
♥Mira!!!
haha..thanks for everything im soo, very the appriciate to have 3 of you.
oh and
♥Suhana too..
she taught me bout everything and
made me into a better person somehow ^^
haha.. yeah, she's my bestest2 fren..no doubt..
How fast time flies..
and i didnt realise its like, middle of July..
Things changes so quick...changes to good, bad, normal..this month, nothing changed to worst.
This term, it will be the great term for me,
but somehow it will be the busy time for me also..
and not to mention my music semakin merosot..
tsk..no time to practice lah..everytime wanna practice at night, my lil' bro wanna sleep..
then everyday skul start at 8.30am, then end between 4-6pm.
dah sampai rumah, confirmed around 7-8pm seh..
i already planned, i wanna focus on my music rather than my studies..
but somehow, my plan backfired..
haish..what to do seh..
i gotten to know this New Fren from my skul..
she's in Nursing course..
gotten to know her on the 5th of July i think,
gone out together wif fadz & sab & her on 7th of July..
as time pass by, we getting to know each other..
i managed to understand her well, go to skul and gone home together as well..
it was great to have her as my fren, she's an outgoing person, caring, loveable too..
and she waited for sab at skul damn long seh, juz to go home together...
sanggup tau dier tunggu..its great uhh to have a fren like her..never easy to get one..
when i heard she waited for sab CCA to finish,
i was like damn impressed uhh..dunno why..
now its 18th of July, its like 2weeks+ aje we were macam semakin rapat..
but somehow, my mind making me confused..tsk..you will know uhh why..
for me, my love is not blind...
but when things kept on happening around me,
that is the time my mind went confused..seriously confused to the core..
like i cant even made the true decision uhh..
16th of July, she was down..she having prob with her life..
better not to explain it uhh..cause it could say, its her personal life..
she cried silently inside herself, not letting out of her feelings..
the more she think bout it, the more she hurt..
i tried to ask her to let out her feelings uhh..
share her probs too..with me and fadz..
in the end, she did..when i heard/read her stories, its really damn hurtful..
although im not a gal, i understand how she felt..
for me, i cant bare to see or hear gals cry..its just so damn pityful..
and i will do whatever it takes to calm them and cheer them up..
thats why i promised myself whenever i found someone special or someone to love,
dun ever made them cried or hurt them..
i made a promised to myself since the last 3 or 4 years ago..
and till now, the promised is still kept safely and sentiase terpati..
for the last 4yrs, i didnt played gals feelings or heart..but actually,
im the one being toyed with..sounds kinda funny right? but yeah, its true..
all i want is to love someone and be loved truely and have a long relationship..
cinte yg sejati memang tk senang didapati
tetapi kalau sudah mendapati, hargailah dengan sepenuh hati..
now what's left for me is to move on..
i cant bare to wait so long, cause the longer i wait, the longer im hurt..
my feelings towards someone is dissappearing soon..
cause she didnt have the same feelings towards me,
and she could only love me as a fren..
so, i think its better for me to move on..
now im got to look for special one again -.-"
haiz..take times lorh..
rush2 for what right...
but pompan psycho terpakse dibatal uhh..XD nyahaha
and yeah..maybe i found the right one alreadi..
Maybe jek...tk confirm itu dier..^^"
but i positive that i could be with her..heh
17th of July..
i lost my freaking $7...F%#K!
dah makan sedap2 beh duit plak hilang..
ape lagi, kehausan uhh kat skolah..
tsk..i sms mira i lost my money, then somehow she asked me to meet her 3pm
cause she will borrow me money..
i was like, alamak! tkpayah buat gitu..its ok its ok..paiseh seh..
haha, true what...receiving money from gals...so not the right! XD hahax
so, i told her lah, i just borrow my fren's money to buy drink..
thanks for her concern, really really appriciate.
then at night, she on the way home,
she lost her ez link, but thank god she managed to get it back.
too bad for me uhh, my $7 terbang mcm gitu..
hah, maybe untuk rezeki orang yg susah kepe duit aku tu..
so, just accept the fact lorh..
btw, biler mahu kluar lagik ni..
im getting this Boredesome Virus sooner or later lah..
its killing me you know..ahaha..seriously seh..
tsk..kalau tk..i just Rest In Peace at home lorh =X
update other time then..dah terlalu panjang uhh post ni >.<"
♥ my 3 loveable frens:
♥Fadz
♥Sab
♥Mira!!!
haha..thanks for everything im soo, very the appriciate to have 3 of you.
oh and
♥Suhana too..
she taught me bout everything and
made me into a better person somehow ^^
haha.. yeah, she's my bestest2 fren..no doubt..
oh and im not going to skul later, which is on Friday 18th of July..
haha, find out urself why im not going..^^
12:43 AM
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Woo...today was great..
in the afternoon, gone to fadz house for makan2 to celebrate her belated birthday. haha.
only a few of us came. cause she invited the ones who really close with.
and yeah, one of the best thing is suhana came!! woo! great or what! hahaha
yeah man, dah lamer tk nampak dier, at last she able to come and go out to fadz house.
nana reached first, then me and mumu, followed by sab, fahmi and mahdi..
nana wore black long sleeve and black skinny jeans, i told her to wear that colour anyway. cause she asked me yesterday on the phone, black is matched with what bottom colour. so i said lorh, either dark blue or black or if better, white. then she chose black, so..she full black clothes..hahaha..and one thing was, she looked pretty lah seh! dah lamer tk nampak dier..
she looking more pwetty and cute...haha
i planned with her if wanna wear the same colour of the long sleeve, then she say, kalau nk boleh uhh, nk berpasangan ehk, nk tk? she asked me, then on the spot i said, nk nk nk!! boleh boleh?! haha, so she agreed lorh...cool kepe...wahaha
semue dah sampai tadi, makan2 and tengok movie..and of course sit beside nana, kacau2, gurau2 dier :P hahaha, dah lamer lah seh i didnt gurau ngan dier..i really miss her alot seh..
and i even counting the days she didnt called me and the days i missing her...
then, gurau2 ngan dier, she slap my hand lah, slap my arm lah, "Slap" my face lah, tarik my telinge la...hahaha, itu la gurau2 dikatekan! LOL!
and yeah, i enjoy the fun times with her.
movie dah habis, dah makan ape semue, we got to move...around 6+ we made our move..
mahdi need to go work, mumu came my house, fadz need to go marsilling, sab teman fadz, nana kene gi marsilling and fahmi go home at last, he wanna go watch fireworks tapi tk jadi uhh...
btw fadz, i wanna wish you happy birthday again uhh..hahaha, boleh tk? lol..
and thanks for the delicious food. I'm Loving It! hahaha. lagi2 pulutnye yg tadi bawak balik rumah, fuyoh, tk cukup lah seh!! i want more!!! hahaa. okok. thanks very much my dear fren fadz, syg ko banyak2 ^^
sorie kalau tk kasi present, i will give u once i have money to buy. =)
in the afternoon, gone to fadz house for makan2 to celebrate her belated birthday. haha.
only a few of us came. cause she invited the ones who really close with.
and yeah, one of the best thing is suhana came!! woo! great or what! hahaha
yeah man, dah lamer tk nampak dier, at last she able to come and go out to fadz house.
nana reached first, then me and mumu, followed by sab, fahmi and mahdi..
nana wore black long sleeve and black skinny jeans, i told her to wear that colour anyway. cause she asked me yesterday on the phone, black is matched with what bottom colour. so i said lorh, either dark blue or black or if better, white. then she chose black, so..she full black clothes..hahaha..and one thing was, she looked pretty lah seh! dah lamer tk nampak dier..
she looking more pwetty and cute...haha
i planned with her if wanna wear the same colour of the long sleeve, then she say, kalau nk boleh uhh, nk berpasangan ehk, nk tk? she asked me, then on the spot i said, nk nk nk!! boleh boleh?! haha, so she agreed lorh...cool kepe...wahaha
semue dah sampai tadi, makan2 and tengok movie..and of course sit beside nana, kacau2, gurau2 dier :P hahaha, dah lamer lah seh i didnt gurau ngan dier..i really miss her alot seh..
and i even counting the days she didnt called me and the days i missing her...
then, gurau2 ngan dier, she slap my hand lah, slap my arm lah, "Slap" my face lah, tarik my telinge la...hahaha, itu la gurau2 dikatekan! LOL!
and yeah, i enjoy the fun times with her.
movie dah habis, dah makan ape semue, we got to move...around 6+ we made our move..
mahdi need to go work, mumu came my house, fadz need to go marsilling, sab teman fadz, nana kene gi marsilling and fahmi go home at last, he wanna go watch fireworks tapi tk jadi uhh...
btw fadz, i wanna wish you happy birthday again uhh..hahaha, boleh tk? lol..
and thanks for the delicious food. I'm Loving It! hahaha. lagi2 pulutnye yg tadi bawak balik rumah, fuyoh, tk cukup lah seh!! i want more!!! hahaa. okok. thanks very much my dear fren fadz, syg ko banyak2 ^^
sorie kalau tk kasi present, i will give u once i have money to buy. =)
haiz, anyway, my mind kinda confused right now uhh...
dunno what else i wanna do..
either move on alone or with her..
in my heart says i want to be with her, but she only can love me as friend..
i tried to move on and not really found someone special,
but she mistaken and somehow she kinda felt sad when i found someone else...
i dun understand her feelings right now..
what should i do..
one thing for sure is i love her as much as i misses her..
like what i said, its hard to replace her
and she still stuck in my very heart
8:35 PM
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Gosh...today was seriously tiring day man...
in the morning woke up at 4.15am, cause today im going to school with my dear fren mira..
cause yesterday i asked her uhh if whether wanna go school together, then she asked me many2 times whether im sure wanna go together or not..hmm, soo, i said yah sure2 no worries..lols
Woke up at 4.15am, i wanna on the water heater first in my parents room, but somehow the door slowly opened, i was like "Ya'allah, pagi2 bute gini pun leh kene kacau ke."
Then i be brave a while and see who is it, suddenly, it was my mum >.<"
haiyoh, opened the door so quietly and slowly pulak tu, then at last, my mum pulak..ape lagi, terperanjat berok uhh aku ni...haha
On the heater, then gone to bath. 4.30am i dressed up into my polo-T and style2 my hair...lol
semue dah siap, then tengok jam, alamak, baru pukul 4.45am. i supposed to meet mira 6.20am at Jurong East. But somehow, aku bangun terlalu awal...gendeng betol uhh aku ni..between 4.45am and 5am, mira sms me, told me to wake up. i asked her a favour if she woke up already, message me so i woundt be asleep or something. so ok, i replied her back and then i go and gaming a while...hahaha, sempat nk main game seh!! play awhile lorh, Matrix: Path of Neo.
cool game sia..hahaha
until 5.30am, switch off comp, switch off all my electrical appliances in my room, then chiong to admiralty mrt station. dah sampai sane, baru kul 5.40am, ape lagi, gi makan mac for awhile..haha
juz ate sausage muffin and drank a regular milo ice..dah makan semue, chiong to Jurong!!
sampai kat sane dalam kul 6.15am gitu...
tunggu kat lift mrt situ, dgr2 lagu uhh..on MAX volume...skali tk prasan mira pass by infront of me, then wave her hand infront of my face..i was like shocked uhh...cause i hayal sambil dgr lagu..hahaha.
tapi tk sangke seh, 6.20am EXACTLY dier sampai...
wah...style2..im impressed..haha
after that, while waiting for her friend, we gurau2 each other uhh...but somehow, im the one yg kene bully seh..i try to lawan balik uhh kate2 dier, tapi tk boleh..mira pandai uhh...what else can i do, i admit defeat uhh..hahahax. suke je si mira...menyampah aku!!! XD
everything settle, take mrt to tanah merah..on our way there, i was like MRT-Sick sia..
cause its been quite a long time i didnt took mrt to school, so when i took it just now, i felt like vomitting uhh...both of us just kept quiet in the mrt, i cant say anything, tengah tahan my vomit..haha, rabak seh..haish..
dah sampai tanah merah, THANK GOD im out from the mrt...cannot take it uhh..
jumpe her friend kat sane, then at last take cab dari situ pasal dorang dah lambat..haha.
so ouhk too long uhh the story...hahaha
but 1 thing for sure, mira is like my first friend from Nursing uhh, and the fisrt person to go to school together this semester. lol..cool kepe XD hahaha...
so yeah thats all for today...
last night was damn cool...my mood go up and up sia...wanna know why..
pasal suhana called me...hahaha, i heard her voice..like angel singing.. XD jkjk
miss her voice uhh...its like 2weeks didnt contact right...so yeah, i appriciate she called me..
berbual kejab...then i heard her voice, she really2 happy...haha..i knew already why she happy...
juz dun wanna say it..nyahaha..talk talk talk..sampai batt dier flat...haiyah..
so..i think i just updated till here uhh...so tiring seh...
thats all..outs!
To dear fadz: happy advance 17th birthday to u!!!
may all wishes came true..chey mcm paham..
haha, eh btw, cant give u present in the moment uhh, mahdi lom kasi duit aku...
aku ngah pokai...haha, sowie ehh fadz...sayang ko banyak =) tc!
in the morning woke up at 4.15am, cause today im going to school with my dear fren mira..
cause yesterday i asked her uhh if whether wanna go school together, then she asked me many2 times whether im sure wanna go together or not..hmm, soo, i said yah sure2 no worries..lols
Woke up at 4.15am, i wanna on the water heater first in my parents room, but somehow the door slowly opened, i was like "Ya'allah, pagi2 bute gini pun leh kene kacau ke."
Then i be brave a while and see who is it, suddenly, it was my mum >.<"
haiyoh, opened the door so quietly and slowly pulak tu, then at last, my mum pulak..ape lagi, terperanjat berok uhh aku ni...haha
On the heater, then gone to bath. 4.30am i dressed up into my polo-T and style2 my hair...lol
semue dah siap, then tengok jam, alamak, baru pukul 4.45am. i supposed to meet mira 6.20am at Jurong East. But somehow, aku bangun terlalu awal...gendeng betol uhh aku ni..between 4.45am and 5am, mira sms me, told me to wake up. i asked her a favour if she woke up already, message me so i woundt be asleep or something. so ok, i replied her back and then i go and gaming a while...hahaha, sempat nk main game seh!! play awhile lorh, Matrix: Path of Neo.
cool game sia..hahaha
until 5.30am, switch off comp, switch off all my electrical appliances in my room, then chiong to admiralty mrt station. dah sampai sane, baru kul 5.40am, ape lagi, gi makan mac for awhile..haha
juz ate sausage muffin and drank a regular milo ice..dah makan semue, chiong to Jurong!!
sampai kat sane dalam kul 6.15am gitu...
tunggu kat lift mrt situ, dgr2 lagu uhh..on MAX volume...skali tk prasan mira pass by infront of me, then wave her hand infront of my face..i was like shocked uhh...cause i hayal sambil dgr lagu..hahaha.
tapi tk sangke seh, 6.20am EXACTLY dier sampai...
wah...style2..im impressed..haha
after that, while waiting for her friend, we gurau2 each other uhh...but somehow, im the one yg kene bully seh..i try to lawan balik uhh kate2 dier, tapi tk boleh..mira pandai uhh...what else can i do, i admit defeat uhh..hahahax. suke je si mira...menyampah aku!!! XD
everything settle, take mrt to tanah merah..on our way there, i was like MRT-Sick sia..
cause its been quite a long time i didnt took mrt to school, so when i took it just now, i felt like vomitting uhh...both of us just kept quiet in the mrt, i cant say anything, tengah tahan my vomit..haha, rabak seh..haish..
dah sampai tanah merah, THANK GOD im out from the mrt...cannot take it uhh..
jumpe her friend kat sane, then at last take cab dari situ pasal dorang dah lambat..haha.
so ouhk too long uhh the story...hahaha
but 1 thing for sure, mira is like my first friend from Nursing uhh, and the fisrt person to go to school together this semester. lol..cool kepe XD hahaha...
so yeah thats all for today...
last night was damn cool...my mood go up and up sia...wanna know why..
pasal suhana called me...hahaha, i heard her voice..like angel singing.. XD jkjk
miss her voice uhh...its like 2weeks didnt contact right...so yeah, i appriciate she called me..
berbual kejab...then i heard her voice, she really2 happy...haha..i knew already why she happy...
juz dun wanna say it..nyahaha..talk talk talk..sampai batt dier flat...haiyah..
so..i think i just updated till here uhh...so tiring seh...
thats all..outs!
To dear fadz: happy advance 17th birthday to u!!!
may all wishes came true..chey mcm paham..
haha, eh btw, cant give u present in the moment uhh, mahdi lom kasi duit aku...
aku ngah pokai...haha, sowie ehh fadz...sayang ko banyak =) tc!
5:46 PM
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Hmm...
Nothing special so far...
juz that last Sunday my dad bought me a new Converse Bag
cool kepe..haha
and i bought myself a White Converse Cap..
looks cool, just like what i wanted..
i think that's all for the previous update..
Nothing special so far...
juz that last Sunday my dad bought me a new Converse Bag
cool kepe..haha
and i bought myself a White Converse Cap..
looks cool, just like what i wanted..
i think that's all for the previous update..
I'll be back whenever I'm free..
As I am confused in love right now..
9:11 PM
Saturday, July 5, 2008
The unity of crazy frens. XD
Yes uhh!! today was really a great day for me man...i didnt enjoy this much before..4 crazy friends united..wooo, the kecohness of us was very...unbearable, hahahax.. and btw, today is my racing game, PGR4 and guitar game, GH3 competition.. guess what...both of the games i managed to get into semi-finals. well, tomorrow is the day. must be there at 2pm. haiyah, dunno whether go out with family or not.
the 4 of us, me, fadz, sab and mira gone...errr, outing? hahaha.. i go and meet fadz first at the usual place, then somehow fadz say mira dah sampai kat woodlands, she's waiting for us near the first cabin position. somehow before going to meet mira kan...i felt so nervous...wahahaha..dunno why uhh.. new fren mah...so yeah, nervous + shy..LOL! hmm, first glance at her.. "WAH" pwetty seh pompan tu..hahaha, skali when i see properly, pakaian mira is about the same as sabrina lerrr...dari jauh tengok dorang 2, betol2 mcm adik beradik..hahahax! and somemore both of their hair is kinda, similar..cume mira nye panjang...lawar uhhh... sab! simpan rambut mcm mira uhhh, baru nampak pwetty seh! nyahaha..
this part kinda hilarious for me, when mira stand up right...in the first place uhh, i thought her height is the same as sab..pasal when i met her, dier ngah duduk..so in my mind, ok, maybe her height is the same as sab...but skali...haiyoh! mira tinggi lah seh! punye lah terkejot! and of course, in my mind i laughing silently...lols, cause of being silly of myself -.-" i try to compare mira's height and mine uhh, she kinda, taller than me by 1cm or 2cm uhh... ok lah tu..i didnt stand with another girl that is about the same height as me anyway..haha.. ape lagi, i paiseh uhh, mira's height taller than me >.<" kuang3..
kat dalam mrt, kene bully uhh, ngan fadz and mira...rabak seh...dah ku agak dah..korang kalau tk kacau aku tk sah...mesti aku kene kacau rabak nye dari korang...haiyoh..what to do..haha sampai kat city hall, jumpe sab as she from TTS hospital..
so after met her, straight away gi LJS, dah lapar giler...fadz pun complaint lapar... kat sane, kecoh2 sikit uhh, ask question about mira and her past life. okok uhh, try and get to know her kan..so must ask some questions..hah dah makan, teros gi funan for my competition...so we seperated uhh, dorang gi jalan2 kat Esplanade, then me continue with my gaming tournaments...all the familiar faces at there uhh.. i knew it already before i came... from 3.30pm till 5pm i think, once semue dah habis, go and meet them up kat Esplanade... haiyoh, jumpe kat tempat jauh2...aku ader lah merane nk jalan pasal otak aku ngan belo tk tahu mane nk jalan gi Esplanade...but in the end, i found the way..hah, memories came back to me. lol
ape lagi, dah jumpe dorang kat sane...SNAP!... SNAP!... SNAP!.. hahaha, kalau tk amek gambar tk sah! mesti amek...kalau tk, RUGI! XD eh, gambar2 yg kite snap tu, cool lah...everytime i wished that i will get that kind of pictures, in the end, my wishes came true...cool seh..i love it!
thanks sab! for the picture that you took..
thanks fadz! for the idea that you gave..
thanks mira! for the camera phone that you provide..hahaha
around 6pm+ kite chiao...took bus 960, all the way to woodlands, dah sampai kat sane, jumpe kawan2 lamer kite...Nabil, Sasha and cicak! haha...nabil rabak sak!! makin buncit! lols!!! sasha and cicak, okok uhh...still kinda look the same.. dah jumpe, pastu balik rumah!! and 1 thing of all, aku lupe nk ckp bye kat mira lah! silly me..haha, boleh lupe plak tu..tsk...tkpe uhh, next time leh kate bye..hahaha today was the great day for me lah..i never been crazy or happy like this,
thanks to you all, really made my mood go UP! and UP! haha...
well..what else can i say?...hmm, i love my 3 crazy frens..haha.
yeah! seriously! no joke!
hopefully one day kite leh kluar lagik! ^^
the 4 crazy frens united! haha.
fuh..gambar cool kepe!
credits to sab!

yes uhh..this kind of pix i want!
thanks to my idea! wahaha
and thanks to mira for her awesomeness handphone! ^^
all of us! peace!
i think this idea is sab and fadz
credits to both of them. heh

shortest to the tallest
wah mira, tinggi tanak kalah uhh :P haha
credits to sab & myself..hah!

the reflection of the crazy frens :D
credits to mira

ooo...formal photo...
kinda..haha

eh, this one look nicer..
2nd shot ^^

erm..i think this is candid
and i dunno why i did that anyway. hah!

okok, this one im not ready..
me and mira gambar blurr lah...
tapi sab muke cute! hahahax!
8:51 PM
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Aww..How Cute..
Hmm..this morning, on my way to minimart, a small shop nearby my block, i found a newborn baby bird along the sidewalk. From the far view, i thought its somekind of rubbish or dead bird, but when i see closer, it's a baby bird..maybe it fall from the top or something, cause it just stood there keeping quiet of itself.

Went home, told my mum bout it, then asked if suhaimi wanna take care of it, he said could, so i gone back to the place just now and brought back home. Hopefully later this night suhaimi will come and take it. Cause if wait for tomorrow, i dont think the bird could survive, cause there isnt anyting to feed on it. here's the picture and the video of the baby bird. dun mind bout the video background sound >.<"

First shot of the baby bird ^^
Second shot of the baby bird, click it for bigger view
Here's the video of it ^^
8:41 PM







