Saturday, June 28, 2008
Aaaahhh!!! Shyt!!!!
i HATE creepy, crawly creatures...I hate i Hate i HATE!!!!
Wth...i juz finished chatting with suhana, then i wanna go and take a drink...and guess what..
i just found out that there was Milipede in my room...
you know, the creature that when you disturb it, it will roll itself became round...
not the centipede, the one the could harm us, the one malay said "Lipan"
not that. its the other one which is harmless..
but although creepy crawly creatures are harmless, i kinda get irritated when its in my room or house.. Aaaahhh...!!you could say i am sooo pissed off...and also....
"Eeeeeeee" at the same time >.<"
i hate when there were creatures in my house...lyke as though something wasnt right.. i know, some creatures at night when appear, people called it "Binatang Menjelma." meaning its not like real creatures...somehow...spirits...ghosts...gah...wth... i dunno uhh if whether i can sleep tonight or not... those things giving me the creeps...lols shyt lah...where it came from anyway???
milipede lah seh... should only can be found in soils, lower ground floor..
first tyme terjumpe pat 3 story flat?? sounds stupid uhh...
alamak...ni yg aku tk suke...
sape2 leh tolong accompany aku malam ni?...
i felt something wasnt right the whole night....
i HATE creepy, crawly creatures...I hate i Hate i HATE!!!!
Wth...i juz finished chatting with suhana, then i wanna go and take a drink...and guess what..
i just found out that there was Milipede in my room...
you know, the creature that when you disturb it, it will roll itself became round...
not the centipede, the one the could harm us, the one malay said "Lipan"
not that. its the other one which is harmless..
but although creepy crawly creatures are harmless, i kinda get irritated when its in my room or house.. Aaaahhh...!!you could say i am sooo pissed off...and also....
"Eeeeeeee" at the same time >.<"
i hate when there were creatures in my house...lyke as though something wasnt right.. i know, some creatures at night when appear, people called it "Binatang Menjelma." meaning its not like real creatures...somehow...spirits...ghosts...gah...wth... i dunno uhh if whether i can sleep tonight or not... those things giving me the creeps...lols shyt lah...where it came from anyway???
milipede lah seh... should only can be found in soils, lower ground floor..
first tyme terjumpe pat 3 story flat?? sounds stupid uhh...
alamak...ni yg aku tk suke...
sape2 leh tolong accompany aku malam ni?...
i felt something wasnt right the whole night....
12:44 AM
Friday, June 27, 2008
okok. i called my piano teacher, and he said he forgot that he have my lesson -.-"
wth...lol. if i knew he didnt come today, i would have gone to bowl this morning...gah..
oh well...today is not my day...haish!
wth...lol. if i knew he didnt come today, i would have gone to bowl this morning...gah..
oh well...today is not my day...haish!
12:34 PM
My help will always be around
okies....
i just finished helping out Suhana's blog..
she really really have a cute blog skin seh and she found one of the nicest one...but because of the incomplete html codes and everything, she need to do it by herself somehow..
i know, suhana wasn't really sure of any of those html codes or something, so thats why she kanchong2 tagg me to help her out.
i just finished helping out Suhana's blog..
she really really have a cute blog skin seh and she found one of the nicest one...but because of the incomplete html codes and everything, she need to do it by herself somehow..
i know, suhana wasn't really sure of any of those html codes or something, so thats why she kanchong2 tagg me to help her out.
hahahax. its ok. i understand larh euu =)
next time if euu looking for my help, just contact my hp k?
so i would know..rather than euu tag at here, i woundt know whats going on..
next time if euu looking for my help, just contact my hp k?
so i would know..rather than euu tag at here, i woundt know whats going on..
*wink
hmm, i managed to complete everything just like about, 30-45mins. i asked her to check it out, but she wanna go to sleep, tomorrow she's schooling..oh well, gud nites and swit dreams to her :)
Suhana, the Princess of Hearts have gone to her Royal Sleep...hahax ^^ cool isnt it? lol.
and yeah, dun forget to check out her blog yah..
hmm....gone to jamming thursday afternoon, brought along Suhaimi's gadget..
it was totally awesome.
all the Sound effects, echoes, distortion was the one that we all wanted.
too bad i got to give him back today. awww..goodbye, sweet, rocking guitar gadget...hahaha
we enjoyed ourself...gone home around 7.45pm, mubarak came my house to play COD4 again..
then till 11pm+ mahdi came my house too...kacau2 my xbox360 and guitar -.-"
i knew he would came here just by playing around with that..nyahahaha..
yeah..thats all...i think later got piano lesson in the morning...urgh!
i wish it will cancelled...i wanna rest...till here...updating later.
outs*
hmm, i managed to complete everything just like about, 30-45mins. i asked her to check it out, but she wanna go to sleep, tomorrow she's schooling..oh well, gud nites and swit dreams to her :)
Suhana, the Princess of Hearts have gone to her Royal Sleep...hahax ^^ cool isnt it? lol.
and yeah, dun forget to check out her blog yah..
hmm....gone to jamming thursday afternoon, brought along Suhaimi's gadget..
it was totally awesome.
all the Sound effects, echoes, distortion was the one that we all wanted.
too bad i got to give him back today. awww..goodbye, sweet, rocking guitar gadget...hahaha
we enjoyed ourself...gone home around 7.45pm, mubarak came my house to play COD4 again..
then till 11pm+ mahdi came my house too...kacau2 my xbox360 and guitar -.-"
i knew he would came here just by playing around with that..nyahahaha..
yeah..thats all...i think later got piano lesson in the morning...urgh!
i wish it will cancelled...i wanna rest...till here...updating later.
outs*
2:51 AM
Thursday, June 26, 2008
*puffing *puffing...
fuh...tired...pain..
i just done my workout, although my right arm is having this cramp due to the bowling game on monday. not giving up though. must workout everynight, maintain my fitness..hahaha.
yeah, gotten the encouragement by my dad, grandfather, abg sedare and mahdi..
i bought the dumbell for $88 last 2weeks ago..
now the dumbell i workout 5kg per hand.
so if both hands, total 10kg.
25 counts and 5 push-ups per set. i done 4 or 5 sets every night
hmm..so, total of 100-125 times lifting up and down 10kg of dumbell and 25 push-ups.
sooner or later i gonna lifting heavier weight. ^^
juz now, something shocked me. haha, an email received by friendster, i knew someone must have given me a comment. i thought it was just a normal, ordinary comment..but somehow..
she's the one that gave it to me. i was like, "wah, tibe2 kasi comment..baik nye nana." hahahax
to me, if she gave me a sudden comment, well i treated it as special one. lol. hahaha, seriously..
hmm, she wrote to me,
hie..
nice pic
euu have dear...
haha...
my bestest3 friend....
weeee....
n nice profile....
(:
aww..she's soooo kind and sweet...
on the same time i sms her, told her thanks very much and i will gave her comment back too, i promised. haha. yeah..
and my promised i do kept it. few mins later, i wrote back and gave it to her ^^
hmm...mirul came to my house juz now, teasing me, kacau me and enjoying with the new guitar gadget. we were like so eager to try out in the band..surely the sound will be damn nice! haha.
and played gh3, through the fire and flames hard difficulty, mirul helped me record it.
so thats all...going to bed...
gud nite and have a swit dream suhana.. =)
semoge tuhan akan sentiase melindungi euu..
oh btw guys, if i didnt contact or sms my friends for like, a week or so, means something bad happenned to me or something is wrong. so, do take note yah...
fuh...tired...pain..
i just done my workout, although my right arm is having this cramp due to the bowling game on monday. not giving up though. must workout everynight, maintain my fitness..hahaha.
yeah, gotten the encouragement by my dad, grandfather, abg sedare and mahdi..
i bought the dumbell for $88 last 2weeks ago..
now the dumbell i workout 5kg per hand.
so if both hands, total 10kg.
25 counts and 5 push-ups per set. i done 4 or 5 sets every night
hmm..so, total of 100-125 times lifting up and down 10kg of dumbell and 25 push-ups.
sooner or later i gonna lifting heavier weight. ^^
juz now, something shocked me. haha, an email received by friendster, i knew someone must have given me a comment. i thought it was just a normal, ordinary comment..but somehow..
she's the one that gave it to me. i was like, "wah, tibe2 kasi comment..baik nye nana." hahahax
to me, if she gave me a sudden comment, well i treated it as special one. lol. hahaha, seriously..
hmm, she wrote to me,
hie..
nice pic
euu have dear...
haha...
my bestest3 friend....
weeee....
n nice profile....
(:
aww..she's soooo kind and sweet...
on the same time i sms her, told her thanks very much and i will gave her comment back too, i promised. haha. yeah..
and my promised i do kept it. few mins later, i wrote back and gave it to her ^^
hmm...mirul came to my house juz now, teasing me, kacau me and enjoying with the new guitar gadget. we were like so eager to try out in the band..surely the sound will be damn nice! haha.
and played gh3, through the fire and flames hard difficulty, mirul helped me record it.
so thats all...going to bed...
gud nite and have a swit dream suhana.. =)
semoge tuhan akan sentiase melindungi euu..
oh btw guys, if i didnt contact or sms my friends for like, a week or so, means something bad happenned to me or something is wrong. so, do take note yah...
Video taken my Amirul (Ketam). Thanks!
12:59 AM
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Tuesday, Outing Day!!! ^^
And New Haircut Day!! :D
hahaha...
My new haircut ^^ 
Yup..again. showing off in reflection style. ^^ Today is the day we going for jalan2, shopping, eyewashing...lols.
But before i go out and meet them, i had my haircut in the morning..
woke up at 9am+ getting ready for myself, and off to Woodlands Mart
Got a haircut by Mat Rock...XD hahaha..cool man..
after the haircut, bought my mum's so-called lunch..
and then, gone home, take a rest, take a shower, getting ready, and off to Cwp where the meet-up place is.
But before i go out and meet them, i had my haircut in the morning..
woke up at 9am+ getting ready for myself, and off to Woodlands Mart
Got a haircut by Mat Rock...XD hahaha..cool man..
after the haircut, bought my mum's so-called lunch..
and then, gone home, take a rest, take a shower, getting ready, and off to Cwp where the meet-up place is.
Mirul came first at 1pm, supposely should meet at 1.30pm, but he kinda...Sooo early..hahaha
wait for everyone else. All together have 8 people.
Fadz came, then Sab, then mahdi, suhaimi..mubarak and hasif quite late
mubarak must go makan at his house, cause his mum asked him to, so me and mirul just go makan at LJS(Long John Silver). sab and fadz accompany us while suhaimi accompany mahdi went out to smoke.
blablabla, everything done, mumu came, we all go to Orchard first. Susu, mahdi and hasif gone to Chinatown, cause they wanna see and buy magic items. so ok, we will meeting each other at bugis later on. so left 5, 3 seperated.
reached at Orchard, went to this palce called "wisma atria". Sab and Fadz do their shopping at there, left 3 of us, just go jalan2 at there. on our way, we've found this cookie stall. Famous Amos.
wait for everyone else. All together have 8 people.
Fadz came, then Sab, then mahdi, suhaimi..mubarak and hasif quite late
mubarak must go makan at his house, cause his mum asked him to, so me and mirul just go makan at LJS(Long John Silver). sab and fadz accompany us while suhaimi accompany mahdi went out to smoke.
blablabla, everything done, mumu came, we all go to Orchard first. Susu, mahdi and hasif gone to Chinatown, cause they wanna see and buy magic items. so ok, we will meeting each other at bugis later on. so left 5, 3 seperated.
reached at Orchard, went to this palce called "wisma atria". Sab and Fadz do their shopping at there, left 3 of us, just go jalan2 at there. on our way, we've found this cookie stall. Famous Amos.
The cookies looked delicious, but when u see the price, "Kebaboom". Harge meletup babe..
mahal lah seh...100g $4.90, 300g $14.90. lols
giler seh..mahal gitu...
oh well, since its like first time trying it, i bought it anyway -.-"
bought 100g, the one looks like double chocolate. and when i taste it..first thing came out in my mind.."WAH!!" "Sooo The Sedap."
hahaha...
mahal lah seh...100g $4.90, 300g $14.90. lols
giler seh..mahal gitu...
oh well, since its like first time trying it, i bought it anyway -.-"
bought 100g, the one looks like double chocolate. and when i taste it..first thing came out in my mind.."WAH!!" "Sooo The Sedap."
hahaha...
all the shopping done, then next stop, Bugis!
jalan2 at bugis street, look here, look there, mirul macam nak pengsan...
cause he's not the type who like to go buy all clothing stuff..
what i can recalled he said "Next time aku tanak jejak kat sini lagi...tk leh tahan."
lol! boring uhh member..
Amirul, Mie and Mubarak at Wisma Atria entrance
Infront of Bugis Street, taking a break. taken by mubarakAfter met everyone at Bugis, Khairah, our ex-classmate joined in as well. They wanna go makan, so we all go makan...at LJS again...haiyoh..spend my money lots at LJS sia..
After makan, we gone to Clarke Quay, but khairah didnt follow, left 7 of us, so at there take the breeze, lepak2 kat sane...yelah...breeze air sungai..bagos kan tu...hahahaha.
boleh uhh, enjoy jugak, berbual2..photo whoring....tengok sane sini...hasif do some of his trick. he and mahdi have a smoke at there also..mirul...termenong
around 8pm+ we going home. but mahdi and hasif still wanna stay there. so we seperated at there again. left 5 of us again. took the bus 851 all the way to yishun, then took 169 off to Woodlands interchange, then all going home, fadz take 900, sab and susu take 911, me and mubarak take 913. mumu came my house. have some fun by playing Call Of Duty 4 PC game.
and also planned the gadget sounds for our songs that we played. and we gotten all of the sounds that we wanted. ^^
so thats all. here's all the photo around. enjoy!
Mie! ^^
Mie & Mubarak (Mumu)!!
3 besties yaw! Sab, Fadz, and Mie!! :D
Yeah. Fadz & MieMy first lovely ex =)
3 boys.1:56 AM
Nothing to do at KFC, borrowed mahdi's hpshared the same photo ^^
taken by mirul anyway
thanks man
I'm the new magician..muahahaha. jkborrowed the magic card from mahdi
photo taken by amirul
thanks yaw!
Last 2 days on Monday
in the afternoon, i gone to susu(Suhaimi) house to repair his new computer, he said his desktop didnt showed up anything. It just plain, blank screen. So, i knew there were missing files or corrupted. Entah ape lah dier dah buat kat comp nye...jangan2 dier rogol computer nye tk...hahahaha..
anyway, he said he doesnt have the window vista installation disc, that was weired though. beli comp baru, beh tk kasi CD window...pandai uhh kedai nye...haiyoh..but then there is the serial key pasted at his cpu. so lucky him, i brought my CD window, install it, using his serial key.
Thank God! everything is perfectly done like what i thought in the first place.
Thank God! everything is perfectly done like what i thought in the first place.
So, while waiting for his computer reboot, re-install, done here, done there, i played his guitar for the moment and he bought a new Guitar Gadget!!!! wah!!! branded and cool sia...should be expensive, he said he bought it $500+... o.O
macam tk leh caye je....haha, and also i saw his new bowling ball.
so i was thinking if we wanna go bowling this evening, so we planned and everything settled.
the whole band met up! wooo...the whole band goes for bowling man...hahahaha...cool ke pe...
there's the video below, do check it out yah..
came back home at 12mn+. heh...kene marah dari bapak ku... T_T
The video that the band goes for bowling.
Enjoy!! ^^
1:08 AM
Monday, June 23, 2008
wooo...yesterday night i slept like sleeping beauty..
from 2am till 9am today, straight sleeping, no wake up or disturbance..gosh i love it ^^
well, before i gone to bed, i have chat with my bestie, yasmin. long tyme didnt talk or see her though.
and at 8pm+ she tagg me in the tagbox, suhana, gave me her new url.
i knew she changed it...hahaha..
anyway, after she tagged me, i tag back saying thank you, and then sms her..i noticed that her link to her lil' sis has a problem, so i asked her if i could help, but she replied, its k btw thanks.
so, i just go on and help her, i know she doesnt want me to menyusahkan diri, but its ok.
im willing to help anyway..nothing wrong helping someone :D
so i told her, nvm lah i go and betolkan, and also remind her not to sleep late, cause today skul re-open. hah...kecian, need to go to skul back...
i log in into her account, made some correction about her link html,
and then, taaa-daaa...its ok alreadi =)
at around 10pm, she sms me using her mum's hp, thank me for asking her to sleep early,
and her prepaid low, and said bye..
so, now i know why she didnt replied ealier, her prepaid low...haiyah..
didnt replied her back, cause she going to bed if im not wrong.
and awww....she said thank you for asking her to sleep early..hahaha, i know she appriciate it..hee ^^
cause no one ever say thanks to me when i reminded them -.-"
well she's the first one to say thanks. hahahahax
maybe later i'll go and help her top up her prepaid using the axs machine secretly..sshhh..
hmm, maybe $10? or $15...i dont know...see how's my mood. hahahhaax XD
thanks to sab, now i know we could top up for someone using axs..heh
i felt better after i sms her..
and i felt worried for some reason..
later 2pm i got my piano lesson..
now i just took my lunch; Collon Chocolate biscuit roll and a can of redbull
what....??at least its still a food...and im full after i ate that. lols...
ouhk thats all...updating later. outs!
from 2am till 9am today, straight sleeping, no wake up or disturbance..gosh i love it ^^
well, before i gone to bed, i have chat with my bestie, yasmin. long tyme didnt talk or see her though.
and at 8pm+ she tagg me in the tagbox, suhana, gave me her new url.
i knew she changed it...hahaha..
anyway, after she tagged me, i tag back saying thank you, and then sms her..i noticed that her link to her lil' sis has a problem, so i asked her if i could help, but she replied, its k btw thanks.
so, i just go on and help her, i know she doesnt want me to menyusahkan diri, but its ok.
im willing to help anyway..nothing wrong helping someone :D
so i told her, nvm lah i go and betolkan, and also remind her not to sleep late, cause today skul re-open. hah...kecian, need to go to skul back...
i log in into her account, made some correction about her link html,
and then, taaa-daaa...its ok alreadi =)
at around 10pm, she sms me using her mum's hp, thank me for asking her to sleep early,
and her prepaid low, and said bye..
so, now i know why she didnt replied ealier, her prepaid low...haiyah..
didnt replied her back, cause she going to bed if im not wrong.
and awww....she said thank you for asking her to sleep early..hahaha, i know she appriciate it..hee ^^
cause no one ever say thanks to me when i reminded them -.-"
well she's the first one to say thanks. hahahahax
maybe later i'll go and help her top up her prepaid using the axs machine secretly..sshhh..
hmm, maybe $10? or $15...i dont know...see how's my mood. hahahhaax XD
thanks to sab, now i know we could top up for someone using axs..heh
i felt better after i sms her..
and i felt worried for some reason..
later 2pm i got my piano lesson..
now i just took my lunch; Collon Chocolate biscuit roll and a can of redbull
what....??at least its still a food...and im full after i ate that. lols...
ouhk thats all...updating later. outs!
12:12 PM
Sunday, June 22, 2008
i just woke up from my sleep..
damn freaking tired..
somehow i gotten this "dream" just now..
I met her in this one place..
then she asked me,
"Ahmad, you got everything right?"
"All the stuffs. You got everything that you need?"
Then i told her,
"Yeah...Sort of..I got all things"
"Why you ask me that? Told you to come my house so you would know how my life is."
then she giggled and said,
"hahaha, tengok lah dulu. mie tk free uhh..saje2 tanye."
But somehow, its like i am talking to her in reality, talking in her mind.
i dont know where is she right now, but, does she gotten this "Vision" too?
hmm...
guess, i going back to sleep. nth else to do.
damn freaking tired..
somehow i gotten this "dream" just now..
I met her in this one place..
then she asked me,
"Ahmad, you got everything right?"
"All the stuffs. You got everything that you need?"
Then i told her,
"Yeah...Sort of..I got all things"
"Why you ask me that? Told you to come my house so you would know how my life is."
then she giggled and said,
"hahaha, tengok lah dulu. mie tk free uhh..saje2 tanye."
But somehow, its like i am talking to her in reality, talking in her mind.
i dont know where is she right now, but, does she gotten this "Vision" too?
hmm...
guess, i going back to sleep. nth else to do.
3:41 PM
[Talking:]
This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn’t realize it at the time
I can’t forgive myself for the way
I treated you soI don’t really expect you to either
It’s just... I don’t even know
Just listen…
You’re the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel
That wasn’t me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies
I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt
But I didn’t know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn’t care when push came to shove
If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly
I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don’t know how I could do you so wrong
I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one else could know you
You’re number one, always in my heart
And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart
[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]
I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart
At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain
Damn it, I’m insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work
What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me
I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I’m not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind
[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]
[Talking:]
I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…
No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart
You’ll always be my baby
Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse
We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there
I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care
Remember the times?
Remember when we kissed?
I didn’t think you would ever do me like this
I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed
I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess
You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying
Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying
[Chorus:]
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you [2x]
[Talking:]
And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we’ll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy
12:49 PM
4 days had passed and i still counting it
I just came back from Woodlands Mart, bought lunch for my mum and myself.
It's been 2 days I havent eat a thing. cause my appetite lost during that time..
now, i bought myself minced chicken noodle.
the foodseller, she still remembered me. she asked me how come its been long time i didnt come and buy anything from her stall, so i told her, im quite busy this few days and need to help my mum.
she understand and somehow gave me extra fried sliced chicken
..thats very kind of her to do so..
yesterday night gone out with fadz and sab. they asked me to accompany them to admiralty and Cwp..so i followed them.
i try and forget all the things that happenned around me, but somehow fadz let me listen to this song. i listened it, i kept quiet by myself. holding back my tears.
the song was about the same as my hip-hop crew.
some of the lyrics are about the same as our's.
my goodness fadz...why you let me listen to that in the first place..
but its ok..i not blaming you, thanks for the song anyway..
and thanks for the bubble tea you bought for me..
erm..i guess i will update again later...
i wanna take my lunch...
by the way, do listen to the new song i added to my jukebox.. its called, "You were my everything"...
im sorry..
*off*
12:31 PM
Saturday, June 21, 2008
uhhh...
I didnt qualify for round 3...
darn it..
oh well..guess thats my luck anyway. heh ^^
I didnt qualify for round 3...
darn it..
oh well..guess thats my luck anyway. heh ^^
11:47 PM
dear blog..
im changing everything for the better..
nothing scares me, nothing make me afraid.
whatever obstacles are heading my way, im fighting for it
history will repeat itself? im gonna make myself useful by re-writing the whole story..
who says we cant? believe in ourself, and we can achieve anything. ^^
and...
eh...today is the 21st of June?
omg, i forgot about my competition, im in the 2nd round..
urgh..i hate when this happens..haha
well, i nid to go to suntec by 1pm.
so all the best for my 2nd round guitar hero 3 competition.
1 more day till primary school and secondary school holidays ends.
all the best for her studies and subjects..
and please concentrate and study more on your subjects okies?
dun be lazy and watch tv the whole day *bluek :p
hahahaha..take care!
i'll be back whenever.
im changing everything for the better..
nothing scares me, nothing make me afraid.
whatever obstacles are heading my way, im fighting for it
history will repeat itself? im gonna make myself useful by re-writing the whole story..
who says we cant? believe in ourself, and we can achieve anything. ^^
and...
eh...today is the 21st of June?
omg, i forgot about my competition, im in the 2nd round..
urgh..i hate when this happens..haha
well, i nid to go to suntec by 1pm.
so all the best for my 2nd round guitar hero 3 competition.
1 more day till primary school and secondary school holidays ends.
all the best for her studies and subjects..
and please concentrate and study more on your subjects okies?
dun be lazy and watch tv the whole day *bluek :p
hahahaha..take care!
i'll be back whenever.
10:29 AM
how fast time flies
memories playing around my mind
it cant be erased no matter what i've done
cause it will always repeated one more time
i remebered the first phonecall that we shared,
we were laughing so much and you giggle everytime
i remebered the time you cried so much,
so much because of your problems, but i managed to solve and help you
i remebered the day you said you liked me,
but somehow you cant accept me as your life parter cause you weren't ready yet
you said you cant accept me,
but somehow during that 3 days, you said to me "I love you"
and you sms me with the word "sayang"
i remembered the day we had our biggest conflict
that was the time we were tearing apart ourself
you giving up yourself, you giving up our friendship and feelings
it was neither me nor you at fault because of that incident..
at that night, after midnight, you called me
its hard for you to leave me
same goes to me
both of us were crying so much and i cant even take it myself..
and when i said something..
you felt scared and worried, you even asked me this,
"why are you sounded like you leaving me..?"
in the end, i made a promised.
i made a promised not to leave you no matter what happens
i told you, "dont give up yourself.."
"you have the heart of a lion"
"you were brave and alot of courage inside you"
"and whatever happens, i will support you from behind"
"i will always be here for you"
you said thank you like about dozen of times
you appriciate to have someone like me in your life
you seek my help whenever you needed one
i remembered in your blog,
you wrote that im the first guy to know about your promoted rank and badges
i remembered in you blog,
you wrote that im the one make you happy always..
even if there's a big/small problems, i used to be there for you whenever
you wrote this like more than 4 or 5 times..
i knew when you wrote this, that means you appriciate me alot
i remembered your best friends friendship is tearing apart
you called me, you cried so much..you cried non-stop.. alot of sorrows around you
i heard your sadness, i heard you sorrows, i pity you so much
i try all my best to calm you down, to help you and cheer you up
in the end, my effort paid off. you sounded happy once again..
starting of june
you wrote a new post in your blog on 13th of June
that very post touches my heart
i somehow cried after i read it
but you didnt know
that tears of happiness running down my cheek
the next few days, you wrote about your ex
that was the time i gotten my jealousy
but somehow, i accidentally recalled back my secondary lives
this is the time i would blame myself
this is the time im at fault because of this ;
how saddening it is to have people around me that didnt appriciate me
pushing me around, bullying me..shouting and swearing at me during sec 1 and 2
sec 3 and sec 4, i stand up by myself.
how saddening it is to have people around me that didnt appriciate me
pushing me around, bullying me..shouting and swearing at me during sec 1 and 2
sec 3 and sec 4, i stand up by myself.
all those things are getting lesser each day
in the end, i gotten the friends that i deserved
3 of them during my secondary life..
starting of this year, 1 have been added to my list, which is you
in the end, i gotten the friends that i deserved
3 of them during my secondary life..
starting of this year, 1 have been added to my list, which is you
i remembered that i told you alot of time,
that the story has nothing to do with you
but you're too confuse and you put yourself in it afterwards
i try my best to stop it
but i not sure, whether it ended..
or not?
a few days later till now, things went complicated
you giving up yourself again, same as before
history repeated itself once more..
but this time, im changing the story,
i will re-write it whenever i could
i remembered you said,
that was the last phonecall
you were crying and said thank you for the call
i didnt give up on you or myself somehow
cause i put alot of faith within ourself
i've come to your place on 18th of June
to see your family, and also you
that was the night, that i gave you the kiss
because maybe, that was the last we would see each other
and i wanted you to remember me forever and ever
now, 3 days had pass.
and i still counting bout it
no matter what happens,
im not giving up on you, on us,
cause it'll be the biggest mistake if i did
my phone will always be on for you to call
i will always be here waiting for your call
i will be there for you if you needed me
my heart will always be open for you to come in
:)
Oh and by the way, i purposely didnt ask back my pda.
so i could see and talk with you again. nyahahaha :P
im smart right? lol ^^
take care and do cheer up! *wink
7:56 AM
Friday, June 20, 2008
I Love You
My dearest, most bestest3 friend..
9:37 PM
I Love You
My most bestest3 friend..
Maybe..my story will end soon..
But...
Maybe not..
9:37 PM
Everyday i kept thinking
whether i wanna renewed myself or not..
If i did,
whether i wanna renewed myself or not..
If i did,
it will be renewal..
no one would ever know me
no one would easily see me
no one will be able to contacting me easily
friends and loves one would be hurt by me
But if i dont.. what must i do?
i need a break..
i need to be alone for awhile
or longer..maybe..
but i dont want to say
farewell or goodbye
its really painful
its really hurtful
Whatever it is
i will still wait for her
even if it takes for 2 years
or 4 years
or more
It can be done
cause i've done it before
and there's nothing can stop me from doing so....
no one would easily see me
no one will be able to contacting me easily
friends and loves one would be hurt by me
But if i dont.. what must i do?
i need a break..
i need to be alone for awhile
or longer..maybe..
but i dont want to say
farewell or goodbye
its really painful
its really hurtful
Whatever it is
i will still wait for her
even if it takes for 2 years
or 4 years
or more
It can be done
cause i've done it before
and there's nothing can stop me from doing so....
4:08 PM
there is one day
a day that is so stormy and scary
the rain fall so heavy
till making everyone so worry
a day that is so stormy and scary
the rain fall so heavy
till making everyone so worry
i was lucky my life didnt end during that time
is was wednesday afternoon 18th of June
its a rain that i've been playing around before
but it wasnt the condition of how i expected to be..
there was a thunder
a thunder that was so loud
so loud like there's a gunshot beside my ears
my ears was temporarily deaf for a few seconds
i cant hear a single thing
there was a lightning
a lightning was so bright
so bright that it somehow blinded my eyes
my eyes were flashed temporarily for a few seconds
i cant see a single thing
imagine if im using any electronic device during that moment
such as handphone or holding a tall object
if i wasnt that lucky
my heart would have been struck by lightning
my life would have just ended that way
just in an instance
what if im gone?
what will happen to my family?
what will happen to my friends?
and..
what will happen to her? my love one?
i dont want my life to end right now
i want to live my life till the fullest
i want to be with the one i love
as i will not leave her behind no matter what happens
as i will not leave her behind no matter what happens
12:03 PM
He still remember the promise
the promise that he made during that very night
the promise that he made during that very night
that very night when him and her dont want to loose or leave each other
till now he still keep that promise safely and secure in his heart
for the past 6 months
his love is so strong
so strong that nothing could bring him down
he will face any circumstances
he will stand up and fight
just for her
just for their love
till now he still love her
till now he still love her
not only by saying the words
but showing her and gave her a kiss
to her smooth cheek
now, he missing her badly
cause he so-so addicted to her
now, she also missing him badly
cause she falling in love so-so deeply
Their love was so strong
So strong like a great wall of china
he wants her beautiful eyes
to stare and admire at it
he wants her pretty looks
to see and adore at it
he wants her straight hair
to play and smell at it
he wants her smooth hands
to hold and not to let go of it
he wants her sweet lips
to kiss and to show more of his love
he wants her lovely heart
to be together as one
"Dear, where are you?"
"I want you right now"
"I want your hug, I want your kiss"
"I want your heart to be mine"
"I cant wait any longer"
"I cant move on any further"
"Cause I'm worried I might loose you.."
"..maybe in the next few hours"
"I am better than your ex"
"I am better than your next"
"Deep inside your heart,
it says that I am truely the best"
2:33 AM
Thursday, June 19, 2008
A song that I just played this morning.
It's been 4 months I didn't played this song.
But somehow, I felt like playing it again, especially for someone special.
Now, the song is dedicate to someone special, it's for her.
Hope euu love it.
3:51 PM
Euu may fall from the sky,
Euu may fall from the tree,
But the best way to fall..
is in love with me
I wrote your name in my heart..
and forever it will stays..
I lied on my bed
always kept thinking of euu
euu always make me happy..
and euu touched my heart in a way no One else did before
Whatever happens in the past, present or future,
my heart will always be available for euu
I enjoy every moment being with euu
and I want to be with the One I heart; which is euu
Nothing is ever too late in this world
and nothing is impossible to be done in this world..
_______________________________________
Give yourself another chance
cause euu already gotten the hope and love from him
the only thing now is to make the move
have a faith to the person euu love and yourself..
cause if euu did, euu will not regret it
euu will love it for the rest of your life
cause euu know, he's the right one for your life..
dont wait any longer
dont hesitate any further
dont run away from it
dont give up in yourself..
there's nothing to be afraid
and there's nothing to be fear of..
cause euu trust him perfectly
and your feelings towards him are getting stronger each day..
euu always made him the top in your list
euu always seek for his help
cause euu know he will always be there for euu
and euu always appriciate his kindness, care and concern..
whether euu angry, made a mistakes or made false a promise at him
he always have patience with euu
no matter how hard, how difficult and how hurtful it can be
he still waiting for euu, waiting for your love, waiting for your care & concern
cause he will never ever give up on euu
his heart is already meant for euu
and no one could replace his heart anymore..
and believe it, its the same goes to euu
your heart is meant for him too
and no one could replace him in your heart anymore..
Euu may fall from the tree,
But the best way to fall..
is in love with me
I wrote your name in my heart..
and forever it will stays..
I lied on my bed
always kept thinking of euu
euu always make me happy..
and euu touched my heart in a way no One else did before
Whatever happens in the past, present or future,
my heart will always be available for euu
I enjoy every moment being with euu
and I want to be with the One I heart; which is euu
Nothing is ever too late in this world
and nothing is impossible to be done in this world..
_______________________________________
Give yourself another chance
cause euu already gotten the hope and love from him
the only thing now is to make the move
have a faith to the person euu love and yourself..
cause if euu did, euu will not regret it
euu will love it for the rest of your life
cause euu know, he's the right one for your life..
dont wait any longer
dont hesitate any further
dont run away from it
dont give up in yourself..
there's nothing to be afraid
and there's nothing to be fear of..
cause euu trust him perfectly
and your feelings towards him are getting stronger each day..
euu always made him the top in your list
euu always seek for his help
cause euu know he will always be there for euu
and euu always appriciate his kindness, care and concern..
whether euu angry, made a mistakes or made false a promise at him
he always have patience with euu
no matter how hard, how difficult and how hurtful it can be
he still waiting for euu, waiting for your love, waiting for your care & concern
cause he will never ever give up on euu
his heart is already meant for euu
and no one could replace his heart anymore..
and believe it, its the same goes to euu
your heart is meant for him too
and no one could replace him in your heart anymore..
11:18 AM
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
*The Kiss For Her*
i managed to meet her..
i managed to see her pretty face..
im able to see her sweet smile..
im able to see her tears coming down from her beautiful eyes..
im able to hold her smooth hands..
im making my move..before its too late..
i closed my eyes, and move right beside her..
i gave her the kiss..the kiss at her left cheek..
my mind went blank all of a sudden..
i felt the feeling of love after the kiss..
i holding up my tears...im chocking my tears..
cause i dont want to let her see..
i saw her reaction...a sudden shocked..
she smiled..she blushed..she felt it..
she hold my hands..to accompany her back home..
on my way home..i cried..
i recall back the moment just now..
never-ending tears kept falling down..
i cant control it..
i will Cherish this memorable moment..
i dont want to forget this precious moment..
i dont want to loose her..
i only want her love, her care, her concern as before..
i want her hug..her kiss..her smooth hands..
no one else..nothing else..but her
i dont want our time to end..
i want to keep on moving with her..
i will not give up on her..
and i will always wait for her call..
:')
i managed to see her pretty face..
im able to see her sweet smile..
im able to see her tears coming down from her beautiful eyes..
im able to hold her smooth hands..
im making my move..before its too late..
i closed my eyes, and move right beside her..
i gave her the kiss..the kiss at her left cheek..
my mind went blank all of a sudden..
i felt the feeling of love after the kiss..
i holding up my tears...im chocking my tears..
cause i dont want to let her see..
i saw her reaction...a sudden shocked..
she smiled..she blushed..she felt it..
she hold my hands..to accompany her back home..
on my way home..i cried..
i recall back the moment just now..
never-ending tears kept falling down..
i cant control it..
i will Cherish this memorable moment..
i dont want to forget this precious moment..
i dont want to loose her..
i only want her love, her care, her concern as before..
i want her hug..her kiss..her smooth hands..
no one else..nothing else..but her
i dont want our time to end..
i want to keep on moving with her..
i will not give up on her..
and i will always wait for her call..
:')
9:10 PM
dedicated
a song that is truely dedicated for her..
for euu...suhana..
*A Whole New World*
I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?
I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride
A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming
A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you
Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky
A whole new world
(Don't you dare close your eyes )
A hundred thousand things to see
(Hold your breath - it gets better )
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be
A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red-letter
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you
A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me
for euu...suhana..
*A Whole New World*
I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?
I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride
A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming
A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you
Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky
A whole new world
(Don't you dare close your eyes )
A hundred thousand things to see
(Hold your breath - it gets better )
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be
A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red-letter
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you
A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me
2:23 PM
the message..
Im gonna type out the things that i talked to her yesterday night..
so, maybe she could refer to it again..
For the last 6 months, we been getting together, chatting, phone calling and coming by ur house more often. There always been bad times and good times. But somehow, we managed to solve it together. We even shared the same feeling and experience. Right now, i know things were already complicated and euu getting confuse each day.
Please dont do something that euu dont want to. dont make urself suffer right now. euu already making urself hurt before; remember the conflict last 5 months ago? Euu said euu wanna stop contacting each other, take our own path.. and euu cried so much. everyday ur tears will kept streaming down till there's a heavy downpour..
But somehow, euu changed into the better by having me and giving me chance to support and helped euu in ur life. euu really appriciate about it, cause euu said having me around is the best thing in ur life.
Euu said euu wanna changed? which will took 2-4 months or more. i know when euu said that means euu not gonna contact anymore. but dont euu remember the promise between us? and euu even trying ur best to seek me for help for teaching euu about ur subjects, helping euu out for ur 'N' level exam..i know u're a girl that dont break any promises..
im telling euu everything right now. having euu around is the best thing in my life..loving euu will never stop me from doing so.
seorang gadis, yg suci, yg baik, yg baik hati, yg sopan-santun..ader di depan i..dier larh yg bername suhana, yg ceriah...
6 bulan i cintekan euu, i sayangkan euu, i kenal2 dgn ibu euu..i buat ape saje utk dptkan hati euu.
i slalu nk dptkan perhatian euu..kebanyakan lelaki suke show off, kate i love you sane sini, utk dptkan hati seorang pompan. tapi bukan i..i tunjokkan percintaan dan kesayangan euu and keluarge euu..i buat keluarge euu seperti keluarge i jugak..
skrg i tanak kehilangan euu, bukan senang nk cari gadis yg same seperti euu..
5 tahun...5 tahun i cari seorang gadis seperti euu, skrg i dah jumpe, i dah kenal, dah semakin rapat. i sangat bersyukur kerane jumpe euu..dari 6 bulan yg i kenal euu sampai skrg, tiap2 malam i tetap doakan euu..i tanak perkare burok terjadi kepade euu, kalau terjadi, i betol2 menangis untuk euu..
pompan lain mintak stead dgn i, i batalkan mereke...pasal i tanak dipermainkan lagi..hati i hanye untuk euu..kerane i nk yg ikhlas seperti euu..i tahu yg euu pun nk seseorang yg ikhlas, yang appriciate euu..euu pernah marahkan i, i diamkan diri aje..pasal i tanak marah, tanak gadoh dgn euu..euu tolong i, i amat gembire..amat bersyukur..sampai skrg i slalu jage perasaan euu, slalu bersabar dgn euu..
im making my move right now. i nk tanye soalan ni..euu sudi nk jadi teman pompan i?
euu able to accept me as ur life partner? i want euu to think throughout carefully..i know euu confused right now, thats why im helping euu and sedarkan euu..cause i want euu to walk on the right path, so euu will nt make the same mistake again..perasaan i betol2 rase sakit semase euu telah dipermainkan, ditipu, heartbroken..
euu pikir betol2..
euu nk bersame dgn ex euu? yg pernah menyakitkan hati euu, pernah mainkan perasaan euu, pernah tipu euu...atau dgn seorang lelaki yg euu tk cukup kenal? tk contact slalu, then tk tahu perangai dorang?
atau euu nk dgn i? yg euu skrg tengah jatuh cinte kepadenye. yg sgt penting bagi hidup euu, yg slalu menolong euu, slalu contact euu, slalu appriciate euu ape saje yg euu buat, dan slalu buat euu dan ibu euu gembire...
euu pikir lah betol2..
euu slalu senang ditipu..i tanak euu ditipu lagi..i nk euu adekan hidup yg gembire sekali..
That is what i talked to her on the phone last night..
the call..the last call..
all i heard is she crying..dier nangis tersedu-sedu..
i want her to know everything, because its better to realise now than later..
cause if she didnt think carefully, things will end up bad again..
that is what i hate when she's hurt..i hate to see her hurt, heartbroken, letting her emotion being played again..
all i want is to see her enjoying her life, manage to pass her N lvl this year..
wanting to see her happy always..giving her hope to love again..
that is what i swear & promise to myself...
pls dun made that the last phone call..i dun wanna miss ur voice badly..
i wanna hear ur voice everynight..which always cheer me up..
selame euu ader dalam hidup i, selagi itu euu tk akan pernah hancurkan jiwe dan hidup i..
tetapi kalau euu nk tinggalkan i,
hendak menghilangkan diri euu,
itu lah masenye yg hidup dan diri i akan dihancur..
so, maybe she could refer to it again..
For the last 6 months, we been getting together, chatting, phone calling and coming by ur house more often. There always been bad times and good times. But somehow, we managed to solve it together. We even shared the same feeling and experience. Right now, i know things were already complicated and euu getting confuse each day.
Please dont do something that euu dont want to. dont make urself suffer right now. euu already making urself hurt before; remember the conflict last 5 months ago? Euu said euu wanna stop contacting each other, take our own path.. and euu cried so much. everyday ur tears will kept streaming down till there's a heavy downpour..
But somehow, euu changed into the better by having me and giving me chance to support and helped euu in ur life. euu really appriciate about it, cause euu said having me around is the best thing in ur life.
Euu said euu wanna changed? which will took 2-4 months or more. i know when euu said that means euu not gonna contact anymore. but dont euu remember the promise between us? and euu even trying ur best to seek me for help for teaching euu about ur subjects, helping euu out for ur 'N' level exam..i know u're a girl that dont break any promises..
im telling euu everything right now. having euu around is the best thing in my life..loving euu will never stop me from doing so.
seorang gadis, yg suci, yg baik, yg baik hati, yg sopan-santun..ader di depan i..dier larh yg bername suhana, yg ceriah...
6 bulan i cintekan euu, i sayangkan euu, i kenal2 dgn ibu euu..i buat ape saje utk dptkan hati euu.
i slalu nk dptkan perhatian euu..kebanyakan lelaki suke show off, kate i love you sane sini, utk dptkan hati seorang pompan. tapi bukan i..i tunjokkan percintaan dan kesayangan euu and keluarge euu..i buat keluarge euu seperti keluarge i jugak..
skrg i tanak kehilangan euu, bukan senang nk cari gadis yg same seperti euu..
5 tahun...5 tahun i cari seorang gadis seperti euu, skrg i dah jumpe, i dah kenal, dah semakin rapat. i sangat bersyukur kerane jumpe euu..dari 6 bulan yg i kenal euu sampai skrg, tiap2 malam i tetap doakan euu..i tanak perkare burok terjadi kepade euu, kalau terjadi, i betol2 menangis untuk euu..
pompan lain mintak stead dgn i, i batalkan mereke...pasal i tanak dipermainkan lagi..hati i hanye untuk euu..kerane i nk yg ikhlas seperti euu..i tahu yg euu pun nk seseorang yg ikhlas, yang appriciate euu..euu pernah marahkan i, i diamkan diri aje..pasal i tanak marah, tanak gadoh dgn euu..euu tolong i, i amat gembire..amat bersyukur..sampai skrg i slalu jage perasaan euu, slalu bersabar dgn euu..
im making my move right now. i nk tanye soalan ni..euu sudi nk jadi teman pompan i?
euu able to accept me as ur life partner? i want euu to think throughout carefully..i know euu confused right now, thats why im helping euu and sedarkan euu..cause i want euu to walk on the right path, so euu will nt make the same mistake again..perasaan i betol2 rase sakit semase euu telah dipermainkan, ditipu, heartbroken..
euu pikir betol2..
euu nk bersame dgn ex euu? yg pernah menyakitkan hati euu, pernah mainkan perasaan euu, pernah tipu euu...atau dgn seorang lelaki yg euu tk cukup kenal? tk contact slalu, then tk tahu perangai dorang?
atau euu nk dgn i? yg euu skrg tengah jatuh cinte kepadenye. yg sgt penting bagi hidup euu, yg slalu menolong euu, slalu contact euu, slalu appriciate euu ape saje yg euu buat, dan slalu buat euu dan ibu euu gembire...
euu pikir lah betol2..
euu slalu senang ditipu..i tanak euu ditipu lagi..i nk euu adekan hidup yg gembire sekali..
That is what i talked to her on the phone last night..
the call..the last call..
all i heard is she crying..dier nangis tersedu-sedu..
i want her to know everything, because its better to realise now than later..
cause if she didnt think carefully, things will end up bad again..
that is what i hate when she's hurt..i hate to see her hurt, heartbroken, letting her emotion being played again..
all i want is to see her enjoying her life, manage to pass her N lvl this year..
wanting to see her happy always..giving her hope to love again..
that is what i swear & promise to myself...
pls dun made that the last phone call..i dun wanna miss ur voice badly..
i wanna hear ur voice everynight..which always cheer me up..
selame euu ader dalam hidup i, selagi itu euu tk akan pernah hancurkan jiwe dan hidup i..
tetapi kalau euu nk tinggalkan i,
hendak menghilangkan diri euu,
itu lah masenye yg hidup dan diri i akan dihancur..
8:48 AM
OMG
Oh My God...
i cant believe it's all misunderstanding...she did read my blog, i appriciate it...
but somehow, there's a part that she misunderstood it..
gosh! tk sangke leh terjadi pulak..
yah..the one i referring to those who not appriciate all the good deeds i done, and just treat me like a dog, taking advantage is some of my friends and my ex classmates..
its true...for the past 4 yrs, i kept thinking bout it, all the things that i done, you guys didnt appriciate me at all. you guys just pushing me around, making me like a fool and taking advantages of it. shouting here and there, bullying me around...i do remember during sec 1 and 2 ok. i still remember clearly..damn you guys..if that time i was brave enough, i would have choke you guys to death.
the people around me that DO appriciate me is Sabrina, Fadzillah, Mahdi and her...Suhana..
i know them well...i know them very well..thats why i treasured them..thats why i trusted them.
whenever im down, whenever i sick or whenever im in a problem. 4 of them...surely help me..
Sabrina...always cheer me up, giving faith and support and blanje me also. coming to the end of sec 4, that is the time we getting along. lol. i syg her as my bestie ^^
Fadzillah...she used to be my ex during sec 1...ryte now, we were close friends, we were besties.
she normally always be there for me..when im sick...i was forced to eat medicine by her..haha
when im in a problem, she always help to solve it, giving me tips..support..semangat..well i can say she's one of the best ex i got..hahaha. its true..
Mahdi...the tough guy...he somehow give me courage and strengh. whenever im down, he always try his best to cheer me up, asking me to go out with him..have fun...i treated him as my brother..and he also lighten me up to have regular exercise...haha. thanks man :D
Suhana...my dearest, most bestest3 friend i ever had..yes, we only knew each other Exactly 6 months..but because i always helped her, be there for her...she treated me the same way too..
i did remember, when i having serious problem with my family, she is the first one to help me out..during that time, i was lonely, no one could help...so i seek her for help. in the end..she did..
she somehow open up my heart..told me the most important things in life...that is when i started to deeply fall in love with her and learn more about this world..
because of her kindness, caring, language, respect and her good deeds...
she caught up my heart..for 5 months i love her, i didnt even let her go..
i know, everything i done, she will always appriciate it. cause she's a girl that never ask for anything. she just live her life simple and sweet, and appriciate anyone who help her.
thats why i putting my life into her in the first place, helping suhana and her family, try my best to be there for her..give her encouragement, give her support, give her faith and show her the right path..
even my mum said its good that i help someone like suhana..
i treated her as my girlfriend somehow...and of course with the bestest3 friend too.. =)
because of suhana, my life are getting better and beautiful each day..
because of mahdi, sabrina and fadzillah, my life are getting alot easier each day..
i cried each day..not because of sadness, but tears of happiness. because i managed to find someone that i could rely on..someone that could brighten up my life..someone that could be there for me..
i appriciate everything they done to me..and i will Cherish them in my entire life :')
the 4 of them, are the only ones that appriciate all the good deeds i done and the most important person in my life..no one else..
like mum used to say, just leave the person who didnt appriciate me..
useless to have them in my life.
right now, 1 more person will be added soon...that is my Godsister..haha.
yeah, my Sis..Kak Ayu..she will be my important person in life. no doubt. hee ^^
right now, one of the most imporant person in my life is gonna disappear herself..because the things i said in the last previous posts..i cant believe some of the part she misunderstood it..
why...why must this happen? everytime when love going to happen, surely something bad appear, mesti ader sesuatu yang menghalang kite...kenape...kenape???
ape kesalahan yg aku pernah buat pade dier???
dier langsung tk pernah buat ape2 kesalahan kepade aku..
kenape harus menjadi bergini??
just ended up our call just now...
she said, tonight was the last call..i cant believe it..
how to make her realise? how to change her mind? if there's hope to change it, pls do so..im praying for it.
i just dont want her to change herself or making dissappearance of herself..
i dun want her to loose contact with each other again..
i dun want to have any last call from her..
cause i Might not know the same her...
which happen to my old Bestie before..
*pls pls pls...im begging euu..stop doing this..
it will not change us into the good or the better...it will became bad and the worst..
and im crying for euu ryte now, crying so much lyke a baby..big baby..
pls believe me, things will be better if euu stop trying to do what euu gonna do for the next 2,3 or 4 months..or more..
i want to celebrate ur birthday together..
i dun want to see euu celebrate by urself with lonelyness..
i want to study with euu together..
i dun want to see getting stress out all by urself..
i know euu love me lots..
like what euu wrote in ur posts..and i could tell by ur body language towards me..
euu love me not for what i am..but for who i am..
euu love me for what i've done all the good things towards euu..
euu didnt do any mistakes to me, trust me..pls..euu got it all wrong :'(
i trying ver hard to change the decision that euu made..
im letting euu knw something important..which will make euu shocked somehow..
dear, the reason i wanna celebrate ur birthday, cause im making a memorable one.
because i already planned to give euu the presents and..a lovely kiss to ur cheeks..
a kiss to tell euu how much i miss euu,
how much i love euu,
how much...i truely want euu and needed euu
and how much...i appriciate euu..enjoy every moement with euu..
thats why each days passed, my love towards euu getting stronger..
thats why i waited for the rightful moment..
which is the special day or urs..31st of July..
hopefully, euu could change ur decision..haish
yeah now im crying like hell..
i might end up flooding the whole Woodlands, just because i crying for her..
Sweet isnt it? lol.
im seriously gonna MIA if she dissappear.
but i will still visit her family...her mum..
cause her mum, was like mine..
her family, was like mine..
and her lil' sis, was like mine too..
cause i care about her family..
anyone care to help?
cause right now,
my tears will soon become blood..tears coming out too much
my eyes gonna be swollen..cried too much
my heart is beating so hard..like having a heartattack
my head is spinning uncontiously...gonna faint
my life will felt lonely to the core..because of loosing her
things will change alot..to the bad or worst..no doubt about it.
cause i experienced it..thats why..
what should i do?
what should i do??
what should i do???
*oh and pls, i nt trying to be Drama King uhh...i somehow figure out that i havent show my appriciation to them...so thats why im doing it ryte now..and hopefully things will be back to normal*
i cant believe it's all misunderstanding...she did read my blog, i appriciate it...
but somehow, there's a part that she misunderstood it..
gosh! tk sangke leh terjadi pulak..
yah..the one i referring to those who not appriciate all the good deeds i done, and just treat me like a dog, taking advantage is some of my friends and my ex classmates..
its true...for the past 4 yrs, i kept thinking bout it, all the things that i done, you guys didnt appriciate me at all. you guys just pushing me around, making me like a fool and taking advantages of it. shouting here and there, bullying me around...i do remember during sec 1 and 2 ok. i still remember clearly..damn you guys..if that time i was brave enough, i would have choke you guys to death.
the people around me that DO appriciate me is Sabrina, Fadzillah, Mahdi and her...Suhana..
i know them well...i know them very well..thats why i treasured them..thats why i trusted them.
whenever im down, whenever i sick or whenever im in a problem. 4 of them...surely help me..
Sabrina...always cheer me up, giving faith and support and blanje me also. coming to the end of sec 4, that is the time we getting along. lol. i syg her as my bestie ^^
Fadzillah...she used to be my ex during sec 1...ryte now, we were close friends, we were besties.
she normally always be there for me..when im sick...i was forced to eat medicine by her..haha
when im in a problem, she always help to solve it, giving me tips..support..semangat..well i can say she's one of the best ex i got..hahaha. its true..
Mahdi...the tough guy...he somehow give me courage and strengh. whenever im down, he always try his best to cheer me up, asking me to go out with him..have fun...i treated him as my brother..and he also lighten me up to have regular exercise...haha. thanks man :D
Suhana...my dearest, most bestest3 friend i ever had..yes, we only knew each other Exactly 6 months..but because i always helped her, be there for her...she treated me the same way too..
i did remember, when i having serious problem with my family, she is the first one to help me out..during that time, i was lonely, no one could help...so i seek her for help. in the end..she did..
she somehow open up my heart..told me the most important things in life...that is when i started to deeply fall in love with her and learn more about this world..
because of her kindness, caring, language, respect and her good deeds...
she caught up my heart..for 5 months i love her, i didnt even let her go..
i know, everything i done, she will always appriciate it. cause she's a girl that never ask for anything. she just live her life simple and sweet, and appriciate anyone who help her.
thats why i putting my life into her in the first place, helping suhana and her family, try my best to be there for her..give her encouragement, give her support, give her faith and show her the right path..
even my mum said its good that i help someone like suhana..
i treated her as my girlfriend somehow...and of course with the bestest3 friend too.. =)
because of suhana, my life are getting better and beautiful each day..
because of mahdi, sabrina and fadzillah, my life are getting alot easier each day..
i cried each day..not because of sadness, but tears of happiness. because i managed to find someone that i could rely on..someone that could brighten up my life..someone that could be there for me..
i appriciate everything they done to me..and i will Cherish them in my entire life :')
the 4 of them, are the only ones that appriciate all the good deeds i done and the most important person in my life..no one else..
like mum used to say, just leave the person who didnt appriciate me..
useless to have them in my life.
right now, 1 more person will be added soon...that is my Godsister..haha.
yeah, my Sis..Kak Ayu..she will be my important person in life. no doubt. hee ^^
right now, one of the most imporant person in my life is gonna disappear herself..because the things i said in the last previous posts..i cant believe some of the part she misunderstood it..
why...why must this happen? everytime when love going to happen, surely something bad appear, mesti ader sesuatu yang menghalang kite...kenape...kenape???
ape kesalahan yg aku pernah buat pade dier???
dier langsung tk pernah buat ape2 kesalahan kepade aku..
kenape harus menjadi bergini??
just ended up our call just now...
she said, tonight was the last call..i cant believe it..
how to make her realise? how to change her mind? if there's hope to change it, pls do so..im praying for it.
i just dont want her to change herself or making dissappearance of herself..
i dun want her to loose contact with each other again..
i dun want to have any last call from her..
cause i Might not know the same her...
which happen to my old Bestie before..
*pls pls pls...im begging euu..stop doing this..
it will not change us into the good or the better...it will became bad and the worst..
and im crying for euu ryte now, crying so much lyke a baby..big baby..
pls believe me, things will be better if euu stop trying to do what euu gonna do for the next 2,3 or 4 months..or more..
i want to celebrate ur birthday together..
i dun want to see euu celebrate by urself with lonelyness..
i want to study with euu together..
i dun want to see getting stress out all by urself..
i know euu love me lots..
like what euu wrote in ur posts..and i could tell by ur body language towards me..
euu love me not for what i am..but for who i am..
euu love me for what i've done all the good things towards euu..
euu didnt do any mistakes to me, trust me..pls..euu got it all wrong :'(
i trying ver hard to change the decision that euu made..
im letting euu knw something important..which will make euu shocked somehow..
dear, the reason i wanna celebrate ur birthday, cause im making a memorable one.
because i already planned to give euu the presents and..a lovely kiss to ur cheeks..
a kiss to tell euu how much i miss euu,
how much i love euu,
how much...i truely want euu and needed euu
and how much...i appriciate euu..enjoy every moement with euu..
thats why each days passed, my love towards euu getting stronger..
thats why i waited for the rightful moment..
which is the special day or urs..31st of July..
hopefully, euu could change ur decision..haish
yeah now im crying like hell..
i might end up flooding the whole Woodlands, just because i crying for her..
Sweet isnt it? lol.
im seriously gonna MIA if she dissappear.
but i will still visit her family...her mum..
cause her mum, was like mine..
her family, was like mine..
and her lil' sis, was like mine too..
cause i care about her family..
anyone care to help?
cause right now,
my tears will soon become blood..tears coming out too much
my eyes gonna be swollen..cried too much
my heart is beating so hard..like having a heartattack
my head is spinning uncontiously...gonna faint
my life will felt lonely to the core..because of loosing her
things will change alot..to the bad or worst..no doubt about it.
cause i experienced it..thats why..
what should i do?
what should i do??
what should i do???
*oh and pls, i nt trying to be Drama King uhh...i somehow figure out that i havent show my appriciation to them...so thats why im doing it ryte now..and hopefully things will be back to normal*
haish :'(
2:07 AM
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
By the way, now i already know what and how is the feeling of Agony..and believe me, i hate it very much. cause it's an unpleasent feelings that should not be having in your life.
5:37 PM
all the best..
dear blog..
there's nothing else i could do..all i can do is to watch her being happy with someone else..
i've heard that she wanna be with her ex..if its true...then..i just have to let her go..
at least, i knew about it..not like she secretly gonna be together..
not like in the previous dream, that bad dream of mine. the dream that she secretly patched up with her ex..
so..suhana...all the best for both of Euu uhh..hopefully tuhan akan selalu melindungi korang berdue.
having Euu is the best thing in my life..but when letting Euu go...its such a pain..
but when Euu have someone else, i do felt jealous..but felt happy for Euu at the same time..cause Euu have someone to love with..
maybe its not my chance to be with Euu..i purposely didnt want to ask Euu to be my relationship or didnt make my move..cause..i heard, many guys are trying to be with Euu..
cause its hard for Euu to decide..
even now, ur ex or other guys ask Euu to be their relationship, Euu cant even answer..
cause in your mind, Euu're confuse..and felt complicated..isnt that true? i know ur feelings all along. thats is how i know Euu very well..
suhana...if Euu cant understand ur own feelings...how r u gonna understand someone else too..?
and thats why i didnt make any move of mine..i just kept quiet and see how things will be..
if no one ask Euu to be their relationship, i would have do so since last week..pasal setiap kali i nk tanye Euu, mesti ade sesuatu yang terjadi..macam ader halangan gitu...
i had a feeling that deep inside Euu, i know there's a part that Euu love me. but Euu cant express it towards me. Euu were nervous..shy...embarrassed..i just wished that one day Euu will express it..cause if Euu did, Euu really gonna make me happy =)
i hope i will know all ur feelings before everything changes..
now, what is left for me?
what else can i do...?
i juz kept hiding inside my room whole day..keeping quiet myself..
becoming more...silent..
there's nothing else i could do..all i can do is to watch her being happy with someone else..
i've heard that she wanna be with her ex..if its true...then..i just have to let her go..
at least, i knew about it..not like she secretly gonna be together..
not like in the previous dream, that bad dream of mine. the dream that she secretly patched up with her ex..
so..suhana...all the best for both of Euu uhh..hopefully tuhan akan selalu melindungi korang berdue.
having Euu is the best thing in my life..but when letting Euu go...its such a pain..
but when Euu have someone else, i do felt jealous..but felt happy for Euu at the same time..cause Euu have someone to love with..
maybe its not my chance to be with Euu..i purposely didnt want to ask Euu to be my relationship or didnt make my move..cause..i heard, many guys are trying to be with Euu..
cause its hard for Euu to decide..
even now, ur ex or other guys ask Euu to be their relationship, Euu cant even answer..
cause in your mind, Euu're confuse..and felt complicated..isnt that true? i know ur feelings all along. thats is how i know Euu very well..
suhana...if Euu cant understand ur own feelings...how r u gonna understand someone else too..?
and thats why i didnt make any move of mine..i just kept quiet and see how things will be..
if no one ask Euu to be their relationship, i would have do so since last week..pasal setiap kali i nk tanye Euu, mesti ade sesuatu yang terjadi..macam ader halangan gitu...
i had a feeling that deep inside Euu, i know there's a part that Euu love me. but Euu cant express it towards me. Euu were nervous..shy...embarrassed..i just wished that one day Euu will express it..cause if Euu did, Euu really gonna make me happy =)
i hope i will know all ur feelings before everything changes..
now, what is left for me?
what else can i do...?
i juz kept hiding inside my room whole day..keeping quiet myself..
becoming more...silent..
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**Euu touched my heart in a way no ONE else did before**
12:13 PM
Monday, June 16, 2008
nth to say
dear blog...
things are now getting complicated. i dunno what else i wanna say..
tsk..i cant believe..sometimes i wish myself i would never been born..
cause..i already learn too much about this world..and the more i kept thinking bout it, the more my tears will be streaming down my cheeks..
ryte now..no one can tell how i feel, like whether im hurt, or cried, or happy or in anger..
i may have drenched with tears and sorrow...
but deep inside, no one knows my love and devotion that i will show towards someone that i truely love.
not even my mum, not even my dad, not even my friends..and maybe except for her..
no one knows..
ryte now i kept wandering..all the good deeds that i done towards everyone, are they appriciate bout it?
or are they just taking advantages of it and forget all of it..?
sometimes i would just wanna end my life just like that, and see how is their reaction when im gone..when im not around..
how i wish i would know how long is my life gonna be..
now..i just want to have someone that i could hug with..talk with..
cause this really make me in pain...
no one ever knew about this..
where are euu? i need euu right now...its hurtful.
things are now getting complicated. i dunno what else i wanna say..
tsk..i cant believe..sometimes i wish myself i would never been born..
cause..i already learn too much about this world..and the more i kept thinking bout it, the more my tears will be streaming down my cheeks..
ryte now..no one can tell how i feel, like whether im hurt, or cried, or happy or in anger..
i may have drenched with tears and sorrow...
but deep inside, no one knows my love and devotion that i will show towards someone that i truely love.
not even my mum, not even my dad, not even my friends..and maybe except for her..
no one knows..
ryte now i kept wandering..all the good deeds that i done towards everyone, are they appriciate bout it?
or are they just taking advantages of it and forget all of it..?
sometimes i would just wanna end my life just like that, and see how is their reaction when im gone..when im not around..
how i wish i would know how long is my life gonna be..
now..i just want to have someone that i could hug with..talk with..
cause this really make me in pain...
no one ever knew about this..
where are euu? i need euu right now...its hurtful.
11:44 PM
URGH!!!
Dear blog...
It's already 4.30pm exactly right now and Otak aku tengok Sot giler nye...!
Dari previous posts kul 3am sampai skarang aku masih tk leh tido ni. ya'allah..
Otak aku dah lah sakit, leh jadi giler aku... XD hahaha.
SeeeTeeeResss!!!
Hmm..dah hujan lebat...maybe aku gi mandi hujan uhh...heh ^^
It's already 4.30pm exactly right now and Otak aku tengok Sot giler nye...!
Dari previous posts kul 3am sampai skarang aku masih tk leh tido ni. ya'allah..
Otak aku dah lah sakit, leh jadi giler aku... XD hahaha.
SeeeTeeeResss!!!
Hmm..dah hujan lebat...maybe aku gi mandi hujan uhh...heh ^^
4:30 PM
CANT SLEEP!!!
!!!!!CANT SLEEP!!!!!
=(
Dear blog,
right now its like going to be 3am already. somehow, its 45mins after i putting down the phone talking with her, Suhana. i just finished giving her a friendster comment, an apology about the bad phone call.
I not sure why when i called her, my mind just went blank in an instance. just a sudden blank.. really felt sorry for her that i didn't talk much. now, i cant even sleep uhh..like something or somewhat bothering me. I keep thinking too much and maybe..worried also.
But still i not sure what am i worrying about.
Every now and then, i kept glaring at Suhana picture..dunno lah why..i dont even know myself why am i missing her badly or worried bout her too much. Not saying that i desperate for her larh, just that, afraid of loosing someone? Especially her? Especially Suhana?
I'm afraid that history might repeat itself, which happens around 5 years ago..
I just dont want that to happen again.
Loving Suhana its like totally bring me into a new level. Cause i never ever love someone like this before. Its like, this is the first time i really love someone right now. But if wanna know something, when i love her, surely i will also love her mum, her family.
Suhana used to ask me before, "would you mind about my family? Example like if they disability, or serious illness, or something like that.
Do you still love me? and my family?"
That was like 5 months ago she asked me. But i did told her that if i love her, that means i would also love her family, whether they handicap, or serious illness, or disability. Cause if i love her, that means sooner or later her family will be mine too. That's why we must learn to accept the lover's family.
But there is 1 thing that somehow make me wander till now.
Remember the older posts about the bad thing happen between us?
Like someone sabotaging or blackmailing me? About the familiar me at CWP?
There is 1 time she did told me if anyone plays with her heart or really hurt her badly, she would leave that person away and would not even talk, contact or even chat with the person.
But during that time, when things already ended up complicated, she somehow already gave up on me, but suddenly, we still contacting with each other the next few days.
I dont get it from that time till now.
Does that means i actually lightens up her heart since the 5 months ago..?
or actually its hard for her to leave someone like me?and somehow she actually did put hope on me?
But 1 thing for sure, she already found out that the familiar me at the CWP, she said IT IS NOT ME, that particular person she saw was someone else. She did apologise to me, but of course i forgive her.
THANK GOD she told me the familiar guy wasnt me.
I was damn lucky that i didnt loose her or so.
If that truely happens, im gonna MERANE sepanjang diriku seh. haha. ^^
So yeah..From the past 5 months till now, i still love her and my feelings towards her didnt flushed away..
I really appriciate for having someone as Suhana in my life. Really changed my life alot seh.. It's like, when im surrounded in the darkness, i have no path and my vision is blacken. But when Suhana is in my life, its like, somehow she shines a light in my life, show the path and brightens up my heart every now and then. Better to say, she's like a gurdian angel.
Only 5 or 6 months, both of us were getting closer and closer. =)
Her mum actually likes me alot, she even treated me as anak angkat.
My mum somehow wanna meet Suhana, cause my mum didnt meet her before. Hah.
So yeah, guess thats it..what else i can say?
erm.. thats all?..right now is 3.50am..WHAT??? 3.50am??? WHAT? THE? HELL??
Blog, im writing this post for 1 hour? Geez, it got to be kidding me. but still I cant go to bed!! urgh!! guess i have to be awake for the whole night. -.-" darn it.
anything i juz update here.
Take care of yourself Suhana.. Good Night and Sweet Dream. and ily lots..
erm..itu je lah, Semoge Tuhan akan selalu melindungi Euu..
Oh and kirim salam at your mum if Euu read this post.
Outs~~
2:46 AM
Saturday, June 14, 2008
LOVE IS AROUND US
LOVE IS AROUND US
Came back home around 11pm+, once i reached home, straight away sms her that im home. in my mind, i thought of that so that i wouldnt make her worried..told her i will call after i take my bath.
dah mandi semue, online kat msn, she also online...ape lagik, kacau dier arh...haha. and of course i call her too.
berbual2 sampai pukul 12pm+ agaknye, then she wanna go to bed..
so, ok lah, i dont wanna make her stay up too long.
everynight surely we will always wish each other goodnight.
but for me..i do wished her too, but, i even confessed to her..
confessed to her that ILY..heard her voice, she blushed all the way, like, cant take it or so..
haha, told her to calm down and so on..and yeah, i even said i miss her voice..
If everyday and for the past few months we're already being sooo close together and even trusting each other perfectly, i think it's the best time to be together..
Cause In my mind, I positively thought that we will having and Everlasting Love.
But, I not sure for her, if she did have the same feeling as I do, then I really really happy bout it, and would really love to be with her. no break ups or whatsoever.
I know when being together, there would surely have Happy times, Sad, Cheerful, Loving, Romantic, Enjoyable moment and even Quarrel or Anger. That is what Love means.
But, whatever that happens when we're together, I wouldnt give up on her.
I would still move on with her no matter what..that is the top priority and promise from me.
Having her around, is like bringing cheerful, happy times, and I also felt calm too.. I do have bout 3 or 4 ex, but in my experience, all my love towards them its like nothing. I've being played around a lot of times, the trust with each other is such a fake. But right now, with her, everything is soo different compared to the others. Now I know what love means, and we even bring joy to each other. We trust each other 100%, perfectly, no doubt. When I'm down, or sad, or frustrated, she will always be there for me, help me and even understand me well..It's better to say, she is the sweetest, loveable, understanding gerl I ever known, and I really don't wanna loose a gerl like you.
Most people, or even my fwens said that love is blind. But, no, its not true..I don't believe such a thing. Maybe we love someone, but in the end we were played by them, cause maybe that isn't our fate. Maybe it is meant to show us that isn't the right one for us. But one day, that particular person came up in your life, always being there for you, always miss you soo much, or even said that he or she love you. That means that particular person is yours, truely. That is what I did to her, I miss her, love and care towards her, till she blushed... =)
When there's a chance to be with someone, it's better to go for it, don't hesitate or wait any longer, if you scared or worried that bad things might end up again, but you believe he or she is the right one, give yourself another chance, cause it could be the person in your life. If you just leave your chance like that, you will regret, you will loose your love in your life.
Right now, all of my confession have been told, all my truth have been revealed and all my words have been spoken out. All I have to do is to wait for her, hoping that she accept me, and move on our life together as one. Oh and btw, I promised her to buy her favourite chocolate, she will get it next week. ^_^
Till here my story..ends...
12:11 AM
Friday, June 13, 2008
Tough Luck
Tough Luck
Yeah...tough luck..
yesterday, is the quater-finals of my team game competition. The Call Of Duty 4 Tournament
16 teams, including around the world, like China, Malaysia, USA, Singapore, battle it out to win the grand prize of $5000 Cash.
It will broadcast at the Sling HD channel, on Mio TV. but, too bad lah, we didn't own Singtel Mio TV.
If only they came out at Starhub digital cable, that would be great...
Well, yesterday really really tough luck. Our competitors are from China.
1st round, our scores are 340 - 440. They leading by 100 pts..
In the 2nd round, they win by 490 - 480. Like wth? Won us by 1 kill only..
The pro team even encourage and give us support, but in the end, we ended such a dissappointed scores. But, team BF.Nut, they said they could train us, and if we're good, they could recruit us in their Clan. One of the Professional teams in Singapore.
Hopefully things will be better in the future..
From 9am till 9.30 pm at bukit merah, really damn tiring..
All my mood is gone, nothing to do anymore.
At around 9.45pm or so, all of a sudden, She called me..i was like totally shocked..
but in my heart, i felt pleased and appriciate that she did.
then what else i do? of course i happily talked on the phone with her.
Kacau2, gurau2..buat lawak..sooner or later, i relieved my stress, my mind is calm and i'm happy than ever..thanks to her, my bad mood is gone. hee ^^
Continue in the next post...
10:22 PM
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Lalalalla
All of the above is my Archery Training. The one in black is on Sunday, training at St. Andrew's JC at Potong Pasir. Damn far man. Made me go there from woodlands. Damn Sian! hahaha.
Anyway, one of that days, is the day of A Confession Of A True Love.
Hmm..U get what i mean.
Well, hope things will still be better as we move on.
"I wrote your name in my heart, and forever it will stays"
And i belive, we will having An Everlasting Love
2:54 PM
